Lunch is Sainsbury's café is a jacket potato with beans and salad✨
I just feel so much more positive since I decided not to know my weight anymore!
I feel like I don't need to worry about what I eat because even if I do gain some weight I won't even know about it! I feel so free😇
Didn't get to college today because basically my olanzipine made me too dopey😂 plus my mum wanted me to spend some time with her so I'll go back to college tomorrow👍🏼
Hope you're all okay and STAY POSITIVE, I love you💛
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Huge snack😱: One slice of whole wheat bread with cashew butter and another one with peanut butter, one and a half bananas and prunes 😋
Since I'm having such a big snack now, I might have a smaller lunch (only bc I think I probably won't be that hungry 😅)
I’ve just finished Health at Every Size. I was surprised to learn it’s quite different from Intuitive Eating. It’s very scientific and I’ve also learnt a lot about how the food industry influence our food choices. Linda Bacon encourages that we find an activity we love to get us moving. She also says “enjoy a variety of real food, primarily plants”. She empathises the importance of eating a large variety of foods to get a good level of nutrients and improve health which also supports health weight regulation. I’m at a point in my Intuitive eating journey where I want to eat more nutritious foods but I often get transported back into diet mode. I’ve made an association with nutritious food = diet. Non-nutritious food= non-diet. Given myself “unconditional permission to eat” has been great but I’ve definitely noticed the impact it’s had on me. Even though it’s helped me to introduce my feared food I still don’t know how to fuel myself properly yet. I’m at a point where I’m ready for gentle nutrition and want to eat foods that make me feel good.
I think the hard thing about Intuitive eating is that we are given the guidelines without any further support. This doesn’t acknowledge that many of us are disconnected from our intuitive eating signals. I have no clue what to eat, when to eat and how much to eat. It was refreshing to read that the food and diet industry are partly responsible for this. With this information I’m going to consider how I can introduce more nutritious foods into my choices with feeling overwhelmed. I want to break free from diets but I’ve got to feel good in the process.
First Wagamama's in years ft. one of my ultimate fear foods of rice for dinner last night 💪🏻 I have an appointment with my consultant this morning which is always fun 🙃 Then, I'm going out for a coffee or something with my mum ❤ hope you all have a good day and keep fighting 💞
#breakfast on this cold & drizzly Monday morning was none other than porridge with blueberries. 💁🏻♀️ I’m getting the train back to uni in an hour and I won’t lie my anxiety is sky high right now 😰 (TW) ⚠️
I’m also supposed to be going out for a meal tonight with Uni friends and it’s really stressing me out. 😖 I feel like I need to restrict today to make up for the ‘extra’ calories I might eat later. I also just get really uncomfortable when I can’t follow my usual routine or eat my usual foods. 🤦🏻♀️
-For #breakfast i had #boiledrice 🍚 with #cinamon 🌱 .
-This is a bit TMI,reason why i am eating boiled rice is beacuse i have diarea...🙀My stomach hurts so so so much😿.BUT that doesn't mean that i can skip breakfast!So smashing this while watching TV.
-Have lovely day😍😘.
Dinner tonight was Rigatoni pasta with mince + veggies 🍝 I don't have pasta often because it's still a bit of a fear but I am trying to get past that fear even though every bite is terrifying. 😕 I didn't have the greatest day at school, I struggled alot with my body image and I felt really down especially last period and the weight I felt in my chest because of this was so draining. 😩 I facetimed my girlfriend for a few hours this afternoon and it made me feel a little better. I appreciate her very very much she makes me smile even when it feels impossible ❤️ I hope you have a wonderful day💜
I've been eating so so so much and I feel so terrible. I feel massive. I haven't walked my dog in about two weeks because I've been sick and I feel so lazy. I really want to self harm right now and I'm trying so hard to distract myself but I don't feel it's going to work.
#Breakfast today is chocolate pudding oats topped with yogurt, hot cinnamon plums and chocolate of course😏. I hope you all are doing good😘.
Hallo ihr Lieben 🤗. Ich wurde jetzt schon von ein paar Leuten, unter anderem @healing.lina @startschuss_leben @_way_back_to_happiness_ dazu getaggt, 10 Fakten über mich aufzuschreiben 😄. Und weil ich das glaube ich noch gar nicht hier gemacht habe, wird das jetzt nachgeholt😊.
1. Ich liebe es zu tanzen und tue es eigentlich auch immer und überall💃.
2. Ich kann nicht pfeifen. Ich habe so lange probiert es zu lernen, aber es hat nie geklappt💁.
3. Ich habe einen Walmagen. Ehrlich, was ich an Portionen schaffe macht selbst meine Mama sprachlos😂.
4. Eis geht bei mir immer. Egal ob Sommer oder Winter, dafür ist es nie zu kalt🍦😋.
5. Ich bin ein absoluter Weihnachtsmensch und könnte das ganze Jahr Advent haben😊.
6. Ich bin ein Sonntagskind - dabei finde ich Sonntage eigentlich gar nicht toll😂.
7. Ich liebe es zu lesen. Viele meiner Bücher habe ich schon mindestens 5 mal durch🤓.
8. Ich will seit dem ich 8 Jahre alt bin Grundschullehrerin werden und das verfolge ich auch immer noch🤗.
9. Ich kann Bananen nur im Ganzen essen, aber nicht geschnitten, zermatscht oder halbiert🍌😂.
10. Meine Familie geht mir über alles und ich habe die beste Mama der Welt❤☺.
So, das wars jetzt auch über mich😄. Ich markiere ein paar Lwutw im Bild, die ich tagge aber ihr könnt euch gerne alle getaggt fühlen☺.
Habt einen schönen Montag und eine gute Woche❤.
Good morning 💜
Breakfast today is oatmeal with these toppings ➡ one banana🍌, some cashews, coconut🌴 and red groats🍒🍓
Quote of the day ⬇⬇⬇⬇⬇⬇⬇
"The only time you should ever look back, is to see how far you've come."
One of my favorite quotes 😊
Hope you all have a good day 😘
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Late night maccas run after the movies? 🎥 I think yas 🙌🏻 one strawberry sundae 🍓🍦 and some fries 🍟 cos when a cute guy offers you some, you do not say no 😜
So last night was interesting, after dinner on the beach we went to the movies and watched the new @officialjigsawmovie which was alright, I’ve seen better horror flicks but it was still good 👍🏻( and we basically had the whole cinema to ourselves 😂) so after that we trekked to @mcdonalds to get ourselves some ice-cream and we ran into some other schoolies we knew from back home 😂 (coincidence? I think not 😉) and yeah it was kinda awkward at first but some of them came over and chatted to us, it was also really surprising when one of the guys called me out and said that he knew me and that he had worked with my dad 😂 and yeah it wasn’t how I’d expect my night to go but I did enjoy it 😁
I’ll update y’all some more a bit later, I’m really enjoying myself and although meals/food have been spontaneous and unstructured I’ve been adapting and able to expand out of my comfort zone 😁 have a wonderful day my frens 😘❤️
Morning all :-) got a day full of uni today so fuelling up with my fave fave bfast!!! I wanted to do overnight oats n try something new but it’s SO COLD in the morning these days all I want is warm oats! Have a good day 👍🏻💛
throwback pic of smoothie warriors, me pup, n me mum🐶💗the weird depressive funk lived on today, although I actually got some things done so I deserve a gold star for trying.🌟I really need to let go of the belief that I'm only worthy if I'm being productive or active. Some days I only have the energy to exist and I wish for those times I could put my brain on mute and take care of myself instead of beating myself up over it. I'm 99% sure it stems from my upbringing, but that's a story for a different day.😵I'm so relieved that I'll only have two days of school this week and then it'll be thanksgiving break. Two days. I can power through two more days.
One of the most beautiful thing of being pregnant is enjoying the moment; everything slows down, the belly kicks bring you back to where you are and to what is happening. It’s not so much about the past anymore, but about the NOW , the thrill of carrying another being, the deep and true sense of pure and innocent love . I m in love 😍 #pregnantlife#pregnant#34weeks
MAC AFTER 1++ YEARS I AM SO PROUD AND YES I ATE EVERYTHING. it’s hard but remind yourself that one day when you look back it will be totally worth it! i know sometimes we tend to go back to all our ed habits and that’s okay as long as we try to fight back and become stronger in the process! update on me: i have been doing okay conquering fear food and eating well as well as exercising well i hope that one day i will be able to fully recover and say yes i done it! other than that i am still(TW) self harm and hitting myself i need to get out of this and become stronger
I'm angry at this world. At this society and all its rules and ideals that leave so many damaged and hurting. How it objectifies bodies to make so many feel uncomfortable, unworthy, and unloveable in their own skins. •
Spent this past weekend celebrating the first birthday of a fiercely beautiful little girl with a contagious smile. •
Her world so full of love and wonder and hope and possibility, doted upon by family and parents whose lives had been given new meaning by her very existence.
All this joy, and yet I left feeling heartbroken.
that this little girl will undoubtedly one day be subjected to the same ideals and standards of beauty that have corrupted so many.
That she might one day be judged and compared to the bodies other girls at her school. •
That she might ever attribute her worth to the size of her thighs, or that she might not perceive herself to be "pretty" enough to fit in with a certain group of friends. •
That she might one day grow up to internalize the same shame and guilt and self-destructive obsession with food and body that have plagued me since I was 12 years old.
I'm more than sad. I'm enraged. How dare someone ever make her feel like I feel? How dare our society shatter her innocence? How dare we allow pervasive norms and ideals ever dent her confidence or spirit or love for herself? •
It's time to stop trying to change our bodies. It's time to change the rules that have only served to bring us misery. •
Many people message me saying like 'oh you're life looks so perfect' because I always post stories of the highlights of my day where I'm riding my bike, walking along the beach, enjoying the sunset etc. The keyword in that is that those are the HIGHLIGHTS of my day and by no means is my life perfect at all haha. Yes I choose to spend my free time doing the things that make me feel good such as immersing myself in nature and sunshine, exercising and enjoying the ocean which is an integral part of my day, as well as meditating and reading. But just like everybody else I also struggle immensely, I struggle with time management between work, study, health, fitness, social media, connecting with others. I struggle financially as a full time student having to rely on my part time job, with a broken car that's now unfixable and no way to afford a new one,I struggle with the death of my mother, I struggle with body image ( any body can) and with cystic acne and not having many friends. With that being said, I could have an extremely different outlook on life to what I have now. I could be a victim, constantly focusing on the seemingly negative experiences that fill my life. But instead I choose to focus on the good in my life, I count the blessings rather than the adversities and I know that energy flows where attention goes. Focus on the good that you want to create more of in life, the things that make you feel good and vibe high and the universe will bring you more of that. You have the ability to change your perception of your life, ultimately changing your life. I'm not perfect and I still complain about situations but when I sit back and breathe and reflect on life from a higher stand point I see how perfectly orchestrated these adversities we perceive as negative are, they are the biggest opportunity for growth and character building, and from them only strength can come. Then the mindset switches to gratitude and I can embrace problems as I know ultimately life is just a school to teach my soul lessons; all is well in my world, I am safe, and only good can come from this situation. Everything is working out for my highest good💙
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I made some sugar-free candied chocolate walnuts today. At first I didn't think they had worked out because they weren't as stuck together-y as the ones I'd seen on the internet. But I let them cool and alas I came back to crunchy goodness 🙌🏼 I didn't use a recipe, I just cooked up some butter with stevia and cocoa powder, threw the walnuts in, left them a while and hoped for the best! 🤦🏻♀️Apparently it's a winning strategy because they're awesome and I'm munching them like a Pac-man while I wait for my period 😏
#Throwback to 2 weeks ago when I had an amazing weekend with my boyfriend 💑 in Quebec City 🏙️❣️@imyourclarity I love you, and I wanna thank you for everything. You learned me that it was important to take my place in this world, that I'm beautiful the way I am... and to keep my inner child (especially when you use the grocery cart as a freaking formula 1 😅). I've never felt that comfortable and deeply in touch with someone, and I'm so happy about that. I promise that I will support you no matter what will happen in the future. love you, my soulmate ❤️ Things are going better these days. ☀️ There are more and more Christmas lights outside and it makes me so happy!!! 😄🎄 I take care of myself more than in the other days, and I made a lot of changes to feel better in my life, and it progressively works. 🌹 My body image hasn't improved, but I try to focus on things that matter, like school, friends, love and work. Yes, food is important, but it shouldn't be my only thought. ☝️ Tomorrow, I have my first appointment with my psychiatrist (in adult psychiatry department) because even tho I am almost ED free, I am still fragile. 🌱 And also because my anxiety is a fucking dick sometimes. 🙄 But overall, I'm doing gucci macaroni 😎
Have a nice week, little warriors 😘❤️
Posting this because it was a huge step in self-acceptance for me! For my Master's program, I had to film myself giving a lecture this weekend. That definitely threw my social anxiety for a loop. 😂 ED was throwing in all of his nasty comments too: "Your arms look so fat, everyone is going to see how gross you are. You don't belong in this degree." Blah, blah, blah. So I've been sitting with these emotions and rewatching the video, telling myself that everyone else is going to feel SO awkward filming theirs too. Nobody likes listening to recordings of their voice. No one can look 100% happy while lecturing about quasi-experiments. And that's a-okay. Thanks for embracing the awkward with me. 💕
Woah I’m posting again only three days later?? And it’s not oatmeal?? What’s going on? Friday I didn’t have school so I made these bomb af waffles with 🥜 butter and blueberries and maple syrup OF COURSE. I had a super productive and relaxed weekend which was nice after the past few weeks ☺️
Jam and cinnamon vanilla nut butter on French toast made the best Saturday breakfast.... I’ve been absent here, because there have been some tough spiritual battles going on in my life. God is convicting me of so much jealousy, discontentment, and so many other things I’ve been sweeping under the carpet about specific things. It’s so good, and I wouldn’t trade the grief and sorrow for any other lesson. Because though weeping endures for the night joy always comes in the morning. These verses were the ones I read this morning, and I was so amazed at how God’s precious Psalms reflect so many of the deep emotions and realizations including the conviction of sin and confident hope in God. How are you all? What’s the Lord been teaching you?
“O Lord, rebuke me not in thy wrath: neither chasten me in thy hot displeasure.
There is no soundness in my flesh because of thine anger; neither is there any rest in my bones because of my sin. For mine iniquities are gone over mine head: as an heavy burden they are too heavy for me.
I am troubled; I am bowed down greatly; I go mourning all the day long.
For in thee, O Lord, do I hope: thou wilt hear, O Lord my God.”
Psalms 38:1, 3-4, 6, 15 #Jesussaves#beautyinChrist#nourishyoursoul