The hardest thing I have had to do is live through the pain and not wanting it to show. I allow myself to show that I really am not perfect. I will go forward accepting myself fully through my healing heart. To let go of my perfectionism is allowing myself to climb mountains of growth. I will allow myself to keep sharing my story for all those who need my voice, courage, perseverance, and strength. Even though its the scariest thing I can feel is vulnerability and judgement of what other people think of me or what they accept or do not accept as I share my story. God only puts the strongest through the toughest lessons in life. If I have had to go through what I have had to because if someone else had to go through it and they weren't strong enough and ended up taking their life, than everything I have gone through has and is completely worth it. #metoomovement#metoo#timeisup#Iamhere#Ihavesurvived#judgement#blamenomore#shame#perfectionism#selfdestructive#brenebrown#Oprah#taranaburke#acceptyourselffully#Ihavesurvived#mentalhealth
Continued from my last post it’s been to long and it’s time to live my life and fulfill my dreams. Be someone that I can love and have respect for myself and for everyone else who is around me. I’ve made a lot of mistakes and I feel so bad about, I’ve lost to many beautiful fighters to this illness and it’s got to stop so I’m going to do everything I can to help people with this horrible illness, get better and for them to realise they have more to life then this bastard of an illness. I’m on my way I have left the nest and I’m learning to spreed my wings and fly myself.
I have changed so much mentally and physically and it’s scary but you know what I’m proud I have yet again told anorexia to fuck off and I’m in control not the anorexia. All I say is bring it on I’m up for a fight and I will fight you till the end and fight you to leave all my beautiful fighters alone because they all deserve so much more. I have had a massive transformations through body and mind and I’m happy but also very scared but this is my time to fly and yet and bet anorexia yet again. X. X