You guys may want to leave this post now.
Okay guys. I’ve been trying to avoid this but I just can’t today.
Yes I left Instagram because I’m busy. But you can always make some time for things. Specially when you don’t get much sleep like me...
Truth is I’m not okay (what’s new?)
As you probably knew before I left is that I was going back to school into a whole new world, new people and with that, new me.
I tried to be better, to be healthier and to make things right and so far I’ve been surprising myself, I was achieving it.
And with that new me, it came trying to stop saying my problems to almost everyone like I used to here...
And today I’m back
I have another IG account where I write everyday (it’s private and just for me) and that’s has been my way to stay strong but it’s not working for me rn. I miss my old life, people and most importantly, the person I considered the most important thing in my life is almost gone as well. I’ve accepted it but it still hurts and at this point I’m seriously very hurt. I don’t seem able to keep anybody around me, I know it’s on me and I seriously don’t know what’s wrong, I’ve changed hoping that things could be solved but ahh...
That’s the thing that has brought me down so much time.
As much as I believe this pain will never stop now, I can do nothing but to get back the one thing of my past me that still remains, which is this account, Tony, Rdj, all of you.
I’m sorry. There are far bigger problems out there, but I just feel lonely and even worse is that I seem okay with that.
Just wanted to say all that, hopefully I feel a bit better being honest. No matter if nobody reads it as nobody reads my other account. I’m just desperate by now and doing things impulsively so IM SORRY.
"Barnes!" Director Fury's voice crackled through his earpiece. "What have I told you about Rogers? Keep him off the battlefield!" Bucky groaned in frustration, taking out the wannabe terrorist he was fighting. "I'm on it," Bucky replied, turning around and racing down the alley. He was going to tan Steve's hide for ignoring a direct order. He knew he wasn't a field agent and he never would be, no matter how hard he trained or how much he begged Fury to change his mind. Steve had too many maladies to be a field agent. The sound of battle carried on the wind from his left, and Bucky quickened his pace. He slid to a stop, loose gravel flying as he surveyed the scene. "Hey! Get your hands off him!" Bucky shouted as he stalked up to the masked man that had Steve pinned to the wall. He threw the guy against the opposite wall, where he collapsed in an unconscious heap. Steve coughed, wiping blood from his split lip. "Fury told on me again, didn't he?" Steve wondered as Bucky wordlessly scooped him up in his arms. "You're damn lucky he did. What were you thinking, Steve? You're not cut out to be in the field." Bucky scolded as he raced back towards Avengers Tower. "I had that guy on the ropes," Steve scoffed. Bucky couldn't help but laugh. "Sure you did. And I'm sure being held by your shirt collar a foot off the ground was all part of your strategy." Bucky sighed, slowing to a stop a few blocks from the Tower. He set Steve gently on his feet, bending down to look him in the eye. "I just ... I just want to be a hero like you," Steve murmured softly. "Don't say that Stevie, you are a hero. You're one of the smartest people I've ever met and you use that big brain of yours to help every single person who works for SHIELD. If it hadn't been for you, we never would have found out where Tony's Iron Man suit had crashed landed. We never would've been able to hack in HYDRA's security cameras to find where they were keeping Nat. You are a hero Steve. You're my hero." #marvel#theavengers#steverogers#buckybarnes#thewintersoldier#stucky#stuckyfanart#stuckyfeels#otp#au#allaboardthefeelstrain