i had two mangoes today! i was planning on only having one but they turned out to be so ripe that they were already kinda going bad so i decided to have both ☀️
diet culture tells us to be avoid fruit because of their sugar but FUCK THEM for real. we need sugar and carbs to thrive. it's literally essential. so eat your fruit guys 🍉🍌🍊🍎🍍🍇🥝🍑🍐 (and everything else your heart desires)
Seit tagen das selbe. Ich fühle mich fett, eklig und gefräßig aber tue nichts dagegen, weil ich weiß, dass es falsch wäre. Ich vermisse diese eine bestimmte Zahl und das Gefühl, welches nicht da war. Diese leere. Aber nicht die leere, die ich jetzt spüre sondern die leere in meinem Magen. Ich habe 2 Stimmen in meinem Kopf. Die eine sagt das ich auf einem guten weg bin und essen muss und die andere das gegenteil. Die stimmen begleiten mich durch den ganzen Tag. Mal entscheide ich mich morgens frühs den Tag über ausgewogen und normal zu Essen, dann lasse ich das Mittagessen ausfallen und dann esse ich Abends alles wieder in mich rein, weil ich eigentlich nicht abnehmen darf/will. Und dann kommen die schuldgefühle. “die paar gramm, die du verloren hättest, hätten keine Auswirkungen auf deine Gesundheit! Jetzt darfst du morgen weniger essen weil es ja heute nicht geklappt hat!“
“aber es ist gut das du es getan hast. Du musst dein setpointgewicht erreichen dann wirst du normal Leben können!“ Ich würde am liebsten diese beiden Stimmen umbringen. Mich umbringen. Ich sitze Abends da und schlinge essen in mich rein damit ich die stimmen nicht höre aber sie werden nur lauter. Die eine schreit “weiter so! Du schaffst das!“ und die andere “Du fettes Schwein die Leute werden dich auslachen ab morgen wirst du meinen befehlen Folgen und nichts mehr essen!“
Hello friends & family, I have some great news! My surgery went way better than expected and after going in he was able to salvage more than he originally thought he would be able to! They removed the top of my left ureter tube where it meets my kidney and then lowered my kidney and tacked it in place without having to use any of my small intestine! I still have about a 4 inch incision on my stomach as well as a stent in my left ureter tube & a nephrostomy tube out of my left side. I'm on day 3/5 of my liquid diet which is torture, but luckily, if the next few days go as planned I'll be out of here on Thursday!😁🙏🏼Thank you everyone for your prayers and warm wishes. I have such an amazing support system am very grateful for each and every one of you!😘❤️#surgery#recovering#liquiddiet#iuhealthuniversityhospital
i'm very very sooper dooper worried about this evening as we are out for a meal with my uncle from Australia who's back for a bit and some other family and we are going for an indian curry and i'm terrified!!
Sugar free soy hazelnut latte😋 I'm going to a vegan cooking class this morning with my mom and her friends, it'll be fun but I'm scared about the eating it part🙊 Idk. It's still rainy and nice though so that makes me happy!
Wine stained lips
Paint a picture of perfection
Far out of reach
Too touched by
The promise of beauty
Lingers in satin lingerie
Size extra small
Stained on my brain
Like coffee on my sheets
Until I got brave enough
Drowned the illusion
Of worth found in bodies
Lifted the veil
I found my soul
Over and over again
In a world of truth - I'm already good enough
Freedom tastes like cookies whenever I crave them. Im so happy to be at a place where I love myself. A place that doesn't consist of me worrying about how I look all the time. I used to stress so much about my body, now I just live. We can all find this freedom. It starts with us loving us. Then we can spread it to others. We will infect the whole world with love & acceptance. Think about how fucking powerful the feminine could be if we all loved ourselves. 🌸
#lunch looked humongous and it was quite a lot to eat. that was probably bc there was lettuce hidding underneath the #couscous . I'm trying to add more greens/salads into my diet bc I hardly eat #veggies . the point is that this entire meal was an experiment/a #challenge on so many levels!! zucchini is not a "safefood" and I haven't eaten these falafel since some time last school year! I always had a love-hate relationship w them. I kinda like them but they also can make me feel sick. and I never realised that they're made out of chickpeas but since then I knew why I felt sick, it's the same w chickpeas. now my body can handle them better but I'm still not sure about these #falafel
Firstly, Costco has Christmas stuff out already ->>> WTF!/Yay! Secondly, I wanted to talk about fitness and mindset. "I really regret that workout"........said no one ever!😉 But seriously guys I have never finished a good sweat session without feeling that sense of accomplishment and of course the rush of endorphins that goes with.
That being said, I just wanted to take a second today to tell you that I love fitness but you know what? Not everyday has me waking up with the urge to go all in. In fact, some days my motivation ranks in at a big fat 0%. This past Friday I just wasn't feeling it and actually I had a really hard time finding anywhere to draw motivation from at all. BUT, I had planned a workout and I somehow made it to the gym and slashed a leg day and ended with an extra push . Afterwards I felt great of course, but that doesn't change the fact that I could tell I was really ready for a weekend with some good rest. For me though, it's the mental break way more than the physical. Yes, I could have gone for a run or done some gym time but instead I took decided to spend Saturday cleaning my house and doing some rejuvenating yoga. Again on Sunday I did some yoga and went for a relaxing bike ride with my sister. Then Monday I felt great and ready to get back at it hard.
My point is that it's important to listen to your body AND your mind. Getting back to fitness after my accident has taught me to appreciate my body and not stress the small stuff. Fitness should improve your quality of life not detract from it. Make exercise a part of your life but don't let it become your life.
Oh, and yes I had a Costco frozen yogurt because that's what I wanted on Sunday and "Is it healthy?" Well, maybe not 100% but for me the freedom to choose it is much healthier than I ever thought I could get.
Packed #breakfast for school was some tomatoes 🍅 and a kinder brioss ! It's from Italy , and some kind of cake with nougat and cream filling !!(😱😍💪🏼🔥) as I packed it at home , the voices in my head told me to not eat it , because I will have cake for lunch and an icecream pint for nightsnack . But I fucking ignored it and it was sooo worth it! It was so so yummy and after an exhausting math class the best 🙏🏼
sooo very late lunch is a big plate of veggies and lentils! it was only after eating that i realized i forgot about hummus.. thinking about making pasta tomorrow, haven't had that in a while 💪🏼
i've only had this page for a few days and i'm already receiving so much support from everyone. thank you❤️ i can't believe i was scared of making this acc
guess who got a vitamin water aka liquid calories(!!) today for school? yep, i did!! 🙌🏼 for real tho, you know you have a problem when you're scared of freaking vitamin water lmao. it wasn't very high in calories for a drink but it still felt like a challange (i haven't had any liquid calories in ages) and i'm glad i picked it instead of regular spring water 💦
Middag innan dans
Ett glas c vitamin med ett äpple och en majskaka med havssalt på.
Åt även ett gäng stora vindruvor innan som as/mellis
Åt dock äpplet och halva majskakan. Är mätt.. Men ska försöka sitta kvar längre o få i mig den
Sorry that this is late guys, but I've had SUCH a busy day so far! 😌 Breakfast was Weetabix with honey 🍯 and semi-skimmed milk and a slice of toast with butter and apricot jam 😋 Feeling a lot better than yesterday, maybe that hour-long fry was needed? 🤔 Anyway, have a wonderful day, and kick some ED ass! 💪🏼❤️