Day 16 - Statue of Liberty
I knew today was going to be a good day when I opened the door into a cold, dark morning. I love cooler weather! I took that feeling and approached today with the attitude that I was going to be as passionate and as determined as I wanted to be. I began to meditate on anxiety and how to incorporate it into my life instead of trying to fight it off. I felt free for the first time today in a long time. I felt like me! To celebrate, I decided to throw away whatever "statue" I was going to photograph for this and make it more about freedom.
Yato's cosplay wig? Seemed fitting. He also has a bunch of stuff going on that he's trying to fight. Bandana? Of course! A winter staple for me. Fangs? Eh, somehow seemed appropriate.
I need to practice smiling more because my resting face looks salty
But then again, who says salt is bad? It adds flavor 🍁
The journey is not always easy. Someday I struggle and only want to stay in bed all day and make bad choices. Someday I'm questionning myself and my ability to succeed. I tend to strive for perfection and beat myself up when I fail. I'm a little insecure at times and don't always understand what people see in me. I think it's normal to fall back sometimes, to ask ourself questions, re-evaluate our choices and goals. You just have to light up that fire in your soul again that says "Fuck that sh/*t! Fuck what people think! I'm a fucking badass!!"
Overloaded. 😩 This one’s really quick and dirty but it also explains WHY so many have been quick and dirty lately: I’m so utterly busy! Between taking care of the baby kitten we found, regular housework, promoting my work on social media, prepping for the comic I plan to launch in November (*might* miss that deadline!), I’m completely...overloaded. Not even pictured is planning for a cross-country trip at the end of the month, rearranging my art area, doing commissions, countless side projects, and general hygiene. But also not pictured is that I’ve got a beautiful girlfriend helping me out every step of the way. 💖
Don’t worry too much, this too shall pass! ☺️💖
Having a chronic illness means being house bound most days, cancelled plans, feelings of guilt, constant pain, being dependent on others, experiencing feelings of depression or grief over the way of life you lost.
Having a chronic illness means being seen as lazy, ungrateful, it means feeling hopeless, missing out on spending quality time with your children.
A chronic illness can isolate you, because you are afraid of making plans and commitments which you might not be able to keep!
Having a chronic illness means saying " i am fine" everytime someone asks "how are you?" Despite the fact that you are struggling to stay afloat.
I am living with a chronic illness since 2007 and its been one heck of a roller coaster ride so far! #invisibleillness