So since I started writing about my depression and low self-esteem here, I decided to continue this theme. And share with the world how I'm dealing with this. And how I'm trying to change my mindset and my lifestyle in order to live a happier life.
I've been in and out of this state of mind my entire life. So I'm well aware that it will take me a long time to break all the bad habits that I've formed throughout my life. But I'm ready to put in work.
And one of the things that I realized I have to do to get out of my pity party is to do something. And I mean anything. I might be just walking around or taking pictures or going to the movies. I could be alone or with friends. I just need to do something. I need to be in motion. I need to be learning. Just the feeling of me walking is making me happy.
And yesterday was probably my first time in a while when I went in the world (that I thought hates me) and actually didn't feel bad for myself. I didn't hate myself. I had fun. And what's important I LET myself have fun. And I think I won this battle. But I know it's a lot more to come. But now I'm ready.