I've placed myself in time out. "I'll be in my room, don't try to find me" is exactly what I said to the kids as I shut my door. I have no reason for the fiery mood I'm in - I'm just in it.
The caseworker is going to be here in an hour or two, and my house is a mess. I have exactly zero desire to clean it. The next time I have a respite weekend, can somebody please remind me to hire a house cleaner? I got so wrapped up in editing and writing that I never fully cleaned anything. I did unclog the sink though, and that's gotta count for something.
I've got exactly 30 minutes before I'm forcing myself to get the house in order and pick up the babies, so I'm the meantime - I think I'll just daydream about the Rockies and how beautiful this meadow probably looks covered in snow.
THE SACRED MASCULINE: EXPLORATION
A major trait of sacred masculinity in ALL of us - in men, women, and everyone in between - is a passion for going OUT from the world of comfort in order to explore the deepest mysteries of life. Depending on our individual calling, this can include the literal wilderness (landscapes, seascapes, skyscapes, outer space), the cultural wilderness (other countries, various philosophies, religions, ethnic groups), the interpersonal wilderness (the wild and wooly terrain of human relationships), the cosmic wilderness (the realm of religion and spirituality, myth, and the Ultimate Mystery), the intellectual wilderness (exploring and co-creating a system of thought that is all-emcompassing, ever-expanding, and continually open to transcending itself), and the inner wilderness (the realm of personality types, the true self, psychology, and the collective unconscious). Here, fundamentalisms of any sort are the complete antithesis of the sacred masculine. Our country's current slide backwards into racism, sexism, nationalism, provincialism, America-First-ism, me-first-ism, etc., is about as far from the sacred masculine as you can get. To use an outdated term, it is downright "wimpy." Expansion, not contraction, is a chief trait of God and hence of the sacred masculine. The sacred feminine is the mystery of life who draws us ever onward, the One who longs for us to to love, respect, adore and explore her boundless and intimate wonders. It is her beauty, fierceness, majesty, mystery and wisdom that woo us ever onward - philo-SOPHIA! - to become the best version of ourselves that we can possibly be. Will we respond to her call?
Photo: A blustery, misty day on Lake Haiyaha. The tree is a Limber Pine. Rocky Mountain National Park, CO, November 17, 2017
Took this photo 12 years ago in #rockymountainnationalpark . One Bull(in the back)was trying to tend all these cow elk. He would run up to all of them and bugle in their face. The cows would just look at him like, "whatever man." He looked worn down like he was about to fall over, but he never stopped. #keepgoing
While in Estes Park, CO for a weekend wedding, we happened upon Rock Cut Brewery @rockcutbrewing . We walked in a few minutes before it actually opened for the afternoon but the kind bartender, Michael, didn’t hesitate to wave us in. Not only was the beer really good but it was a great atmosphere. Clean, bright, airy and friendly. Only planning on staying to taste a few, we ended up getting lunch from the Two Chick’s Wings and Henhouse food truck outside and hanging for a bit longer. Delicious wings, burger and fries, by the way. The “Beer it Forward” wall immediately caught my attention and inspired me to grab my camera. Look closely. You can buy a beer or two (or more) for anyone, anytime in the future. Check the close up. A Special Forces Widow purchasing for any other SFW someday. Lots of anonymous purchases for military and law enforcement. And others just for friends. Ali and Scott (bride and groom) you have two waiting for you when you return someday. If any of you should find yourself in Estes Park, find this place immediately. I even bought the shirt! @mr_hobbes @rockcutbrewing #rockcutbrewingcompany#estespark#rockymountainnationalpark#beerlovers#photographer#photography#havecamerawilltravel#beeritforward#colorado#commercialphotographer