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I’ve now officially broken up for Christmas!!☺️ as much as I love my school, and I do, I’m so freaking tired😂 I’m wholly looking forward to a week or two with no work to do, although once Christmas is over I’ll need to get my ass in gear for mocks🙄 but that’s not yet. For now, I’m going to enjoy the festivities and try to rest up a bit💤 also I had a productive therapy sesh this afternoon - mainly talking about my problems with social interaction and SH, and how my SH has become a representation of my “illness” and to even try to stop would feel like I’d suddenly be “well” again straight away. I know I need to stop now, or at least cut down (hah pun unintended😂), in order to make progress towards recovery, but it seems like such a huge and terrifying thing. I never thought what was a simple coping mechanism could spiral into an addiction and become unrelated to my mood, but here I am. I’m an addict and it’s shit👌🏻 but it’s also not forever. It can’t be forever. But for now, I’m curled up in bed with pizza watching YouTube, and I don’t have to get up early tomorrow, and my head isn’t too loud tonight, so things are okay. That’s enough for now♥️
No make up selfie. Yes I'm aware I look a mess. I've had a really shit day today. I was feeling quite emotional last night so I stayed round a friends and it was a good distraction whilst it lasted. But I got home this morning and all the pain and anxiety I'd been feeling flooded back. I slept for a few hours cause I was really fatigued and tried to keep myself distracted afterwards. I was meant to be going to a group thing but I didn't have the energy. Anyway, no matter what I tried I couldn't successfully distract myself and ended up engaging in ED behaviours. I've been resisting certain behaviours as much as possible, but in the absence of certain safety nets I slipped back into those behaviours. And badly. I won't go into details but it's just been a real struggle today. I felt so ashamed and just broken afterwards, I tried calling my CCO to just say I need help. I can't keep going down this road and fighting this on my own cause it's clearly not working. But I couldn't get through. She may call tomorrow but probably not. But now after hours of ruminating over it I just feel defeated. I don't even want to try anymore, I don't want to even bother her or anyone else asking for help anymore cause it's clear I won't get it and this is never gonna improve and I'm just done. I've gone from desperate for help to resigned to my illnesses and symptoms (not but ED) in the space of a few short hours and now I'm feeling very self destructive. I'm getting paid tomorrow and that will just enable me to act on my urges, so I don't know whether to call the crisis team in a last ditch attempt or just say fuck it and allow myself to plummet. I'm tired of trying and it just feels like the easy option. I know this is all very anti recovery or pessimistic but things just aren't going well and I'm not gonna sit here and pretend I'm all fine and dandy when I'm just not okay. #mentalhealth#mentalillness#recovery#ed#eatingdisorder#bulimia#depression#anxiety#struggling#crisis#isitworthit#urges#selfdestruction#bpd#eupd
Please give me the strength to continue on the keto path 👏. I have been in Northern BC taking care of my grandparents and without access to fresh vegetables and being in a food desert it has been hard to keep going! The root cellar is full of potatoes, carrots and beets. Someone send cauliflower, broccoli and celery STAT 😂 #struggling#atleasttheviewispretty#northernbc#ketolife#pcoswarrior#sos
Feel like I've been surpressing a panic attack for the past five days, my brain is overactive but my body is exhausted. I've moved house and my dog had an operation this week and she's still poorly 🙁 everyone's banging on about how excited they are for Christmas and how many presents they've bought but I just feel awful because I'm skint and can't afford presents now 😔 just want someone to scoop me up pay off my bills whilst I sleep for a month
Ayy so lil update hit 500 followers that’s really cool :) my crippling depression is at like an all time high and a lot of people put requests in but rn I’m absolutely mind fucked I have finals all this week and anytime I do have time I just watch tv with Marcy and procrastinate hella hard. But I’m mentally and physically struggling rn so please do not attack me or spam me about getting your art to you it will happen just wait plz 💖🌸💖🌸💖 .
Feeling like utter crap today. I’m so low and tired, this morning on my way too work I started thinking about how I was tired of living and that these days I’m completely faking being fine around others but I don’t know, maybe it’s the holiday blues maybe it’s my stupid brain, maybe it’s the shit weather, I’m wallowing in negativity again and I’m so tired I don’t have the strength to fight anymore. I can’t kill myself because I love my brother too much but honestly I feel like I wasn’t meant to live, and lately I’ve been struggling with the past, struggling with not having a real family, being bound to take my mental illness to the grave. Everything is too much, I hate going out and seeing happy people I just wanna lay in bed and not move. I don’t know what’s going on. Seeing my psychiatrist on Friday, have to go to the hospital for that which I hate doing, still waiting on my blood test results. I want to harm myself. I’m hating life right now. Sorry for being so negative, I needed to let this out. I just want this shit year to be over, I want 2018 and the hope of having a fresh and better start. I hope everyone is having a good day. If your struggling, sending you lot of love and all the strength I have 💜
With only 12 days to go to the big day, my thoughts are around how Christmas can be a challenging time for most of us, getting presents bought, putting decorations up and trying to organise festive celebrations. However it's even harder for those with mental ill-health.
Many things that are part of our routines which we take for granted become disrupted by the change of pace in our lives. So if you are struggling this festive season remember to ask for help, talk to someone about how you feel, and surround yourself with people who make you feel more positive. How do you manage your mental health at Christmas? 💜
This week was a struggle.
My husband is back to sea duty and it’s the holiday time so his schedule is fucked up. I’m getting my period, and a lot of other personal stuff is going on that has me so stressed and my anxiety on high. I’m an emotional eater so seeing I still lost a pound this week makes me proud and realize I didn’t derail as much as I thought.
These upcoming weeks are going to probably be the hardest for me because of Christmas, me not being on a normal work schedule because the schools are off, and my sons birthday. Wish me luck for the weeks to come
Rules can either be your best friend, or your worst enemy. And more often than not, not knowing the rules will only do you more harm than good. But sometimes you’ll stumble upon a wall of rules and regulations that can do a number on your motivation. For instance - when you’re thinking of moving out.
Just ask seventeen-year-old Kristina from Rotterdam. She’s currently in the process of getting her GED, and wants to pursue graphic design at the Grafisch Lyceum in Rotterdam afterwards. She is also thinking of living on her own, but the amount of requirements she has to meet are overwhelming. “I’d really like to move out and live on my own, but unless you have financial stability and a major paycheck to back you up, it is really difficult to make it happen. Especially with so many people competing for the same rooms and stuff. It really sucks because I’m at the point in my life where I should establish myself. I know I’m ready, I just need others to see that, too”, says Kristina.
Everyone has to leave the nest at some point, and with Kristina’s new superpower, she can take on her challenge of facing an abundance of rules and regulations with ease.
Meet Unruly Kristina, and her power to ward off red tape antics and overly complicated rules!
Now then, let’s hope Kristina will use her powers for good!