💪🏼CONFIDENCE💪🏼 I just got my photos back from a photo shoot I did in New Orleans this past week, and I am SO HAPPY with them!!! I can't thank my new friend Lori Sparkman Hall for the amazing MAGIC that she created with this shoot. Steve was looking at these and started cracking up saying I looked I was going to pee myself I was laughing so hard...😂 Let me tell you, I REALLY don't like taking pictures because I am SO self critical, and I just spend most of the time worried that I won't look the way I WANT to look in any of them.
Pictures of myself can REALLY mess with my psyche.
You would think after all I've gotten through and all I've accomplished, I would be confident as fu&%, right? I'm here to tell you right now that confidence is something I struggle with on the daily. Am I good enough? Am I smart enough? Am I fit enough? Am I strong enough?
I was just at Summit - a place that's full of my fellow tribe, which makes it SO easy to get into the comparison game. In hindsight....STUPID.
This is how badly pictures can mess with me. The Thursday we were there, the day after I'd just completed Core De Force certification, I had taken some pictures with my team, and there was one in particular that made me absolutely CRINGE. I mean CRINGE. CRINGE and CRY and want to just HIDE for the rest of the trip. CRAZY ME. I felt I looked bigger than anyone else next to me. All I could see were what I think are my FLAWS.
After a few tears, I eventually got over it and was able to come back to reality and get back out there.
But it wasn't until I got home and thought about all of the wonderful people I met that I realized that I was the only one thinking about these ridiculous things.
NO ONE else gives a shit about how big my stomach is or how large my arms are or how big I look in pictures (or how big I think those things are). "Your precious wife, you are an amazing person, I loved our time together, you're a total doll, you are awesome, you're a bright light even on your worst day, Nicole, you are a pure soul." Just some of the messages I received after this trip...💜👇🏻👇🏻👇🏻
Soaking up all the sun today, for our last beach day of vacation 🏖☀️🌊 How long do you like to stay on the beach for? I could stay there a half a day before I had kids. Now with kids, the golden time seems to be about two hours, before Nate needs a nap.