I was a victim. I was told to speak up when I was too hesitant. No matter how small or big the situation is there will always be another time and another until you speak up. I was called a liar, I was told I exaggerated, I was told I only called police for reasons to benefit me, multiple versions of what happened were made up. It happened while holding my daughter when she was a baby a couple years ago. There has been no guilt, no remorse, no apologies from the other party after being convicted of battery due to domestic violence. I’m so thankful I listened to the person that told me to speak up you never know the frame of mind the other person is in and what they are capable of doing. Sometimes it’s the ones you least suspect to do this. Be kind to one another! Look out for one another and don’t ever feel ashamed to protect yourself and tell someone! #domesticviolence#domesticviolenceawareness#stopthehate#speakup#protectyourself#loveyourself#october#purpleribbon#dvawareness#dvawarenessmonth#itsnotokay#dontbeashamed#mystory#bekind
I've been debating on whether or not I should write this post for a while. Will people get tired of me talking about my pregnancy? Will I get tired of talking about it? These, and a lot more questions flood my mind whenever I talk about it. Even I have a "get over it" mentality sometimes. Then I remember... I didn't lose my favorite shirt, or forget my wallet at a restaurant. I lost a child. A person, someone, with unique DNA that my husband and I created, the likes of which will never be exactly reproduced ever again. So, yeah, I'm gonna talk about it. I'm gonna tell my story. More than once, but definitely every October.
This is one of those times.
Miscarriage was a word that was hardly part of my vocabulary. A word I never thought would apply to ME. That’s an “other” word. You know, those things that only happen to miscellaneous “other” people, like cancer, horrific car accidents, and house fires. An improbability, but now, part of my story.
I was 24, married for three years, and happily naïve. I found myself pregnant after a couple months of trying and we were thrilled! Though it seemed unreal, I continued onward with a secret and a grin and anxiously awaited my first ultrasound. I took a couple more pregnancy tests just to be sure, and those pretty pink lines reassured me every time.
Then, I started spotting. My heart sank. I frantically searched online for answers, something that would tell me this was normal. But somehow, I knew. I knew it was ending.
A middle of the night trip to the bathroom confirmed I was no longer "just spotting". I woke up my husband and just shook my head at him and cried.
There was now no due date to anticipate.
An ultrasound appointment to cancel.
Announcement gifts to return… or hide… or throw away..
My grief was crippling and confusing. How could I feel this much grief over something so short?
I tried convincing myself that it was no big deal, we’ll try again in a couple weeks, and it was my own fault for getting excited so soon. I even tried to go to work the next morning
To be continued...
Hai namaq Rama. Nama lengkapnya Nanda Aflah Ramadhan. Aq anaknya aktif. Pinter (emang pinter kok 😄) sedikit nakal juga (dikit aja lah, wajar kan 😅) tapi juga suka marah kalo banyak yang menggoda 😣 (mungkin pada gemez sihh sama aku 😝) ibuku suka ngomel2 😏 kalo aku salah ini salah itu, jangan ini jangan itu, 😕. Kalo ayah sayang banget sama aku . Suka belain aku. Tapi kalo lagi marah 😣 uuh nyebelin aq di cuekin 😤.
Tapi ayah ibuku sebenere sayang kok sama aku (ember 😂) I 💗ayah
I 💗 ibu
Thanks a lot 😘😍😍 #myson#mystory#rama#ramaelek#fotoanaklucu#videoanaklucu#fotogenic#candid
Hari ini 21:00 Wita ,, tepat 1tahun yg lalu, kabar itu pertama kalinya kudengar dr suara seorang ibu dngn nada suara terbata" menunggu kepastian kabar tentang anaknya,, Kaget? Iya Shock? Iya
Jangankan bermimpi, membayangkan sja tdk pernah☹
Banyak pertanyaan dikepala,,
Ada apa ini?Kenapa ini?Kok bisa?apa yg sebenarnya terjadi?benarkah ini?..... .
Malam dimna cerita panjang ini dimulai, kebebasannya terenggut,tdk ada negosiasi,tidak ada kata maaf,nama baiknya dicemarkan oleh yg berkuasa dan kami membuat cerita baru seolah" sma baik" sja.
Sampe detik ini msh ada rasa tdk percaya kami sdh melewatinya😢
@ladoanginantonius suami hebat yg ina punya, dia yg slalu menenangkan setiap kekhawatiran,ketakutan ina. Dia yg selalu merangkul erat dan membisikkan "kita bisa melewati, ayo kita seleseikan" we are team sambil dia senyum😗😙. .
Tumbuh dewasa bersamanya,banyak hal positif yg kami bisa ambil, jngn pernah berharap dngn sesamu (manusia),, lidah manusia bisa terpelintir dan ingkar dngn perkataannya sendiri tetapi tdk dengan Tuhan dan janjinya, berpasrahlah padaNya.
Setiap cerita sedih, pasti akan ada cerita bahagia setelahnya.. Tuhan lbh dl tau bahwa kita bisa melawati setiap cerita sedih yg Tuhan takdirkan diluar nalar manusia. Cukup percaya dan meyakiniNya😇
#SomeoneILoveSaturday goes to myself , as selfish as it sounds I deserve to say and dedicate this post to myself. I fell off a few months back on some serious terms but the comeup I’ve made after hitting the bottom of the sea is incredible my willpower and strive to do great things will always be outstanding I’m a go getter and a goal chaser and I couldn’t have done it without my family , @brandonbrocious and of course myself. CHANGE IS GOOD! Cut the toxic people out of your life and see how much further you can go and how much more you can achieve! I now have two jobs again, bust my ass to make a good living for myself and my lovely bf and I’m just making those who love me so happy and making them prouder of me by the second. God is my savior and I’m blessed to say I have been through the struggle, I’ve never judged a soul in my life and never will and I will continue to strive and have the motive to make my life as bright as possible, this is a sappy ass post but here’s to my #gloup#glowup#glowupchallenge#motivation#strongwomen#mystory#donthate#loveyourself
Vốn dĩ, cất giữ nổi buồn của bản thân cũng đã rất mệt mỏi rồi. Vậy nên, đời này nếu có ai đó lắng nghe, chia sẻ và là người chịu giữ giùm nổi buồn của bạn, nhất định phải trân trọng người ấy
Tái bút : Hoàng và con bạn cực nhây 👫👫
Коротко о том, чем мы занимались после работы в Корейском павильоне (ЭКСПО) 🤓
И нет, я не стою так на протяжении всего видео 😏💥
@dance__floor @dance_vine_time #dance @kazakh_dance #춤#танцы @dance_look
Her Story | "Last night after Miles had fallen asleep we snuggled into bed and I could feel your breath - shallow and quick. I rubbed your head and asked if there was anything you wanted to share. Your little voice cracked, you hesitated and then the tears came. "I am just thinking about Maggie. It doesn't seem fair that she died and I miss her." You tried to hold back your tears ... I reminded you that it's ok to feel whatever you feel. Feeling deeply is not always easy, but our tears and our feelings can rinse our hearts. We shared some stories about her and remembered the love she brought to us. I could feel your breath deepen and your tiny body soften. Holding space for tender little hearts to feel their way through loss or change or strong emotions is not easy. We cannot shield them from all that comes with this human existence but I do pray that they will have the tools they need to make it a softer journey. (Maggie Mae was our piglet who died tragically this summer)"
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10 days! Yep ! I went 10 days with almost little to NO SLEEP! before 2 nights ago.
Yes, I am Bipolar.
I don't say I HAVE bipolar disorder.
You can say you have it or you ARE it, it's whatever floats your boat ppl.
Bipolar is a huge part of my identity.
And has been since I was diagnosed in 2003 (officially).
It took a long time to get diagnosed. 2003 was the first time I was institutionalized.
Notice I said FIRST. there would be MANY, too many to count actually, afterwards.
As well as multiple hospitalizations for my eating disorders.
Sleepless nights have been a part of my life since childhood.
They are no fun.
And the longer they stretch the more your mind wanders. Panic sets in. Anxiety gets worse- I have severe anxiety as it is, no sleep makes it ten times worse.
This was a hypomanic stretch, not full mania, hypomania is different, and different for different people.
Mine---mostly panic, irritation, no sleep, racing thoughts, but not super happy and bright sunshine and sparkles, ya know what I'm saying?
Not that mania is fun. It's actually quite dangerous.
I was cycling really fast and my adhd medication burn off in the afternoon was hitting me harder than usual.
Yes, I have ADHD as well.
I know this is kind of a long post, but I realize I haven't written about my bipolar in awhile. I guess I was feeling very antisocial. But I'm coming out of my shell again and want to be more open yet again.
Hari ini aku nonton pawai kesenian ma bunda n ayah.. panas bgt cuacanya☀.. krn capek akhirnya au bobo sore2 eh bangun2 malah demam⛄😞
doain cepet sembuh ya.. sekarang bobo dulu.. Bismillah sehat2.. 🏃👦 #mystory#rishangathayawardhana#rishang#kiddoz
Raw home workout 🔥 On the real tho... Despite what anyone thinks, I, like many others have never had anything handed to me in life. I’ve always leaped head first into life and taken it from there. That’s me. Happy and foolish if you will. 💭 I always hope for the best but the reality is, often sh*t goes south on you. ☝🏼 It’s safe to say that this calisthenics training has been far from easy. I’ve ripped my hands hundred of times, dissapointed myself over and over and bruised my body more times than I can count. 😤 However, I’ve never experienced anything as rewarding as succeeding in training after spending hours and hours training and pushing those reps after reps. 🙅🏼♂️ Still reading? Because this is getting deep... I feel like I get motivated by struggle, to sail against the wind and prove I can do it satisfies me. 🌪 Can you relate? 🤔 I’m a survivor and the message I want to portray is that I hope for all of you guys to have the strength and curage to face any of your problems and take life by the f*** balls. ✊🏼 Life ain’t easy and just know, if you’re in a dark place, things may not get easier, but you’ll get hella stronger. 🔥 Comment ”#ImFearless ” if you made it down here because I wasn’t even gonna post this at first, thoughts in my head...
Mumpung majikan lagi dinas keluar kota, waktunya kencan tipis2 sama YangBuk, YahKung dan Kakak.
Dari dulu pngn bgd ngajakin mrk ke #foodjunction . Pas mau cuz ngebayangin bgd macetnya daerah sana Krn ada perbaikan jalan. Sempet pindah haluan pake grab aja deh..biar gak spaneng saat nyetir. Jadii..sore2 cuz biar smp sana gak mlm2 bgd. Tapiii..Masha Allah..mgkn ini yg dinamakan niat baik pngn nyenengin org tua. Alhamdulillaah..Bener2 dihindarkan dari kemacetan..dan wuuuuzz sdh smp sana sblm magrib.
Bismillah..smoga bs selalu berkarya.. dimudahkan berdagang ku, Biar bisa nyenengin ibuk, ayah dan anak2ku slalu.
Sehat2 yaaa smuaanyaaa..lovyu😘😘😘
My story so far... last year I was at my heaviest at 18.8 and I started to get ill, I went to the doctors and hospital but didn’t listen to the warning signs, I thought I was ok but started to get worse till one day I collapsed in front of my eldest son and friends, turns out I was seriously ill. Ambulance n paramedics worked on me for around 45mins and I ended up in hospital for a couple of days. This happens again at work till enough was enough and I was in for emergency surgery. After that I decided enough was enough, Iv changed my diet and my training. Iv now as of this morning lost 3st and weighed in at 15.8... but I’m not stopping there, I wanna keep going and see what I can achieve.. I couldn’t of done all of this with out my wife and 3 boys... remember life’s to short! #transformation#beforeandafterweightloss#beforeandafter#surgery#bodybuilding#motivation#training#traininghard#fitness#gethealthy#lifestooshort#mystory