It was cold. It was colder than I had imagined it to be.
"I am tired of you" he shouted and in those seven years this was the first time I had heard him shouting and it was exactly like writers describe it to be. It was like someone had put me in scorching sun for hours without any shelter,like something had hit me on head,like everything I loved about him came crumbling down in seconds,like he was not the person I fell for. In those few seconds I lost my sense of judgement and said things that shouldn't have been said but there was no turning back. Neither of us was fully right but neither of us was fully wrong. We were spitting spiteful words at each other like it was the only poem left between us to say. The fight had shifted from which one loves more to which one only loves. The subject was not love,the subject had shifted to his best friend and how I had hatred for every ounce of her. In those moments we lost our balance,our balance of love,our balance of care and there was nothing left. Nothing was clear,nothing could be seen and maybe we lost future in this present.
p a s s i o n 🍋 Agrāk man šķita, ka noteikti ir jābūt tai vienai "manai lietai". Es tik ļoti tam ticēju, ka baigi saskumu katru reizi, kad kaut kas nesanāca tā, kā biju ieplānojusi. Bet velāk sapratu, ka man nav sevi jāieliek vienā noteiktā rāmī. Man tas nestrādā. Ir jāpriecājas par iespējām, kas uzrodas ārpus vienas noteiktas nišas. Jādara tas, ko jūti, kas sanāk, kas patīk - kādam tā tiešām būs tā viena "viņa lieta", bet kādam citam, tāpat kā man, var gadīties, ka ar vienu kāju tur, ar otru - citur un paralēli vēl risini kādu trešo. Un jūties laimīgs. Un tas viss ir ok. #quotesgram
Like a careless cigarette smoke
She runs wild and for miles
She knows, what freedom feels like
Alive in the moment
Feeling liberation in her mind .
She is the cloud that the wind talks about
She had enough of holding herself back
Loathing in her own fears
Of letting her heart die
For years and years
Like a cigarette smoke
She is free
Unafraid of her destiny. .
Sutta credit @storieswali 😄