#washitallaway#change is so fucking hard. #today , the first morning of real #movement towards the person I really want to be, was #plagued by my own #stupidity & actions & my #addiction to my #routines & #reactions , much of it driven by a need #tobeloved#tobeheld . To be held not just #physically but #spiritually and #mentally . It physically aches as I type it. I’ve created my own reality and I got me to this point so I have no one else to blame without resorting to blaming my #death & my #paralysis & my mental state... even there I slip them in to reduce my own responsibility for this situation. 2nd time this week. It’s addictive. And it’s a well worn #groove that I can go to.
We all have these grooves, these #paths#recurring#reactions habits that take us to patterns of behaviour that fool us into thinking they are normal or even #acceptable (There’s a whole other conversation here about what is normal and acceptable and of course blame) but what I mean is that we #convince ourselves that it’s ok. It’s ok to pull the eye mask over our eyes in the mirror and hide from our own reality and from our own #truth
But here i stand now - waist deep in the cleansing waters. With a chance for change. Aware of myself. I’ve had so long to study this thing called #roo . 46 years. The last few years have heightened this focus. Losing the wonderfully #magic @one_twisted_eye to my own #idiocy and #paranoia
Losing the #awakened and truly awesome @_anyanica_ who’s name I struggle to type without my heart breaking.., losing her to my own fear of losing her. (My god I loved dancing with that girl)
Losses all caused by my own fear, somehow #selffulfilling my own destiny to lose them. Ah man this is hard to write.
Knowing ourselves in such detail today can make yesterday’s actions seem foolish. But right now I can only travel one way through time and space, so as much as I long to fix what I broke, I cannot. I can only create something new.
And therein is my lesson. Look forwards. Be the best you can be. Be grateful. Be #humble They loved you. You’ll be loved again. Love yourself today and build from there. #washitaway
Exactly my feelings lately after having dealt with a dealership my family thought they could trust. I mean seriously!? Who the hell decides to zip tie spark plug wires to a heater core hose when there are perfectly fine spark plug wire fasteners which hold them on the motor itself away from hot or moving parts? And also who decides to break a clip that holds a radiator hose, and is lazy so they decide to not replace it and allow said hose to lay upon the pulley system for the serpentine belt? Which in turn starts to rub/burn a hole into it, almost making a break in it. -sighs- And this my good folks is why I made the choice to try to work on my own vehicles if at all possible. Good mechanics are hard to find these days.
Looked like a war zone at the bird sanctuary today. Alberta banned spear hunting because one American spear hunted a bear with one shot and people who have never hunted before, let's call them "food store raised", started saying it was inhumane and the poor guy was shamed. Really the food store raised people would call inhumane too the way farmed animals are killed. Killing farm animals is way more inhumane. However, today I experienced the most inhumane thing. I felt like I was in a war zone. Shots being fired all day while I sit under a tree with my bow. That shit is mass murder, and is not inhumane? 😂
My deepest respect goes to that American guy. Not only does it take balls to get that close to a bear, it takes so much skill to be able to take it down in just one shot. And at the end of the day, killing is killing, wether you take it down with a tank or with a broom, you still killing. #realtalk#love#creator#peace#killing#hunting#stupidity
Un 19 de Noviembre del año 2000 el entonces dizke presidente ALBERTO FUJIMORI renuncia por FAX!
Para ese entonces la emperatriz KEIKO SOFIA tuvo ke dejar su palacio entre lágrimas. No hay duda ke dichoso día marka un precedente importante en el komienzo de la karrera polítika de KSF y marka una distancia kon su otrora padre AFF.
Ojalá ke esta historia no se repita... A lo mejor ahora vía #twitter ! YARA!
I think about all the people
The ones in hospital beds
The ones who will never wake up again
The ones who lost their sight or feeling
But mainly the ones who don't remember a thing
Who they belong to
Who they are supposed to love
What they have done with there life
All just wiped away, clean slate
Something they never asked for
And for a moment I feel sad for them
But the most consuming emotion is Jealousy
Jealous because while they're laying in a bed
Forgetting something they wish to remember
I'm laying in a bed with a tear stained pillow
Begging to forget
Begging to forget the feeling of your lips
All over my body
Ripping the innocence I should have had
For years longer
Begging for the yelling and screaming
Caused by the liquor conquering your blood
And the drugs intoxicating your mind
To stop ringing in my head
Would simply be the only way
To remember who I am
So why is it fair or just or right
That the people who want to remember
People with happy lives
And happy memories
Who simply have their mind taken from them
For as long as forever is
While there are plenty of people who would kill
Just to forget
Disons que l'on doit cette remarque au fait que certaines personnes naissent plus débiles que les autres. C'est là qu'on apprend à pardonner son prochain.
Non sérieusement, devant une bêtise pareille j'avoue, j'étais pas bien.
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Google doit son argent à la publicité ciblée. Chaque pub que tu vois, petite pute, son le fruit de l'analyse de TES données. C'est là qu'ils ont de l'argent.
YouTube, dont tu n'es qu'un petit rien du tout, ce c'est qu'un petit rien du tout de Google.
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