It’s okay to cry.
It’s okay not to be okay.
Right now, this very second, I’m not.
It’s okay to let out whatever emotion is inside of you.
It’s okay to shout, scream, and sob.
My mental illness is tough, it’s horrific, it’s life ruining, it’s relationship destroying, it’s torturous; but fuck I’m a warrior.
A fucking storm.
Right now, the light is dim.
But tomorrow, the sun will rise.
Let’s get real about having an #invisibleillness ...in the picture on the left I was on #vacation at #DaytonaBeach . I was in extreme pain for the entire vacation, I was on #prednisone which causes some very undesirable #sideeffects , I had diarrhea and blood coming out of me constantly. I was barely able to enjoy this vacation because of how sick I was. The picture on the right is less than two weeks post surgery and I already feel 100 times better than the picture on the left. One of the hardest things about having UC is that people do not understand that you are #sick every single day. People try to give you #diet and #exercise advice and basically try to find a reason why you’re sick. Nobody wants to believe that a young/fit person with a healthy diet could be sick. Just the other day at the store I wanted to get a scooter to ride in because I was having difficulty walking (still working on building my strength back up!) but I was afraid that people would judge me and think I was taking from someone with a “real” #handicap . Please let’s end this #stigma about invisible illnesses both mental and physical! 💜
People’s minds get sick just like people’s bodies get sick. In both scenarios, you can be sick for a bit or have a chronic illness you have to live with for life. Whether you are physically or mentally sick, you can go to doctors and take medication that hopefully will help you feel better. Sometimes in life, you get so sick or you have an emergency and you need to go to the hospital. You can be hospitalized for your physical or mental health, but both have a common goal of getting you well. Please have the same compassion for someone who has a mental illness as you do for someone who has a physical illness❣️🤕🤒
After working on quite a fair bit of research documentaries on mental health and interacting with mental illness sufferers, I’ve learnt that our society is still so backwards when it comes to understanding mental illness. Mental illness isn’t like a sinus infection or a flu. You can’t wait it out. You can’t take a pill to make everything go away. Mental illness is not just “bad days” or “stress”. Everyone has difficult emotions from time to time and THAT is normal. Mental illness is any mental condition that makes it difficult to function in daily life. You can’t just “get over it”; a simple “just go out and take a stroll” will not do. It can affect your job, your dreams, and your relationships.
And the fucking Universe loves playing cruel jokes. It gave a mental illness sufferer, you. A person who was thought to keep their word. A person who initially shown effort and potential, now full of anger and blame. Through the interviews, I’ve heard stories of how people abandoned their partners because they couldn’t “deal with it anymore”. I find that incredibly puzzling. Did you think it was easy to live with an illness in your brain? It must be nice to be you. You can run away and not “deal” with this, but what about your partner whom you’ve said you care about? Can s/he escape?
Well, the only way is suicide. The “psychotically depressed” person who tries to kill him/herself does not do so out of “hopelessness” — it is not because death suddenly seems so goddamned appealing. This person in invisible agony reaches a particularly unendurable level will kill him/herself the same way a trapped person will eventually jump from the window of a burning high-rise building. When the flames get close enough, it is the contrast and comparison of two terrors that comes to mind. It is not the desire of the fall; it’s the terrorising fear of the flames. And no one, no one can understand the jump. As David Wallace put it, “You’d have to be personally trapped and felt the flames to really understand a terror way beyond falling.”
As the winter season approaches, we’ve been stocking up on all kinds of items to keep the air clear, energy positive and vibes good. Plants are a powerful way to do all of that - and affordable anxiety relief. Plus, adding plants in your interior looks good!
Have you checked out our mental health resources on our website? Visit our A-Z page today for information and advice on a range of mental health topics (link in bio). Available in both Chinese & English. 📸Credit: @harimaolee
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Happy #mentalmonday lovely humans! On #saturday we announced a new event we are hosting with @theaudiencedancerivalry , and here are all the details! It will take place on Friday February 23rd at the Vaughan City Play House! If you are a dancer, and would like to compete for #mentalhealth , go to http://www.theaudiencedancerivalry.ca and you can register with a studio or as an independent! If you are NOT a dancer, but would still like to come watch and donate, you can also get tickets on the same website. Just click “register as an Independent” scroll to the bottom, and click “buy tickets” for $20.00. If you are unable to make the event, we will soon have a @gofundme page just like we did for “Music to Live For” if you would still like to donate to the cause. The Audience has very kindly offered us at STS the donations from the event, and with those donations, we will be doing AMAZING things for the mental health community. Within the next couple of years we would love to start hosting monthly #supportgroups , safe spaces, speaking at schools to educate children and their families, and so so much more. We will not stop till we find a way for everyone in this world to feel like they belong here, and that they are understood, and loved. Thank you everyone for their support, hope to see everyone there!!💙 📷: @designincisionsofficial