Smile like you mean it 😋
The snow has been rained away now thankfully. I love the snow but only in small doses and when it doesn't interfere with my commute to work.
I'm still battling this cold and now have the withdrawal symptoms from coming of my meds thrown in there as well. It's day three which I was expecting to be difficult. It's like a weird brain fog has taken over, more so than the normal fog I have due to my cold. I'm also getting these weird electric shocks or 'brain zaps' which is the weirdest feeling. I'm also dizzy and lethargic feeling which isn't too great. I'm going to keep resting as much as I can, probably go for a bath later and just try to drink plenty of water and eat lots of nutritious food to keep my energy levels up.
I'm being so open about this because people don't talk enough about mental health, antidepressants, side effects and how they feel. There's still such a stigma around what is such a common thing and I want others to know that it's ok! Talk more! The more we do, the more people will stop feeling weird, wrong, out of place or like they've failed. Getting help for your mental health is a good thing, you're taking responsibility for your health and that's a good thing! Don't let anyone tell you otherwise.
My name is Amber and I live in Saskatchewan, Canada. I have postpartum anxiety. I think it is important to share this and be visible because people talk a lot about postpartum depression but not much about PPA. I also want parents (parents who have not given birth can also experience PPA/PPD) to know that they are not alone, and that there is help! Thank-you @amberlee83 for sharing about yourself! ————————————————————————- (Additional side note by me, it is obvious much more work must be done in the area of postpartum mental illness when you simply Google search it. I was unable to find adequate statistics and the numbers vary wildly.)
————————————————————————-Mental Health statistics vary, yet what remains the same is the number one, that number is all around us. That “one in __” is you, me, your mother, cousin, coworker, neighbour, and friend.
This January we are taking the opportunity to put a face to the number one and to discuss the importance of visibility. If you would like to join us, please send a DM, and I will gladly add your photo to this collection. ————————————————————————- *The statistics provided are generalizations and may be World Wide or North American. The figure I’m most interested in is “one”. Regardless of the percent or amount of individuals with a disorder, the number one represents those of us impacted, of whom there are many. Side note I have used the common terms “depression” & “anxiety” instead of their full names, based purely on space.
From Alison (@therealalisonhart):
“My mental illness journey started in 9th grade when I noticed I started to develop really bad anxiety. I would panic days before I knew I would be hanging out with friends, and then when leading up to the day, I would be so emotionally and physically drained it felt like I wasn't me anymore. This lead me to not go out but instead stay at home which lead to my depression.
Having people in my life who I care about and who care about me helps me get through a lot. It also helps me to accept that this doesn't have to be a daily struggle as I’m finding more ways to cope with my mental illness.
Every day is a learning point for me. Each day I'm finding ways to better myself. As of now I do see a bright future ahead, and that's all because of me letting people in and for me helping other people know that they’re not alone.
Sharing about your mental illness is the first step to recovery. Honestly it has helped me feel more free and less trapped.
I’ve learned that I'm not alone. My mental illness will try to control me, but I'm stronger than it, and I will not let it win.”
An endo flare up has hit me this week and I’m feeling all kinds of miserable and exhausted.
I found myself feeling guilty for spending my day on the couch instead of doing something productive. The word lazy came to mind, a word that has been used to describe me many times by family members, friends and acquaintances. It’s a word I’m sure a lot of sufferers of chronic illness are used to hearing as well. It’s also a massive fucking lie.
As fighters and survivors we have every right to take it easy. We spend 99% of our time battling our own bodies and own minds we deserve a break to look after ourselves every once in awhile. So fuck other people’s opinions and take care of yourself ❤️ #endometriosis#IBS#chronicillness#spoonie#mentalhealth#mentalillness#selfcare#selflove#depression#anxiety#life#love#live
What does it feel like to live with a mentally ill mind? I’ve said this before but it’s the best way I know how describe it: it’s like floating on a sea at night, no land in sight and only the dark and dangerous water under you. Self doubt, self harm, suicidal ideations, compulsive behavior and habits, all swimming around under you like sharks. We do our level best to stay above water, to stay positive and happy and functioning, but sometimes the raft we have is not enough and we sink. We do our best to keep that raft full of all the good feelings and experiences we’ve had, filling it up over and over again if we have to. But yes, we are still going to sink sometimes because a lot of us have found that world is a largely cruel and chaotic place. Before you dispute me, consider that you haven’t walked in my shoes and you haven’t seen what I’ve seen. So sometimes we sink. It does get harder and harder to reach out because people around us can’t see us sinking. They don’t see the dark water underneath breathing to swallow us up and drown us out forever. They don’t see that through your forced awkward smile you are begging, BEGGING them with your eyes to see how broken and hurting you are and empathize. We get told over and over again that we’re being too dramatic or just not to worry. We are met with negativity to the point we’re we come to expect it, adding even more to the depression and feelings of worthlessness. I’ve learned that you can’t expect others to build you up, quite the opposite in fact. You have to expect that people will tear you down because you’re not like them and they can’t FATHOM why that is. You are foreign and scary and very few people will ever want to get to know someone like that beyond the superficial awkward misunderstandings. You have to focus on the things that make you feel like your most authentic self and DO THAT. Because ultimately this life is yours and yours alone. Nothing will every change if you don’t get up and fight to change it yourself. And trust me, you’re worth the effort 🌸🦄 #mentalhealth#mentalillness#mentalhealthawareness#agoraphobia#anxiety#anxietydisorder#anxietyattack#depression#selfharmmm#suicidalthoughts
decided to already post #lunch which I'll have in about 2 hrs but tbh I feel awful, #mentally and physically. since I had to join a group discussion infront of my english class my anxiety has been sky high and it's impacting my physical wellbeing. the stomachache is almost impossible to stand it's like knifes are stabbing me over and over again and the air in my belly hurts too I don't want to eat fuck this shit I want to go home but I'm not allowed to miss classes w out a doctors certificate and I have to be present at school for 8 out of 10 weeks straight I want to cry and scream but I hold it all back as usual
We’re not invincible.
As much as I’d like to be positive and successful and strong, it’s completely normal to have moments of weakness, contempt and fragility. I may have come so far in the last year, but I am still mentally unwell. I still have moments of complete and utter hopelessness for life and humanity. My ed hangs around in the shadows, patiently waiting for vulnerability to pounce and seize back control. It’s naive to think I’m immune to this - as I have been most of the year. I am ashamed of regressing, after so much progression. I am supposed to be better, to go places, to do things. But I can’t ignore the fight I’ve fought, and the battle I’m still battling.
💙The world is a better place with you in it. Hang in there. 💙If you're struggling it's a great idea to talk to someone. If you're in Australia you can give lifeline a call on 13 11 14, in the US the national suicide prevention lifeline on 1-800-273-8255 or in the UK Samaritans on 116 123. Or dial your local emergency number or go to ER. If you're somewhere else a quick google search should give you some options or head to the website's help section for worldwide links - link in bio. 💙 #storyofthemind#mentalhealth#motivationalquotes
I don't know where I would be without this girlie.@maddie.pidd The only good thing that came out of day program waa the chance to meet you x I can't wait to complete out bucket list of things together ! ----- We went out for dinner and shared this to die of gnocchi, although we discovered that maybe goats cheese is not for everyone haha. I love saying the word gnocchi. Like Guh- knock- ie 😂
Today was a lazy day. Walked the dogs, washed the car, swam in the pool, coffeed with the sibling and chilled.
Heute fängt Germany’s Topmodel 2 an und mir ist klar geworden, dass ich abnehmen muss! Ich bin jetzt 1,5 Wochen mit X zusammen und würde gerne einmal mit ihm ins Schwimmbad gehen. Aber das kann ich nicht machen, da ich mich einfach sehr unwohl fühle im Bikini. Ich würde gerne X Kilo wiegen, das wäre perfekt! Leider nehme ich mir dauernd vor abzunehmen und halte es nie ein, aber diesmal muss es klappen! Heute habe ich noch einmal eine richtige Fressattacke gehabt (eigentlich habe ich das ständig). Ich werde ab morgen sehr bewusst essen! Ich glaube an mich! Bikinifigur ich komme!
Dieser Original Tagebucheintrag entstand in meiner „symptomfreien“ Phasen. Nach einer Hungerperiode und starken Gewichtsabnahme, erschien ich zu dieser Zeit äußerlich gesund. Meine Gedanken drehten sich aber dauerhaft um meinem furchtbar fetten Körper, der objektiv betrachtet vollkommen normal war. Das ist eins der wenigen Ganzkörper-Fotos aus dieser Zeit. Zu diesem figurbetonten Outfit habe ich mich überreden lassen, was ich nach Betrachten der Aufnahme direkt bereut habe. 🤮 Ich habe mich fürchterlich gefühlt, als ich gesehen habe, wie dick ich darauf aussehe. 🐖🐘 Eine voll ausgeprägte Körperschemastörung, die übrigens auch schon einer Grundschullehrerin aufgefallen ist, nachdem ich eine Collage von mir selbst machen musste. Ich habe einen winzigen Kopf auf einen überdimensional großen Körper gesetzt. Bei einem Kind in diesem Alter hat man sich dann aber auch keine weiteren Gedanken mehr darum gemacht. 🤷🏼♀️
Ach übrigens: Wie lange hat mein Vorsatz vom 01.März 2007 gehalten? Einen Tag. Dann hatte ich die nächste Fressattacke. Das ging so weiter, bis ich mir ca. ein Jahr später das erste Mal den Finger in den Hals gesteckt habe.
Welche Erfahrung habt ihr mit dem Thema Körperschemastöung? Könnt ihr euch realistisch auf Bildern und im Spiegel betrachten oder seht ihr etwas anders, als die Menschen in euerem Umfeld?
❗️Würdet ihr mir den Gefallen tun und das Outfit ignorieren??🤦🏼♀️
MEET THE CREATIVE TEAM OF "WHAT I LEFT BEHIND": In addition to our cast of actors, our production wouldn't be what it is without our director, Sarah Jane Schostack!
Sarah is an NYC based actor and director. Select NYC directing credits include "Manere Fortis" (Semi-Finalist in the Take Ten Festival) and "No Stranger There" by Luke Wise (2014 Samuel French Finalist). Select regional directing credits include "Junie B. Jones: The Musical" (Cider Mill Playhouse) and "Mary Poppins" (Lost Nation Theatre). Select associate/assistant directing credits include "Lincoln Center Originals: CRY HAVOC" (Lincoln Center), "There is A Field" (National Tour), "The Stone Will Roll" (New York Theatre Workshop), "Trip to Bountiful" (Hangar Theatre), and three seasons under Michael Unger at the 12.14 Foundation/NewArts Newtown Muscials. She has been a SDCF Observer to Peter Flynn and the City Theatre for Smart Blonde and an Associate Member of the SDCF. She thanks Anthony, the cast, crew, and the NYWinterfest for all the hardwork!
We hope you'll come and see all the hard work that Sarah and the rest of our production team has put into "What I Left Behind" this week at the Hudson Guild Theatre on January 25th, 26th and 28th. In the meantime, stay tuned tomorrow and Wednesday to learn more about our two lead actors!
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BroadwayWorld.com coverage: www.broadwayworld.com/article/Anthony-J-Piccione-Explores-Teen-Suicide-in-WHAT-I-LEFT-BEHIND-20180102
ReviewFix.com coverage: www.reviewfix.com/2018/01/review-fix-exclusive-anthony-j-piccione-talks-left-behind/
👆This is so true!
I'm so disappointed with myself right now. I wanted to get back to work today but yesterday afternoon I woke up from a nap in panic. I felt the same fear as usual. The fear of not being good, believable, worthy, loved or even sick enough. It's always the same when I'm sick. My Mum never believed me as a child and often she was right as I kept making up illnesses to not have to go to school. But instead of asking for the issues or encouraging me she always made me feel like a huge disappointment. A failure. A weak piece of 💩. And all of these feelings keep popping up again whenever I have to go back. It's like facing my Mum again and being scared that she won't believe me. She'll only hate me. And although I know that it isn't true (my boss sent me a group foto of the dinner with a very nice message on Thursday night) I just can't stop being scared again. I've lost trust in myself. Am I really sick or is this just my mind again? And if it is my mind, will people see it in my face? 😕
So last night I went for a walk and did some sports but still I woke up feeling sick after just 2 hours of sleep. Been up since then, feeling awful. What am I doing? Stop it! It's okay! It doesn't matter! Life will always go on and you have a bf that'll always love you. Tomorrow is a new day. Just keep expectations lower this time. Don't push yourself too much. You know you can do this. You've done it before! 😣#depression#dysthymia#chronicaldepression#anxiety#fears#sadness#ednos#suicidal#mentalillness#selfhate#quotes#life#instaquotes#quoteoftheday#change
‘Stress only happens when we resist life’s events. If you’re neither pushing life away nor pulling it toward you then you are not creating resistance. You are simply present and in this state you are just witnessing and experiencing the events of life taking place. What an amazing process life is, this flow of atoms thro time and space. It’s just an eternal series of events that take form and then instantly dissolve into the next moment. If you resist this amazing force of life, tension builds within you and gets into your body, mind and spiritual heart.’ - Michael A. Singer