What's better than a Cinnamon Toast Crunch cupcake? ... I'd say close to nothing. 🤤 Seriously... not being afraid to stuff my face with junk food is such a great feeling.. I've been missing so much. 🍰 What's your favorite treat?!
Just to clear up some confusion: I am NOT on a diet! 😂 The one I did was only 2.5 days and it was for a SCHOOL PROJECT. I'm actually trying this new *crazy* thing I like to call "listening to your body and eating what you want." 👍🏻 #HAES#EatingMyElephant
Keep my energy high
My weekend gonna be too long I guess 🌝 hope to get some time for yoga🍃
Finally I have some muscles. I can clearly feels my body when I'm walking or moving. Like ⚓️🏄🏻♀️
16 days to Sri Lanka ✨
This skirt was sooo loose on me when I first bought it and now it fits just right. Which is kind of triggering because it means I've obviously gained weight, but it also makes me happy kind of because I don't think I look bad in it? And I can wear it now without it falling off. And who cares that I've gained weight? I've also made lots of great memories and tried new food snd drinks (!!!) and I've laughed and gone out and not spent days and nights alone trapped in my head and too scared to go out because I was afraid of being made to eat or that I would binge and purge. Recovery is worth it. My bad days in recovery are still better than my best days in relapse. I don't ever want to go back. #eatingdisorderrecovery#anorexiarecovery#bulimiarecovery#recoverywarrior#recoveryisworthit#recoverywin#gainingweightiscool
Hello all you beautiful #edfighter I have a couple updates since my last post. I got admitted to the ER to get vitals checked and although my glucose and heart rate levels were below normal, they released me back home. The past few days have been a rush of doctors appointments, some food fears, and just overall exhaustion. But I'll be in inpatient intake tomorrow morning at 9 am and although I do not feel ready or "sick enough" or prepared to put on the weight, I know there is no alternative other than spending the rest of my life with these horrible thoughts and patterns and that is NOT an acceptable alternative by any means. I finally have acknowledged that being at home and still in control of my eating behaviors has gotten me stuck again for the past month and so I think this is a needed, even if not quite wanted step. I'm trying not to think about it too much and try to take it day by day, meal by meal, bite by bite, and go in with an open mind to try to get as much out of the experience as I can. I'm not sure how long I'll be in but hopefully I will come out physically healthy and ready to tackle all the mental bullshit 💪 I really really cannot verbalize how much this amazing #edcommunity has done for me so far and I'm so thrilled to come back with updates and new food adventures and fears and hopes and dreams and be continually inspired by all your journeys and strength. NEVER give up hope, even if you cannot fathom fighting ED today, hold on to what you can because we will all make it out, bury ED and dance on his grave 💥🎉
almost forgot to post #dinner and especially I almost forgot to eat but not even on purpose! planning my trip is so time-consuming and I always find sth new I have to consider too. it's fun though looking at all the different accomodations but it's literally so hard for me to decide which one to book 😩 anyway, didn't do much except! meal preping, washing my hair and planning my trip this afternoon/#evening
I'm so proud of my cooking skills today 💁🏼 for lunch I made mixed salad, sautéed garlic mushrooms, and mustard-orange chicken! Everything is so yum 😋. Then I added some refried beans on the side because I fancied them 😁. My mom say that I can get married now (Here in Mexico is like a typical expression/saying when they mean that you cook good 😜), but no ones want that. I should get a boyfriend first 😂. Maybe we will go to Mexico City later, to do some shopping 🙌🏼 so I'm gonna hurry up to eat this :). Enjoy the rest of the afternoon/evening, guys 🙂.
#edfamily#anorexiarecovery#recoverywin#anorexia OK salut toi ! Toi qui ne t aimes pas en temps normal ce soir on va faire un truc un peu gnagnan si ca te dis et que t as envie de réfléchir 5 min , je te propose d être ta propre meilleure amie . Alors écris moi une chose que tu aimes chez toi , une qualité n importe quoi un truc tout doux tu sais ce truc que tu dirais avec bienveillance à ta meilleure amie .
I just finished an awesome Crossfit workout 💪 There are women of ALL sizes (and ages!) who absolutely SLAY these sessions. Women living in larger bodies smashing out pull ups, rope climbs, overhead snatches and 400m runs, just to name a few. These women are seriously fit and healthy. Don't tell me thin = fit, and large = unfit 😡 Also, anyone who is exercising in an undernourished state is NEGATIVELY affecting fitness. Ditch ridiculous calorie deficits in favour of fueling your activity properly.. you're welcome for the improved performance 👊
Pint before dinner (eaten on the bus 🙄) tonight. It's still weird saying yes to things. I was asked if I was free to meet for drinks tonight for a friend's birthday. At the back of my mind I can hear the ED stressing because I'm also going for drinks tomorrow evening, and I had a big weekend out. But, note, it's at the back of my head. Because I have chosen to push it back there. Instead, the last months of continuously pushing myself to say yes to things that are challenging have meant I have a better grip on my own thoughts and actions now. You too can have a life of saying YES. This is not it. This is not as far as you can come. Keep saying yes to things that are slightly outside your comfort zone, and soon you'll have a whole new perspective on what you enjoy and what you can do! Seriously, every new day that you succumb to ED thoughts is a day wasted. A day that won't be spent living how YOU want and can spend it. #ana#anorexia#anarecovery#anorexiarecovery#recovery#recoverywin#recoverywins#recoverygoals#edsoldier#edwarrior#edfighter#edrecovery#eatingdisorder#eatingdisorderrecovery#beatana#beatanorexia#keepfighting#dinner#pint
Prag - 4. Tag
Morgen früh heißt es dann leb wohl Praha - Ahoij du wundervolle, lebendige, besondere und einzigartige Stadt.
Wir durften hier eine super Zeit verbringen und Prag ist definitiv immer einen Besuch wert!
Heute haben wir uns nochmal ein paar ganz andere Viertel und Ecken der Stadt angeguckt. Vom schönen/hässlichsten Fernsehturm über eine einzigartige Bibliothek bis hin zu einem ganz normalen Bauernmarkt und einer Nachbildung des Eifelturms. Achso ja und auf dem neuen jüdischen Friedhof waren wir auch noch. Viele dieser Sehenswürdigkeiten liegen etwas ferner ab vom Zentrum, sind aber durch die Straßenbahnen und Metrolinien sehr schnell und einfach zu erreichen. Das Tagestiket war wir dafür heute benutzt haben war mit umgerechnet ungefähr 4,50€ auch nicht teuer.
Zum Abschluss unserer Tour hier, waren wir eben im dunklen nochmal auf der Karlsbrücke - da ist echt immer etwas los! - und Cocktails trinken. Auf der einen Seite ist es wirklich schade, dass die Zeit hier nun schon wieder vorbei ist, auf der anderen freue ich mich auch sehr auf ein paar ruhige Tage bei meinen Großeltern😊
Essen lief heute endlich mal wieder richtig gut. So viele #fearfoods hab ich lange nicht mehr, erst recht nicht in der Menge gegessen. Von Kuchen, Eis, Käse, Cocktails, Schoko bis hin zu Nudeln und Soße war alles dabei.
Hab ihr Interesse an einem Post speziell zu #vegetarianprague ? Im Prinzip ist hier das tschechische Essen ja sehr fleischlastig.
Ich hoffe ihr habt eine schöne Woche❤
Positivity pays off! We are so in AWE of @nalieagustin, a beautiful member of our community who recently finished her chemotherapy and is on her way to defeating cancer. We ❤ you Nalie! To learn more about her journey, make sure to follow her! #naliesarmy#ALIVEandEMPOWERED
Last time I posted this pic I didn't have any. Just wanted to post something motivational to make you think I was killing it with recovery.
But now I'm having some for night snack! With added chocolate sauce because yum 😋
VEGAN CHERRY BAKEWELL IS MY ULTIMATE FAVE 🍒 anything almondy AND cherry flavoured is sosososo perf imo 🙌🏻 gonna enjoy the last of my cake whilst watching love island and touching my new hair because it's so short and I can't get used to it 😅 goodnight my lovelies 💖
Hey... Hier doch noch mal ein update von mir:
(Vorsicht trigger warnung: Anorexie)
Ich will ehrlich sein. Ich bin hinsichtlich der Essstörung rückfällig geworden...leider... Habe seit Beginn der Sommerferien prinzipiell das Frühstück wegfallen lassen und habe damit in dieser Woche etwas mehr als 2 Kilo abgenommen. Auch sonst habe ich weniger gegessen. Mittags noch relativ normal aber auch weniger, weil mir schnell schlecht wurde und abends mal nur erdbeeren oder einen Apfel. Ich versuche mich nun wieder in den "recover - Modus " zu begeben, aber das kann schwer werden...
Bin auch am überlegen wieder in therapie zu gehen, aber habe irgendwie so eine "Psychologen- Phobie "😅 wegen meinem alten Psychologen (möchte nicht näher darauf eingehen )
Hab euch lieb und bleibt stark ❤
Lunch was this huge pita 🥙 filled with falafel, hummus, lettuce, and cucumbers. I don't know the calories which scares me but it was so good! But after eating it my mom said "Wow you were hungry...." meanwhile she ate the same exact thing....?
This was my lunch today in my favorite biggest cup ☕ aka best container for lovely selfmade soup. ❤️ Basically a tomato 🍅 soup with 200g mixed frozen veggies and some noodles which hide somewhere in it. 🙈This one was really yummy and #recoverywin I went for a SECOND! 🙊 Today was a good day. 🙉 Good night my lovely fighters. 💚💪
Dessert - 8:10pm - Packet Of Belgian dark chocolate mini corn and rice cakes ... I gave in to what my cravings were heading towards, and took these to bed with my book and ate them slowly and they were perfect, I feel really satisfied now :) Sometimes something sweet is just like the full stop on the end of a meal isn't it? Looking back at what I ate today and yesterday had been making me feel on edge... it looked like a lot of treats and like it would have me putting on weight... so I put the calories for everything into MyFitnessPal and have come out around 1600 a day, which as a comfortable slight loss/maintenance amount is actually great for me... with the exercise I've done these past couple of days it even has me in a slight deficit. I know it's not healthy to obsess over that but it's early days of recovery here for me, and it's just nice to know that following my instincts food wise, and keeping this diary, is actually keeping me eating a reasonable, healthy amount each day... not over eating and not undereating. That gives me a lot of confidence that I'm doing the right thing and to keep on keeping on! ✊🏼
#food of the day💕 #lunch and #dinner were so challenging !! And dinner was NOT a low fat yoghurt , no , it had 10% fat 😱 (it doesn't look like much in the picture because the bowl was very deep . I actually had 6 big scoops of this yoghurt ) AND i ate fruit for dinner !😳 #anxiety was real , BUT Im a #edfighter and got a big #recoverywin 💪🏼🔥
Nicht das beste Bild aber naja...🙈
Tja das war mein #nightsnack heute😋
Mars und Kinderriegel 😍
Okii also ich bin noch ziehmlich Müde von Gestern und Versuche jetzt schon mal in den Schlafmodus zu gehe also sag ich mal gute Nacht und bis morgen😙😴🙌
I am strong. I am beautiful. I am kind. Sometimes you just need to give yourself a good pep talk because mindset is everything, and is where recovery is the hardest. Stop allowing your brain to bully your body!! Just because someone els is dieting, doesn't mean you have to. Just because someone is working out 6 days a week, does NOT mean you have to. Stop letting your soul be defined by your outer appearance. There is no one shape, no one size fits all. You are you, and that is enough!💕