Anxiety is responsible for activating the 'fight or flight' response
Our bodies do this when we feel ourselves to be in some kind of danger.
Everyone has times when they are anxious, it's a very real emotion, you're maybe anxious about a job interview or a date you have coming up and that's perfectly normal, however it is very different to living with an anxiety disorder. Feeling nervous goes, anxiety itself lingers much longer.
Anxiety has been a massive part of my life and still is, these photos represent some stages of anxiety for me.
Last night I couldn't breathe, I couldn't stop crying and I felt sick and my brain was going a thousand miles per hour, I was having a panic attack. This caused an Ibs flare up, sleep deprivation and flash backs.
Today I went out and I did the thing that gave me a panic attack, I did it but the anxiety was still present. Shaky, nervous, overly emotional, nauseous but I did it. I am proud!
Then comes the after effects of a rough panic attack the high emotions, the tight chest, the feelings of shame, the brain fog, the physical aches and pains, the heaviness of your entire body. Hello anxiety attack hangover 👌🏻
Today I went to a building I've never been to before and had to meet someone I have never met before, yes I did it and yes I am proud because I'm a badass warrior.
Sometimes leaving my flat can cause an anxiety attack like this, sometimes being alone in my flat can also.
These anxiety attacks knock me back for days, I'm exhausted and fatigued.
Today was a win but I fought so hard for that win and now I need to recover from it.
Not every day is going to be a win, some days the anxiety is just too much, some days I can't fight it. AND THAT IS OKAY!
It's okay if your anxiety gets too much, it's okay if all you did today was breathe, keep breathing, keep living, stay on this journey with me.
TODAY: CAPTAIN GARY ROSE WAS AWARDED THE CONGRESSIONAL MEDAL OF HONOR.
Capt. Gary Rose, now 69, served as a medic in the Military Assistance Command Studies and Observations Group, an elite division of the Special Forces. It was so secret that, for more than four decades, he never spoke about it to anyone – not even the people he served with.
Those that served with him, however, never forgot the bravery he showed during a four-day mission, called “Operation Tailwind,” in the landlocked country in September 1970.
Rose, then a sergeant, ran through a hail of gunfire to treat more than 50 soldiers who were fighting the North Vietnamese Army – using one hand to hoist wounded men onto his back while he fired on the enemy with his other hand.
In spite of his own injuries, he didn’t sleep for days to make sure all 16 American soldiers deployed with him made it home.
God Bless you sir
I am terrified of the vulnerability I am in by sharing all of my thoughts, emotions and personal truths. Yet, here I am, opening up to the world. Heavily influenced by the Younique Foundation, all of the survivors of CSA and my personal story, I had to speak up. In doing so, I want to be a torch for anyone who's standing in the dark. Spreading awareness and sharing my personal healing journey are my main topics on yourswadhistana. I just uploaded my first two blogposts! Please feel free to give it a read (link in bio). I will be sharing my experiences, emotions and thoughts on yourswadhistana. I would love to know if anyone finds it useful/insightful; I am here in love and light. 💜✨ #csa#childhoodsexualabuse#defender#ptsd#ptsdrecovery#healing#speakup#reclaimyourvoice#childhoodsexualabusesurvivor#childhoodsexualabuseawareness
i finally finished his vest! it’s not that fancy but it will work when we will base his training on the on-duty and off-duty mentality.
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Have you asked yourself any of these questions since your traumatic birth: Why doesn't anyone get it? Why don't my friends feel bad about their births? How do I share my story so people get it? Why did I agree to that epidural or episiotomy or caesarean? ⠀⠀
These are just some of the questions that MANY women ask themselves... and we have turned those questions into the titles of the chapters in our book. So you can flip to that chapter, and finally find some answers to help you figure out what's going on. And guide you in taking steps towards processing what you have discovered. And moving towards healing.⠀⠀
You can see here, the Content List for Part Two of our book - have a skim through and see if there are any issues there that you are struggling with right now. We want to let you know that you are not alone. There is a way forward. And healing is possible.⠀⠀
They had to write the rest of my diagnosis on another paper. I've been silent about most of my illnesses for a while but I feel like it can help people to know they aren't alone. The struggle is daily some of my illnesses cause me to act violent and erratic at times but that doesn't make me a bad person. If you suffer from mental illnesses that causes you to do the same you are not a bad person. There's a stigma around mental illnesses like this. Just know you aren't alone and you are loved💞💞💞💞 #mentalhealth#panicdisorder#anxietydisorder#borderlinepersonality#ptsd#bipolar#agoraphobia
I made vegan brownies last night!!! I'm really proud of how good they turned out honestly😂 The recipe is too long to post but if you want to try them out just shoot me a message and I'll send you the recipe😍😋
Does anyone else have severe food anxiety when forced to eat around others? I have for many years. All I can think when I eat around other people is that they are judging me, and all that goes through my mind is “this fat girl doesn’t even need food”, so when I’m inpatient and in an unfamiliar setting the only time I can eat food is when I’m by myself or to rely on supplements. I can’t even sit at the dinner table with the other patients even without eating because my anxiety is so severe. I’ve been having daily panic attacks the second I wake up just thinking of how I’m meant to get through the next day. I keep getting told how healthy I look and how I’ve overcome my eating disorder but that couldn’t be any further from the truth. In reality I’m just struggling at a healthy weight but it doesn’t make my brain any less sick. 😓
Does anyone else struggle with an eating disorder but are at a completely healthy weight?
I'm finally ready to go back and "really" finish The Moment Everything Changed. This book is told from both Lucy's POV and Bobbie's POV. This series is based on my troubled past and everything I went through as a teenager, told through a characters eyes (or my eyes). 📖
The first edition featured only Lucy's POV because I was telling "my story," but after a few people read The Moment Everything Changed, Bobbie recieved some nagivate feedback, which wasn't my intention. 📖
Since then I've gone back and divided the old scenes between them, giving you a look into Bobbie's thoughts about everything.
Let’s talk medication; I woke up this morning after having a dosage increase last night. I slept for a solid 10 hours and woke up feeling extra drowsy. Medication changes are something I’m used to, but it doesn’t mean they are easy. The nausea, tiredness or insomnia and headaches aren’t always pleasant. This is the 11th new medication I have tried in the last 4 years. Having BPD I know that medication won’t fix me but it can make depression and anxiety symptoms easier. I’m willing to try it if it will help. Some days I want to give up. I want to stop meds altogether. But then I remind myself they have a purpose and that I do want to get better. It’s a daily struggle but I’ll try my hardest. I took this photo 8 weeks ago when I was inpatient. My best friend gave me this as a present to remind me that I can do this. I’ve been home for a while now and back at Uni so I know I can do it. Sometimes I just need a little reminder.