I spent this afternoon doing something i never do..... obeying the husband 😂😂 it is often said in our house that I am the boss. And although I do run a strict ship and take over control of most things ( I can't help myself), I don't like to think that I'm the boss 🙊 and I would like to stress that whenever Maisie answers her dad with "you aren't the boss, mummy is" I do always back him up and we stand firm , United and we will always when it comes to parenting , regardless of whether or not we both agree .... She has never , and never will play us off against each other .... Buuuuutttttt in the majority of the things I do take control .... It's born in me to lead and I can't help it! But today I stood back because one of the vows ( in small print ) in our marriage ceremony was always be on hand to dress up for your husband and let him take photos whenever he calls . ( not like that!!! ..... filth!). One of his passions is photography and creative photography is an area he is exploring. So when he asked me to do 'vintage myself up ' so he could take some photos and practice I was only too happy to oblige and let him dictate to me for a change 😂 and let's face it , who doesn't like dressing up!
I have only seen one of the photos so far and it's amazing .... he's done a cracking job and I can't wait to share them tomorrow when he's finished them. I actually looked at it and didn't cringe at the sight of myself!
I then spent an afternoon doing crafts with the princess, we dog walked , watched dispicable me 3 and then played minion monopoly. Awesome game!
Tea was veggie tortilla pizza and sweet potato wedges 😃
This everyone is 'addicts corner!' My supply of what gets me through a day usually. As you can see from the machine, the canisters and the cafeteria..... I love my coffee and I have all varieties of filter, instant and pods. Usually I live on the stuff, even to the point where if I am too busy to have one and a few hours goes by , I get bad head aches. It's not good . I have always said that coffee doesn't affect me, and usually I will have one before bed and I can sleep regardless..... we have all heard the stories of me having the ability to sleep anywhere!
But the last few days I have made an effort to cut down my intake and drink green tea . I have still had my two cups in the morning of coffee and one after my tea .... but then I have stopped. And substituted coffee for water and green tea and I have to say it's done me the world of good . Last night I pretty much slept the whole night without waking up. So although the caffeine does not affect me getting to sleep. It most certainly affects how well I sleep . Since getting my fit bit and seeing my sleep pattern monitored it's quite a wake up call ( ha! Get it!) To how badly I do sleep . It's no surprise really that im always tired!
Such a productive day today I am smiling from ear to ear. Not only have I completed many little odd jobs at home, played with Maisie, seen her enjoy and willingly spend an hour doing cosmic yoga, and sorted out some admin work I have signed up/ applied to do two things that I have considered for some time now.
Work, rehearsals and my degree have held me back in making a decision... until now... but I'm starting out this year with the mindset of "grab any opportunity, if I want to do something... do it .... be a little more selfish for 'me' time and do what makes you happy "
Realistically, these things, of which I can't really share yet , will take up much more of my time but life's too short and the faithful hubby reminded me of last year and that I can do anything I put my mind to ... so here goes! I have started the new year as i mean to go on ... grabbing what could potentially be some very exciting opportunities. I'm excited anyway! But for now , after a tea of salmon and broccoli pasta ( a family fave), it's time to get the child to bed and crack on with some study . I have extended the Xmas break long enough. 😴😂 #mywwfood#mywwjourney2018#myww#weightwatcherssupport#weightwatchers#weightwatchersuksupport#weightwatchersuk#weightwatchers360#weightwatchersonline#weightwatchersfoodiary#nocount#weightwatcherscommunity#weightwatchersfamily
Isn't it funny how one little date can completely switch your mind set . Since losing the weight loss path way back in November, I have tried several times to "get back on it". I have struggled. I have had a couple of days of being good and then thought "sod it, it's bloody Xmas and I deserve a treat ". Now I know I'm in the same boat as probably the majority of the world... hats off to you if you haven't gained weight over the festive period... but I have put 9lb on since the end of November and it's blooming scary how quickly it happens . I have over indulged far too much , most unnecessarily the majority of the time but I just could not get out of that mind set . Yesterday was never going to be a realistic day to start... it was perfect being the first day of the year, week and month but we had the family round and I cooked and it was never going to happen when there was chocolate gateaux to eat!
But now the decorations are down, everyone is back to work and it's the second day of the new year and I have woken up today feeling focused, motivated and energised . Today is no different to any other day in reality and yet my mind is completely out of self indulgent mode and is determined to lose the Xmas weight and more! First goal... lose this 9lb.... second goal... get to 6 stone loss by end of February ready for my next show. Can I do it?? Of course I can! Believe and achieve 👊
Tea tonight was roasted tomato cod fillet with parsley mash and vegetables after a day of cleaning and yoga with Maisie 😂 I have started cutting down my caffeine intake too and drinking more green tea and tonight I start the new exercise plan. I'm organised and on it 💪
Hey! I'm back.... and feeling more focused than ever before .. I have had a lovely Christmas but my gosh have I over indulged . And why?? christmas is one day... Yeah ok you have the parties and social gatherings but why do we go mad every single day regardless of Whether or not we have to be socia.... because it's Christmas?
It's as if in the middle of November , when my decorations went up , my mind went right! "F*** It! Go crazy!!" .
So end of the story is I have put on 10lb,I have my belly back ( granted not as bad as what is was five stone ago) but I broke last night . I cannot physically wait until the 2nd of January to ' be Good' again .... why wait when I can start now? My body just cannot take anymore chocolate or rubbish food . So I have a new journal, the latest mag , my new food planner and today I am going to start loving my body again!
I was super impressed though when yesterday I fitted in my new clothes, size 12 jeans (wow!) And size 10 top 👊 that made me feel slightly happier.
I didn't have time yesterday to update my food . It was a busy one and i missed the meeting:( but I was saved by my lovely friend who got me all what I need to take on the new flex approach to weight watchers . And I gotta be honest. After spending the afternoon reading all the information and meal planning and doing the food shop , I am pretty excited about it.
In the latest magazine I saw an advert for some Beanies coffee. Anyone who knows me knows I am a coffee addict and since seeing this advert it's one of the only things I have been able to think about! So I went to Sainsbury's yesterday and bought some . My expectations were not met . It filled the kitchen with a beautiful toffee aroma but tasted very little of toffee .
Maisie and I had afternoon tea yesterday although I sat there with a coffee and didn't consume any naughty but deliciously inviting food , I made do with poached egg on toast and then we had a well earnt family afternoon/evening watching Xmas movies with a tea of vegetables, roast potatoes and a chicken breast sliced and stuffed with green pesto, tomato and mozarrella light . Was yummy!! #mywwjourneycontinues#mywwdiary#mywwfood#myww#mywwjourney#flexeffect#mywwfood#mywwfooddiary#wwcommunity#weightwatcherssupport#weightwatchers#weightwatchersblogger#weightwatchersblog#50shadesoflife#instadailly
Today I have decided to shake up the diet a bit and start doing the 'no count ' approach. I have tried it in the past and not succeeded . However , I do not think I have ever done it effectively due to not controlling the portion sizes. Pasta is on the no count... However logic concludes that although it's free .... in large quantities there comes a point when it stops being free and you start having far too much . For probably the first half of my journey with weight watchers, I was shit at portion sizes . Because of my size it didn't matter so much that I didn't measure everything. I still lost weight every week. But as I got smaller, I soon learnt that my portions needed to as well. Unfortunately, I did no count when I thought it didn't matter. Now I'm a whizz with the old scales, measuring food and being able to create a meal that is enough to satisfy the three of us that I cook for, rather than cooking enough for the street . After a week of struggle and being lazy with my tracking I am figuring that mixing it up a little will hopefully help me refocus . So far so good .
Maisie had her dress rehearsal today for her Christmas variety show tomorrow and I can't blooming wait to watch her . It makes me so proud seeing her on the stage that my heart literally bursts. She gets so excited because it is the only time she is allowed to wear make up... a treat for her ... a wake up call for me that she's growing up far too fast .
I have used 5 of my overall weekly allowance points . today. Lunch was roasted vegetable pasta with a sprinkle of parmesan and tea was cod fillets with veg , potatoes and parsley sauce .
A friend posted this ( picture quote) on my Facebook blog of the same name #50shadesoflife ... ( feel free to check it out) it's a little more in depth and detailed on there because I don't run out of space 😂... and this meme is what I need to keep remembering.
So I have had three ( OMG... 3!!!) Bad days . That's nothing in the scheme of things.. I am that terrified of putting the weight back on that the reason it's such a big deal to me, the fretting of chocolate eating, is that I know how easy it can go back on ... and yeah a little bit may... but I have to get my head out of the zone of thinking in three days of bad eating I will gain 5.5 stone. I'm not going to go back to where I was ... never ever ever .... and I need to remember this.
Noting and mentally reminding myself of my journey on days like today helps . Just to re calibrate the mind set . I look at all the new things I have done this year that I would never have done last year, the five dress sizes that have gone, the change in My appearance, my identity and my character ... my confidence. My husband always tells me every day how beautiful I am 🤗 god bless that man! But the last six weeks I have had strangers tell me ... People who don't know me at all or barely know me ... People who have nothing to gain from telling me other than being just pure lovely people and it's those comments ... the ones where people could actually just think it and say nothing but take the time to say it to me that mean the world . And are the ones I remember .
I believed I could and I did ... and I will keep believing and keep going on and a day of chocolate .... So bloody what?!?! I have still achieved amazing things and I still fit a size 12. So I'm going to stop beating myself up, work extra hard and exercise this week and draw a line and think so bloody what.... Phew!! It's amazing the difference a bath can make to relax and calm the soul! 🤣 back to rational thinking ladies and gents!! 😁❤👍 #mywwdiary#mywwfood#myww#mywwjourney#mywwjourney2017#mywwjourneycontinues#mywwjournal#weightwatchersblog#weightwatcherssupport#weightwatchers#weightwatchersuk#weightwatchers360#weightwatchersonline
It's been a rough day today. I lost the stone out of my engagement ring and I am genuinely so so upset. If I didn't have Maisie with me and wasn't at Tesco I would have sat and sobbed . I know it's a ring, it wasn't a ring that cost thousands... but it's the sentiment behind it and I am for sure a woman of sentiment. I am gutted. What's made it worse is that without my engagement ring on my finger , my wedding ring falls off due to the weight loss. So I can't wear my wedding ring either without buying a ring that will fit the shape of it ! Stupid weight loss. So gutted :( . For now I have one of my normal rings on that finger just because I can't handle seeing my naked finger!
We have decorated the house this evening for Halloween and I have had a day of studying and trying to catch up slightly. The ironing from the other night is finally finished with more washed and lined up ready to iron when dry and I am feeling rough as a badgers arse! Bad throat and bad head ... I still think I'm suffering from the weekends lack of sleep. So it's time to sit down and rest before I get too ill. I physically haven't time right now to get poorly 😂
Tea this evening was heck sausages with veg and mash... because we all know I love a bit of ( heck) sausage too!
I haven't blogged for the last couple of days as it's been ridiculously busy . We spent the whole day yesterday at uppingham theatre doing tech and band call for Rock of Ages, which opens this week . Was physically exhausted when we rolled into bed at midnight but least i know that i will be very active this week going on yesterday's activities. I will make amends today with my blog although I did the meal plan and frantic online shop late last night for todays arrival and the meals are all very light and boring .
But for now , below is a post that my husband put up on his social media on Saturday night after I hit 5 stone loss accompanied by the comparison picture above. It made me cry of course but hearing these kind amazing, supportive words from your best friend was just over whelming . Never be shy to tell someone how amazing they have done. The effects that has on someone is something you cannot explain. "Words just cannot express how proud I am of this hot little rock chick. I know I keep banging on about it but she has come so far over the last 15 months.
Tomorrow she goes into her very first show week, having plucked up enough courage to join the cast of Rock of Ages, something which a year ago she never would have dreamed of doing.
A year ago she would also never have dreamed of being the size she is today. And yet this morning she officially reached a whopping 5st total weight loss.
I've always loved Sam Brown and I have always found her beautiful, regardless. But when I look at the comparison picture below, I am reminded of just how far she has come, how much hard work she has put in and what a difference the last year has made to her life.
I mean look at the picture..... Jesus." I love this man ❤