"Again, you can’t connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life." - Steve Jobs 💕 •
The experience of turning around to see connected dots behind you is amazing. No career has a "right" path--your dots will connect with time. ✨ • 📷: @cosstores
👱🏼♀️: "Why is 5th grade better than 4th grade?" 👧🏽: "Because we get to go to the science lab and do experiments, and today I get to write about zoology!!" 🔬 •
Cierra and I have been matched in #bigbrothersbigsisters for 3+ years. I joined because I missed kids and we're far from ready for our own, but I never expected such reward and fulfillment. I've watched this girl blossom from "I want to be a ballerina" to "I love science, I love math, I want to be a zoologist." She's a STEAM girl through and through, the smartest (almost) 11-year-old I know, and it's so amazing to watch her grow. 👧🏽👩🏽💻👩🏽🔬 •
My favorite form of #sundayfunday is ice cream with T and Cierra, listening to her talk about plant cells vs. animal cells and her favorite experiments and what she want to paint next weekend. 🍦 •
If you've ever thought about #bbbs , it could be the most amazing choice you'll make this year. 💕 • 📷: @darling
We ushered autumn in last night with roasted squash and piles of blankets and the first Harry Potter movie and feelings of contentment. This week will bring time with friends and plenty of studies and (hopefully good) exam grades. And whatever challenges are coming will come, and I'll meet them head on. 🍃🍁⚡️✨ • 📷: @calibrcreative
Notre directeur Michel Naniche fier de deux de ses anciens bacheliers STMG, @romainrivalland1 et @louischmb, qui poursuivent brillamment leur chemin à @ferrandiparis, l'exigeante école nationale de la gastronomie française.
Le Bachelor F&B and Hospitality Management de FERRANDI PARIS les prépare plus précisément aux différentes fonctions du secteur de l’hôtellerie et de la restauration (responsable de l'hébergement, directeur de restaurant ou encore food & beverage manager). Il les prépare également à la création ou à la reprise d'une entreprise grâce à la forte dimension entrepreneuriale de la formation.
Bravo à eux !
Today was a blink. I feel really grateful to have spent 12 solid hours studying for physics--maybe a weird statement, but 12 hours of focused time is a gift. I'm still too germy for my hospital volunteer shift (a bummer because it's so fulfilling and wonderful, but maybe a blessing in disguise) and my other coursework and freelance work is on track. Tanya made dinner and took our dogs to the park, which gave me extra time (she's amazing). ✨ •
I'm going to sleep feeling like I'm giving this my all. This test will be hard but I've done my best, and my best is enough because I am enough. I am enough. And you are enough. I hope you feel that in your soul. You are perfect as you are, and YOU ARE ENOUGH. 💕 • 📷: @yumuniverse
Round 1 of exams continue tomorrow with chemistry and I'm not sure how it will go. I know the facts (do I?), I understand how to set up all sorts of equations (I think?), I understand the math that goes with them (maybe?). I've done so much review but who knows--she might throw straight or she might throw some curves. But my biggest issue will likely be the clock--I'll need to focus on precision under pressure. Good training, I guess! 🔬 •
I've been drinking tea like it's my job to fight a cold, because who has time for sick days?! So many of the kiddos in lecture sound like they have the plague--I knew it was just a matter of time. 🍵 •
Maybe it's the cold, or maybe it's the content, but I feel so zen walking into tomorrow's test. I feel like a spy in a movie who's told to "remember your training" and then thrown into a crazy situation. If I can just remember my training, I'll fight my way through it. 💪🏻✌🏻 • 📷: @floating.mountain
My cohort had our first physician enrichment opportunity yesterday. Two practicing physicians from different fields, one a neurologist and one a cardiologist, spent several hours discussing their successes and struggles and joys and trials with us. It was awesome--they kept it so real and gave so much good advice. 👩🏽⚕️👩🏼⚕️ •
Above all, they stressed the importance of finding the route that fits you best and going after it. Are you an adrenaline junkie? Firefighter? Strict routine lover? Hospital person? Outpatient person? Can you deal with kids whose issues are the fault of their parents? Can you deal with adults whose issues are the fault of their lifestyles? Can you deal with people whose issues have no known cause and seem totally unfair? Can you deal with non compliance? With frequent deaths? With tons of paperwork? And, if yes, can you deal with it every day for years? 🔬 •
The field of medicine is vast. There are jobs for people who can (or can't) deal with any of those factors. It's important to know yourself and let that knowledge guide you rather than make decisions based on money and status. Because at the end of the day, this is an all-in profession. Money can't buy away the misery that comes with contradicting your truth. ✨ •
I'm thankful to have career experience already--it taught me a bit about who I am and what I want. My goal over these next several years will be to explore that more fully--to find where I fit in this massive field. 💕 • 📷: @mattie_whitecoat via @medschoolscope
My biology test score came back today and it wasn't what I hoped--I got a low A, not the high one I anticipated. I felt so confident walking out of that room, so sure of my answers, and I missed four out of fifty. 💀 •
While it's tempting to think that an A is an A, it isn't. Getting into this program wasn't the most challenging part--it's staying in. Our GPA requirement is incredibly high. I need straight A's, which means I'm after a solid score on every lab, every homework, and certainly every exam. 🔬 •
That makes the experience of my cohort much different from the younger students around us. The average score for that test was a 68% (?!! 🙈), which means that many of them could afford to not study. We don't have that option. •
I'm anxious to review my test on Monday and analyze my errors. Was it misses in concept comprehension, or study gaps, or rushed testing? Knowing will help me improve my approach for the next round (3 weeks!). ✨ •
I'm also suuuuper motivated to buckle down and study for next week's tests--chem and physics. Bio wasn't easy, but these will be harder. I'm ready to give them everything I have! 💪🏻 • 📷: @studydiaryofamedstudent
My first exam of this new life chapter is over. I'm anxious to see the score but I think it went well. 🌿 •
This first wave of exams (bio this week, chem and physics next) is exciting. It'll provide data against my study habits--enough? Effective? Efficient? High yield? 🔬 •
But there's an underlying question, too, that these will help answer: am I meant to be here? Is this okay, or is this an uphill battle? 🙏🏻 •
This fear is one of my secrets. I wasn't a "STEM kid" growing up. I mean, I had interest--summer after summer of robot camp and rocket camp and string theory camp and aviation camp--but I wasn't the kid who aced chemistry without trying. I was good at writing, not at calculus. But I was also a kid, a child, with more to work through than just my studies. ✨ •
As an adult, I know how to learn--how *I* learn. I spent over a year making sure that this journey is the one I want to take. I'm willing to work hard, harder than ever. But these tests will help me understand how steep a hill I'm climbing. 💕 • 📷: @bewell
Half way through week three and I can feel my focus growing. Focus requires practice--it's something you train, something you build like a muscle. I thought mine was strong leaving the agency world, but it was only strong under the pressure of deadlines. It's been a challenge to learn self-motivated focus, to learn how to work through 12 straight hours of physics and chemistry studying (without getting up every five minutes to steal snacks from the kitchen 🙈). •
Pilates helps, as do essential oils and caffeinated tea and my phone's "do not disturb" mode. Practice helps. Loving the challenge that these subjects present helps. Wanting to get a 100% in every test helps. And this is important, because the MCAT is getting closer by the day and the MCAT is B R U T A L. It's an 8 hour torture test. It's the marathon at the end of all this training, and I need all the practice I can get. 🙏🏻✨ • 📷: @heytheredreamer
So...I'm going back to school! Starting next spring I'll be in the new fully online Cyber Security program at UTSA. Image is my future self of course. Thanks as always to my amazing wife @selizalde88 for your continued support! #gorunners#utsa#cybersecurity#postbac
8th grade US History class. First bell of the day. Word traveled fast enough in those moments, despite our pre-social media existence, that we had the class television on before the second plane hit. We were watching live as that explosion came. As the towers fell. I'll never forget the moments of confusion that turned "this is a horrible accident" into "we're under attack." •
I was both young enough and old enough to have my worldview shaped by the events of that day and the days after. I saw, for the first time, raw fear--on the faces of my teachers, on the dust-covered faces of a thousand fleeing New Yorkers. And I saw true bravery. I watched heroes run in as others ran out. I learned the significance of those powerful words: "let's roll." •
Today, the school lawn is covered in hundreds of fluttering American flags--placed there by students too young to remember. I hope they live their whole lives that way, apart from raw fear, but I hope too that they learn about true bravery. And I hope that we all have courage to run towards the building, to help each other, to stand up for what's right even when it means risking everything. Because we're all tested, in big ways or small. #neverforget • 📷: @vivnunez
This takes a village. I'm feeling this truth so acutely as the weeks progress, as notebooks fill and due dates come and exams loom large around every corner. 💀 •
It takes a village. People are shocked to hear I'm commuting, that my class days include four hours in the car, 3-4 days a week. They ask me why I don't just move. •
The answer is obvious: my village is here. T, both our parents, two sisters, two brothers, many close friends--they're all here. We own a house here. We're planning a wedding here. We had a beautiful life here before I decided to upend it, and we have an even more beautiful life here still. 💕 •
This won't last, of course. When school becomes five days a week and too intense for that drive things will have to change. But for now, for this year and next, this village is everything. ✨ • (This is one of our engagement photos by the amazing @nikitagross. The little guy is Henry, then Tanya and me and a sliver of Rupert's tail 🐶🐶)
Saturday morning study sessions that double as puppy snuggle time = 👌🏻💕. •
The past three weeks (has it only been three weeks?!) have changed my perspective on weekday vs. weekend. Weekends used to be so full of pressure to fit in projects and cleaning and friends and volunteering and date night and family and emails and life plans. I often came to work on Monday more exhausted than I was when I left the Friday before. 💀 •
Now the lines are blurred. I'm no longer in an office for 8+ hours, five days a week. I'm in classes for three, at home for four, and studying daily. 🔬 •
The result: living for each day instead of living for the weekend. Each day feels special in and of itself. Time has slowed down (in the best way possible). My rut is gone--and I had no idea how liberating that would feel. 🙌🏻 •
Of course, I'm still struggling to find a good routine. I'm still struggling to fit everything in. But every week gets a bit easier and I know that balance will come. 💕 •
Happy Saturday! ✨ 📷: @emwng
Days off = Study Days 😴 But I had time to create my first mechanism guide for the semester!
Organic chemistry is not a subject that comes naturally to me (I'm insanely jealous of anyone who can mentally visualize 3-D structures!), which means I spend a LOT of time studying. I could say my brain doesn't work as fast as it did when I was 19 or 20, but I didn't touch the subject then, so I'll never know.
I'm not an expert at studying, by any means. I'm a perfectionist by nature, which means I'm a major procrastinator. I'm often sleep-deprived, and I often fall prey to anxiety. But I do feel I've found some techniques that have helped me master some daunting material: .
✏️Read the text! Yes, I know this shit can be super dry, but understanding the reasons behind certain processes helps me remember the processes themselves. .
✏️Create study guides with complete mechanisms. They don't have to be pretty, but they should be pages you feel comfortable referencing when you're stuck on a difficult problem. You can also put them all together at the end of the semester to create a nice final exam reference. 🤓 I like using card stock paper and lots of colored pens (#staedler is awesome), but really, anything works. .
✏️PRACTICE! Write a mechanism, then write it again and again and again. I can't emphasize this enough. As much as it sucks, a lot of orgo involves rote memorization. Don't be afraid to use a lot of scrap paper (just make sure you recycle ♻️).
Focusing on finding my zen today. Sometimes, when life feels especially hectic, I realize it's because my gaze is zoomed out a little too far. The stress I feel is additive, a combination of "but I have so much to do this weekend" and "I have so much to do this year" and "the holidays are coming" and "the MCAT is just 11 months away" and "but wedding planning" and and and. 🙈 •
Don't get me wrong, it's GOOD to have a vision. It's good to know where you want to be and work towards that goal. I've always had a five-year plan, always, and I let it guide me. ✨ •
But sometimes big thoughts can paralyze. It's impossible to be concerned with all of those things at once--it takes you out of the present and into the land of stress-filled "what ifs." 💀 •
When that happens, I focus on now. This moment. And this one. What can I do in his moment to get one tiny step closer to where I want to be? 🌿 •
If there's one thing three-hour chem labs are teaching me, it's the importance of staying clear and focused and absolutely present. Because, in the words of Hargis, "what's coming will come, and we'll meet it when it does." 💕 📷: @cosstores