"I feel nothing and I don’t care. I don’t even want to care. I want to want to care. If that makes any sense. But caring hurts so much. Not caring is numb, it hurts but it’s a different kind of pain. Like when you’re starving, truly starving, and your stomach is eating itself. That’s how I feel. I feel emaciated, and there’s food in front of me. And I don’t wanna eat it. My mind is eating itself."