This is my mantra as of late. "It's okay to be happy". The idea of "being happy" after the discard phase felt like a completely foreign concept. But....each day I try to move on, let go, and surrender to what is...I find myself enjoying life a bit more each day. #glimmersofhappiness
I whisper to my heart....it's okay to be happy when it is paralyzed in sadness or sorrow.
I whisper to my mind....it's okay to be happy when it feels trapped in memories of pain.
I whisper soul...it's okay to to feel all the feeeeels it needs to feel to heal.
I asked myself: Why are you suffering so much? What do you need? What does suffering mean? When will you decide that you have suffered enough?
I think my soul answered back...you suffer because your love was real. You suffer because you believed and trusted someone who had a different agenda. You suffer because you don't want to let the vision of what they promised go. You suffer because you were blind sided. You suffer because you put their needs above your own. You suffer because you lost your center. You suffer because you are in a dissempowered state. You lost you. You suffer because you loved big. You lost big. You were fooled. Used. Disrespected. Drained. Kicked to the curb...by someone who professed their undying love for you. There will be a season of suffering dear soul. Aaaaand it too shall pass. In the meantime... Note to self: ❤Every time you do something that honors me, you are taking a step back to yourself. You are going in the right direction. Looking back. Remembering. Doubting....yes...these are all things that will pop up to test you. You are so used to putting other people's needs first that it feels strange to put your needs first. Keep going. Get uncomfortable. If you feel uncomfortable...you are on the right track. You are growing dear soul.
Every time you choose me, you are stepping back into your power. Remember that. Each choice will build momentum. So don't worry if it feels hard in the beginning. I'm proud of you. I am here for you. I love you. I will never leave you. I give you full permission to be happy. ❤
Ps. You have suffered enough
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