Day away from baby boy means wardrobe changes!! Today I had the opportunity to participate in a panel with @crohnscolitisfoundation - such an amazing experience!! Conference and post conference outfits were also fun! ❤️ now, quick flight back home to my little guy! #crohnsdisease#crohns#crohnslife#ostomy#ostomate#ibd#gorgeousguts
Self image has always been an issue with me. The self consciousness of wearing a back brace in my teens and my ostomy pouch, from my 20’s on, continuously beat me down. Kids ridicule what they don’t understand, so you can imagine the constant torment that I endured.
As an adult, it still holds me back, on occasion. Especially in the intimacy category. I know that women, who have a problem with it, aren’t worth my time. But the shun still stings a bit.
So, today, I’ve decided to share myself with all of you. I’ve decided to share myself, so that someone with scoliosis doesn’t give up. I’ve decided to share myself so that someone with an ostomy or Crohn’s doesn’t quit. I’ve decided to share myself so that someone with depression or anxiety doesn’t stop fighting. I’ve decided to share myself so that every warrior, no matter what you’re battling, keeps moving forward. 💪🏻🔥💜☝🏻 #anytimefitness#fitness#fitnessmotivation#gym#ostomate#crohns#scoliosis#nothyroid#beard#tattoo#tattoos#depression#anxiety#warrior#neverquit#blessed#fuckthehaters#fitfam#teamborden#selfimage#selflove#single#singleaf
This move has brought me to my breaking point a few times. The anxiety all of this has caused is completely unexpected. I’m excited. I’m nervous. I’m so happy. I’m so terrified. The last time I’ve lived without my family was when Landon was about two years old. In college, I’d always end up too sick to be alone & have to go back home. Now I’m here & it’s a wee bit frightening. I am SO grateful to have @eself224 there with me. We’ve known each other since high school & he is someone that truly understands the reality of my health. It’s provided me with a lot of relief...but I’ve still cried numerous times this week because it’s all so much. I know without doubt that everything is going to be better than ok. I keep reminding myself of that multiple times a day. As I’ve been reminded this week, my body does not handle stress well. I’ve had to remember to stop, breathe, & take care of my health needs before anything else. .
This is going to be an incredible adventure & I can’t wait to see what’s in store for the kiddo & myself this year! ❤️ #FirstMirrorSelfieInTheNewPlace