"I fell for his charms like I always do. And he left me like he always does. And I hate myself for it like I always do. He served me a big fat liar, more it's big, more I am capable of actually believe it, like he always does. And I believe him, I believe his lies because I wanted it to be true. When I was sad, because of him, when I was angry of him, he just always comes into my life, with his smile, and I fall every time for him. And I can't not falling for his charms. Because he is my brother, and no matter how hard he hurts me, I will always want him to be part of my life. Even if he cuts me open, even if he was a jerk, even if he hurts me, even if I'm not the same without him. I'm tired of this, I'm tired of him leaving everytime, I'm exhausted of forgiving him, everytime, for everything. I miss him, I want to stop missing him but I can't he means the world to me. One car crash, and the siblings are no longer here, because one left for heaven, another was hurt, and the other, my brother, was just too crushed to even speak with me like before. I miss them, I miss our childhood, when he was still here, when our life hadn't stop in the most horrific way. But now the time had pass away, so quickly, and now, in this night, I wanted him to be there, the brother who is still alive, for me, to comfort me, and mathe if he would had shown up, I would not be dead. But he hasn't show so I cut my wrists, direction heaven, with my brother, and I see him now, he smiles at me, oh God, I'm so greateful to be dead because I can see again my brother..."