Few of you who know me in real life know that I have far from a healthy relationship with my mother. She verbally abused the shit out of me for quite a few years and I finally put my foot down to protect myself and stopped speaking to her. In the first time in a year and a half she reached out to me (a first ever). She stated that she was driving through a town 2 hours away from me and really wanted to see me. I hesitated. It took me about 6 mos in counseling to work through the split, I didnt want to open old wounds. But SOFTY ass heart of mine agreed. Im hoping for the best and preparing for the worst.
What I wouldnt give to call my grandma.
Wish me luck.
In previous times Id work through this anxiety with a bucket of sugary snacks but today I just sipped on water and jammed to some oldies on the drive. 😘👊
💕 Treat yourself once in a while! 💕
I've learned over that last year and half that if you don't actually treat yourself, you'll end up binge eating. That's when all your hard work goes down the drain! (Trust me I know ) .
We're all human. That means no one is perfect and we ALL have that one food that we could eat everyday. For me my favorite food changes on my mood. This month it seems to be peanut butter cups ❤️ .
What is your favorite cheat meal?
So I want to be 100% transparent with y'all because you know that's how I roll. I don't really "like" to post things like this since not everyone is the same; also it can be a trigger for some, which is why you won't really see me make big elaborate posts about it except this once. With that said, I also feel like it's important to those who think keto can't be a lifestyle to see that it actually can be & a quite nice one at that. Last week was rough for me and Friday was especially rough! My rule of thumb initially was don't drink unless it's vacation. Save that for vacation! But by Friday, I was totally ready for a drink, so I had one. ONE. That's all. Just one piña colada made by my husband. I ate super low carb that day, by nature, not by forcing it, so I think that was my saving grace. Saturday was one of those days where nothing sounded good & I was having trouble eating anything at all because I didn't want meat. For once it just didn't sound good, so I had French fries that I made myself at home and I only had a few. Since I never eat carbs, it filled me up quickly & I stopped when I was full as normal. Now last time I had an off day was on vacation & I knew immediately I was out of ketosis by how I felt. This time I didn't experience that. I will be weighing in tomorrow but I took a sneak peek at the scale this morning & was extremely satisfied. I'm actually only 13 lbs from my goal weight! 😱 My point isn't to go eat a bunch of junk & forgo your healthy keto meals. My point is that a lifestyle is different from a diet & I've decided to take the lifestyle route which will mean drinks here and there and maybe a taco too. 😉 My biggest victory on this journey is that I have trained my body (& mind) so that I CAN have something I want every now & then without binge eating! That makes it a lifestyle & not a restrictive diet. So from now on you can expect to see me enjoying life a couple of days out of the month while maintaining a keto/low carb lifestyle the rest of the time. I probably won't stay in ketosis forever, but low carb will be my life because now I know how to treat myself without a binge and that was the goal when I began keto to begin with!
Late soccer games make late dinners. While the rest of the family eats burgers I couldn't wrap my head around eating that heavy tonight and I'm leaning toward more plants (if that's even possible) anyway. I picked up a package of individual quinoa and kale dinners at @Costco that just need to be heated and I added grilled zucchini and sweet peppers. Shredded raw red, yellow beets and a carrot. Mixed all that together with a home made vinegar and oil dressing and sprinkled pumpkin seeds on top. Oh yeah, all of that on a bed of romaine. ❤️
Eating plants is NOT boring. 😀
Did you plan this weeks meals? Lunch and breakfast?
Are you just winging it?
Plan at least one meal a day. You'll feel so organized and accomplished and you'll have fewer binge eating moments.
Monday I start my high protein all liquid diet ,for the next 2 weeks ,in preparation for my Gastric Bypass (RNY).I realized last night/early morning,I had to start this liquid diet on Monday 😢. So of course after my killer workout, what did I do? Got me an everything bagel with cream cheese and tomatoes 😋, man oh man was it good 🤤,it was too long since I had one of those. And today the plan is to get some pizza. Oh I'm going to so enjoy eating what I shouldn't and have restricted myself this whole time. Who knows if after surgery my body won't reject these things once I'm fully healed 🤷♀️. So don't judge me this weekend. Now I'm not going to go on a full on binge cheating weekend, I'm just going to pick one or maybe two things a day that I normally wouldn't eat and say my goodbyes 👋🏻 #gastricbypass#sayinggoodbye#nopainnogain#cheatmeals#cheatweekend#nobingeeating
#Buongiorno ☀️🌞 mondo 🌎! Stamattina per me #colazionesana con caffè ☕️ ed #estratto a base di mele golden 🍏, carote 🥕, #ginger e #limone 🍋. Ieri sera sono stata ad una festa di compleanno e non è andata molto bene, premetto che ero davvero stanca 😑 in quanto ho ripreso il corso che seguo (poi vi spiego) ma il problema è che non mi sentivo affatto a mio agio. Ho fatto tutto di corsa 🏃 sono tornata a casa alle 20, doccia 🚿, un po' di #makeup 💄 e poi sono uscita nuovamente. Non avevo molta fame, o meglio, in realtà non ho capito se avevo fame o meno poiché a causa del mio #dca non sono più in grado di distinguere la fame vera da quella nervosa che mi spinge a riempirmi come un baule. Alla fine ho mangiato la frutta, tanta #frutta#freshfruit anche perché a causa delle precedenti abbuffate avevo dolori fortissimi alla pancia e tuttora sto male. Comunque in tutta questa situazione un nota 📝 positiva c'è: sono riuscita a non abbuffarmi 🎉 #firstdayclean ✅
Ho dimenticato di fotografare il pranzo; ho mangiato fusilloni integrali con sugo ai piselli e formaggio 🧀 🍝 detto così lascia poco a desiderare invece era proprio buono! 😜
Comunque ero agitata, in preda all'ansia (anche se ho fatto del mio meglio per cercare di masticare piano e non ingozzarmi come al solito) e la cosa brutta è che mentre mangiavo la mia mente già viaggiava perciò appena terminato il piatto ho attaccato la frutta. Ne ho mangiata a dismisura ma non avevo alternative.
Ora sono in casa con mia sorella e spero di non avere altri pensieri perché oggi sto davvero faticando tanto per trattenermi.
Volevo ringraziarvi tutte per i vostri commenti e dirvi che sono preziosi e che per la prima volta mi sento meno sola in questa lotta 🤼♀️. Grazie di vero 💜! #bastacosì#oggiomaipiù#changeyourlife#changeyourmindsetchangeyourlife#nobingeeating#healthy#icareofmyself#noabbuffate