Day 15/16 of Lyme/M.E treatment 💚💙The sun is shining so bright in my room today 🌤but it's freezing cold ❄️I feel so weak 🛌I had a bad day yesterday 💩I was just feeling fed up with doctors and being sick 😷then I had a doctors appointment to monitor my treatment 👩🏻⚕️I just wasn't in the mood 🙃 it's been about a year that I've been very unwell 🤒and I've been given a lot of diagnoses and medications that I'm really grateful for 🤗but most doctors discharge me after that 🤔and just say oh you'll probably recover in a few years 🤦🏻♀️like that's going to happen magically?! 🙄and this doctor yesterday asked what my plan is 🙍🏻I don't know what my plan is because no one has really given me one? ☹️like my plan is this treatment 🤷🏻♀️then I was wondering what happens if the treatment doesn't work 🤔and kinda feeling like a financial and emotional burden 😰but I've had enough crying for now 😪the big picture is too hard to think about 🙅🏻too many 'what ifs' ⁉️so I'll focus on the little things that made me happy today 😊 like my fidget spinner 🌀and Sarah getting me a new bath sponge 💦we had a really soapy bath 🛁and I'm wearing Sarah's dressing gown 🤗it's so fluffy 😱there has been lots of great textures today! 👍🏼and I watched loads of adventure time 🌈and made some progress on my medical folder organising 🤓🙌🏼
🔥 Watching the flicker and dance of a single candle light flame is hypnotic and it's beautiful.
Watching you being true to yourself, shining in your truest essence, dancing only to the beat of your heart is hypnotic and it's beautiful.
🔥To show up as our self, creates the most liberating freedom, so what stops us?
The fear that we will be judged by others, that they will reject us, that we'll end up alone.
But, what I've discovered and deep-down, what you know too, is that the conversation you have in your head is always worse than how the conversation plays out in reality.
So, it might be feel overwhelming and scary to really own who you are & in some form "come out the closet" - don't beat yourself up, that is so natural my darling.
Instead, try opening up to one person and share your story, your light and see their heart-resonating reaction. Feeling the fear & then feeling that fear washed away by love is the most beautiful feeling & always a huge relief ✨
We can't influence and see the change we desire if we don't show up, so be brave, share you world, your truth, do so gently.
Watch how you grow more resilient as the connection to your power grows stronger.
Notice how other beautiful humans arrive in your life with similar beliefs, stories, ideas and dreams as your flame grows brighter.
Being you is enough 🔥