I h-a-t-e this white sh***. Viikon sairastamisen jälkeen, edelleen toipilaana, tämä ei varmastikaan ole suositeltua mutta pakko ne lumet oli pois saada, muuten ei autot liiku huomenna minnekään... nyt sitä vettä kiitos, en nimittäin oikeasti jaksa kolata tota pihaa enää uudelleen ja isäntä on vuoteenomana edelleen... ☹️ #ihatesnow#fuckwinter#needtogetwellsoon#recovering
#breakfast today is semolina porridge with apples and cinnamon since my stomach hurts ;-; I absolutely love semolina porridge with cinnamon and this time I wanted to add apples but i didn’t like it , so net time I’ll just take more porridge and don’t add an apple 🍎 🤷🏼♀️
Spending some time cut off from wifi and the world apart from a few moments here and there when I get some access to 3G has given me a lot of space to make me reflect on myself and my life.
More importantly it's made me want to reflect on the fact that I want to live. So often I've spent my life focusing on death and thinking about dying that I was really convinced that's what I wanted. It's not. I don't actually want to die. Well in this moment I do not.
I want to live and you can't do that with anorexia. You can't live happily with anorexia. It dominates your existence, your being, your power. It may convince you that you can live in perfect harmony together but the truth is you really can't. Inevitably, anorexia will eventually kill you. In a sad and suffering filled way.
I would rather have an exciting death opposed to starving to death. That's pretty boring compared to the fact you could get eaten to death by piranhas swimming in the amazon or getting crushed to death by walls due to some gypsy hex placed on a tomb you've broken into.
I plan to live. I plan to die not regretting that I didn't live. I don't want to lay on my death bed in my 20's. I want to lie in my death in my late 90's shitting myself as a crazy goat loving great grandmother asks her grandchildren to look after Tarquinius the goat when she's gone every 30 seconds as I retell stories of the time I ate a whole goat with the chief of some tribe I met on tinder then stole his undergarments. #realrecovery#recovery#recovering#edfamily#edwarrior#edfighter#edfam#edcommunity#recoveryisworthit#recoverywin#eatittobeatit#ana#anarecovery#edrecovery#anorexianervosa#prorecovery#recoveryispossible#fuckana#fuckanorexia#plymouth#happiness#mentalhealth#devon#dmmeguys#anawho#anawarrior#anafighter#anarecovery#anorexia#anorexiarecovery
Breakfast was sooo good! It was a little pot of crunchy clusters with strawberry pieces and another little separate pot with Greek yogurt. When you add them together it's so satisfying lol but yeah it tasted great. I was kinda worried at first since the 'high' sugar and fat in it, but it was worth it and I'll definitely buy it again!
I'm going for my weigh in today at camhs and afterwards I'm getting mcdonalds for lunch which is scary but I'll try? I'll probably get a wrap but I'm not sure 😯
G o o d m o r n i n g !
Me- *sees everyone posting beautiful pics of oats and posts the same boring cheerios* 😂 oh well THEY TASTW GOOD AND ARE MY FAVORITE 😅🙌♥️ ———————————————
Breakfast was a bowl of Cheerios with milk plus a pack of 4 Oreo cookies! (Back to not posting everything but parts of because I don’t want to feel I have to picture it so it’s valid because it’s not like that xx 😚)
I’m on holidays since Friday but I’m going to help a friend of mine with her exams today 😅😂 oh well!
Mon entretien d’hier après-midi avec ma psychologue était très enrichissant. Je suis restée environ 1h15 dans son cabinet (heureusement qu’elle n’avait pas de patient derrière moi 😅), nous discutions, dissertions, échangions. Elle me narrait des experiences de sa vie, cherchait à m’aider, à me rassurer sur certaines de mes angoisses et appréhensions concernant mon avenir. Très à l’écoute, très encourageante. Ces rendez-vous me font vraiment du bien parce qu’elle donne l’impression de VRAIMENT se soucier de ce qu’on lui dit. Elle s’investit à 100% dans son métier, et l’on voit que ça lui plaît. Ce n’ est pas juste un gagne-pain, elle aime aider les gens et ne répond pas juste un « hmm hmm » évasif lorsqu’on lui raconte ce qui va et ce qui ne va pas 😉
J’ai pu voir un petit peu mon petit chat @ju.cofighter ❤️
Et aujourd’hui, je travaille midi et soir 😽
Sinon, vous aviez plutôt bien apprécié ma photo d’il y a deux jours avec mes petits chocolats, voici donc ceux que j’ai pris hier soir avec ma collation 😛 (on peut d’ailleurs discerner mon bol noir en arrière plan) et honnêtement Lindt reste un classique 🍫😉
Je vous embrasse 😘
I was right about my worry of being bloated this #morning and weighing more than usual. waking up later than planned after another not v relaxing night and having little time obviously I had to stuff myself w #breakie and now I feel horrible again wow. guess eating dinner every second day day works best for me so no dinner for me tonight. I couldn't stand feeling like this every single day the pain I'm in rn is like knives stabbing me over and over again
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Feeling great, it seems every few weeks I have a new revelation about what the future has in store for me. I’m sorry I have not been posting consistently, I don’t know what to post to be honest. I feel amazing, I have successfully balanced my quarter so far. Every day I become closer and closer to my goal. Every moment feels like I’m aligning with some kind of destiny. I feel totally in control of my life. I understand there are things out of my control, spring is coming and with it often comes terrible episodes. I have confidence I can get through this spring stronger than before. I have such unwavering confidence in myself, yet I still feel a healthy amount of fear and anxiety when approaching professors about questions I have regarding course material or my own thoughts. I don’t affiliate with any religion, but I have started believing I was put on earth for a very specific purpose. A purpose I can’t ignore and must always strive for. I can’t explain this feeling, it feels possibly greater than mania. It feels divine.
✨got to see my ball of fur in between my classes today, and he’s doing a lot better 🤞🏼hoping he remains stable enough to come home soon🙏🏼❤️ I’m beyond grateful with everyone that has been there for me these last few days, sending us prayers and positive vibes so my little baby boy heals, I am so grateful for all of you💗 family, friends, yogis, omies, my students, all of ollies dr.’s and nurses, and my boss ladies at the studios I teach ♥️thank you for your kind words, energy and support. Ollie and I love and appreciate you all💗🐶#thankful#grateful#healingpup#recovering#notgivingup#mydog#mybestfriend#lovemdog#pommymommy#pomeranian#olliethepomeranian
Thats my favorite clif bar 🥥 🍫 ❤️.
❣️Tw~ Yesterday was crappy.
I b/p 3 times and bc of that my stomach was hurting so bad..
Normalley I would eat nothing today bc of the calories, but I’m trying to stick to my normal mealplan.~ TW End❣️
Have a good day🌸
Tonight’s one of those nights nobody wants to talk about.... ya know one of those nights you feel awful, your drained physically and emotionally between your fitness journey and trying to raise a child..... yeah one of those. When you find yourself at 11:30 pm eating your last “healthy” meal of the day and washing it down with a cold beer because it’s just been a rough week and it’s only tuesday. Please tell me I’m not alone here.... life is a struggle we all have our ups and downs and I feel like social media plays us all out to be perfect all put together individuals and guess what we’re not! We’re only human. We fall down we get up and we stride to be better tomorrow. So a beer and bubble bath make me feel a million times better and I know when I wake up in the morning tomorrow will be a new day with a clean slate. So if your beating yourself up for not being perfect like all of these instagrammers remember you are not alone and my inbox is always open! #bebetter#roughnight#recoup#recovering#manpersonalbest#somedaysarehard#giveyourselfabreak#fitnessjourney#bubblebathandbeer#bubblebath#longnight#longday#nomorefatme#beer
Down regulate the nervous system for better sleep. Try 5-10 minutes of nasal only diagram breathing using an apnea protocol of a 1•3•2 ratio. Example: 5sec inhale •15sec hold • 10sec exhale repeat). If it seems easy up the ratio by one second, if you find it hard (can’t make it through a cycle) decrease by a second. Take notice of your systems state change! Sweet dreams! 🛌