I often contemplate the presence of evil, hate, injustice, negativity, sexism, racism in this country, in this world and wonder, WHY??
Why was I born, black, a woman, in the USA? And, what does that mean for people, girls and woman in the USA, like #CyntoiaBrown#DonnaHylton#TraceLysette and the millions of others victimized, terrorized for being black, woman, feminine, trans...
These thoughts brought me back to my early teens, at 12-13 y/o where grown men, would cat call, smile, wink at me and I was utterly disgusted. My young, voluptuous, feminine body developed way before my mind and I despised the too often sexualized advances I received because of it. So, I resorted to hiding behind a book, music and baggy clothes #ThankGodforHipHop (because it was fashionable to dress this way) and though this did not stop the advances, my projected "tough exterior" seemed to cause a distraction to what had often been an immediate sexualized response in awe of my physical body.
My mother named me before I was born. I was destined for this hue and to share this experience. Though I could never comprehend what these women have experienced, I know they are not alone. Therefore, my 🖤 beats for goodness, compassion, empathy, understanding, justice, positivity, and LOVE in this country and in this world for the hue-man race of people.
Sending Light☄+ Love 🖤
to ALL girls, woman, trans who have courageously said, NO MORE to being sexualized, victimized and terrorized . It is Time to HEAL all wounds. And to the millions of girls, woman, trans who are continuing to experience this evil on the planet, I feel you and am praying for your healing.🙏🏿🖤🌹😙
May thy hands be cleansed, so
that they create beautiful things.
May thy feet be cleansed, that they might take thy where thy must need to be.
May thy heart be cleansed, so that thy might hear it's messages clearly.
May thy throat be cleansed, so that thy might speak rightly when words are needed.
May thy eyes be cleansed, so that thy might see the signs and wonders of this world.
May this person and space be washed clean
by the smoke of these fragrant plants.
And may that same smoke carry thy prayers,
spiralling to the heavens. 🙏 @ruckus_radio
@ruckus_radio offering El Honcho to the Gods. Don't take it personal @lanskyscorner sometimes you just have to give a smile 😃, throw a match 🔥, and burn that fucking bridge. #HuHGang#WholeLottaGangShit#TimeToHeal pt.1
Homies, I have injured myself pretty badly. My body finally gave out today and I ended up on Doctor’s table in tears. This is the result of pushing my body too hard and neglecting to prioritize love and much needed rest. In my present pain and frustration, I am reminded how important boundaries are. As we move through this Scorpio new moon I call in physical healing, omens to help me know what in my life needs prioritization, and last but not least stronger boundaries to fortify my self love. #selfcare#selflove#boundaries#ihealmyselftohealtheworld#timetoheal#lbyefelicia#sorrynotsorry
Hey all!! It’s been forever but I’m back from a week in Mexico ☀️ with the hubby feeling refreshed and ready to reset. After meeting with an ND recently, it was determined that to get myself feeling 100% I have some food changes to make. I will be on a fairly strict meal plan for the next 3 months to start repairing my digestive system and then hopefully after that I can start reintroducing some (at least my favourites😉). My main focus with the change is to remember WHY I am doing it and to stay positive. I want to think of all the things I CAN eat and not focus on what I can’t. I hope to spend dedicated time to reflect on how the changes are impacting me physically and mentally and to remember to always practice gratitude. Right now I’m grateful for what Tone It Up has taught me and for leading me back to school for holistic nutrition - both things which I think will really help me get through this journey. I’m also grateful to all you ladies who support and encourage and will most likely be turning to you from time to time with tips and maybe even to vent a little 😏. Anyways, even when I’ve been out of the TIU world a bit, it’s nice to know you’re all still out there 💕 #tiuteam#tiugirls#tiucommunity#tiuyyc#tiucanada#changescoming#fitlife#timetoheal#nutrition#holisticnutrition#holisticnutritionstudent#herewego
Thank you Zach at Level Sleep! Level sleep is doing amazing things for their community. We love our new mattress and have been sleeping really well at night! Super comfy and supportive which is exactly what’s needed!!! I’d recommend the product and the company (seriously amazing people!) to anyone looking for a new mattress! #winecountrystrong#wewillrise#sweetdreams#timetoheal#loveintheairisthickerthansmoke @levelsleep
November 19, 2017 😙
1 Non-flour Pancake (1 Scoop Protein Powder 90 Cal + 1 Egg 72 Cal + 1 Egg White 17 Cal + Half cup strawberries 24 Cal + Half banana 52 Cal + 1/8 cup/2 Tbsp Maple Grove Farms Sugar Free Maple Flavor Syrup 15 Cal)
TOTAL MEAL = 270 Cal 😙
Smartfood White Cheddar Popcorn, 100% Whole Grain & Gluten Free; 1 serving is 1 3/4 cups = 160 Cal 😙
Half cup red grapes= 55. Half cup strawberries = 24. 1 cup raw spinach = 7. 4 oz. Imitation Crab Salad= 280.
TOTAL MEAL = 366 Cal 😙
4 oz. of baked/roasted skinless boneless chicken breast = 184 Cal. 1 cup steamed carrots calories = 82 Cal. 1 cup steamed broccoli = 31 Cal. Dodoni Feta Cheese in brine 1 oz. = 70.
Baking directions: preheat oven to 350°. Filet (slice chicken horizontally to thin out pieces). Poke fork (tenderize) chicken on cuttingboard; season on one side with salt, black pepper, white pepper, garlic and onion powder. Lay on dry (no oil) cooking sheet. Flip once you see the sides are getting cooked. Use thermometer horizontally through thickest piece; cooked til done 165°. 🌸
Toss feta with dill. 🌸
TOTAL MEAL: 367 Cal 😙 Note: Delicious dinner cooked by my one and only daddy @thomas.erwin I love you so much 💘👑💘
GNC Protein Shake = 170 Cal 😙
DAILY INTAKE TOTAL: 1,333 CALORIES BIATCH! 🌈🌈🌈
#rebuildingtaraelliott#reclaimingmypersonalpower#holdingmyselfaccountable#naturalweightloss#selflove#countingcalories#mathiseverywhere#eatinghealthy#sober#listeningtomyhigherself#healing#timetoheal#bombshellpowersactivated 💫 #discipline#howbaddoyouwantit
#medalmonday is #sweetazbro 😉🤣 Race recap alert 🏃♀️👇
Saturday I ran (mostly) @airnzqueenstownmarathon. This year I have been through a lot of injuries...stress fracture, labral tear, ITBFS and most recently have been diagnosed with Osteoarthritis in my right knee and hip 🤕 I felt ready for QT despite those injuries, but unfortunately my knee and ITB issues settled in by the 15k mark. I was determined to finish and tied an arm warmer around my knee to relieve some of the pain and shuffled on #bushmedicine . By the 25k mark I was reduced to walking 500m and running 200-300m....on and on and on for the next 17k.
I came across the line in 4.40.10.
So, 3 months rest.
Accidents happen and I had one.
This past Thursday morning as I was leaving for work I slipped down my front steps and fractured my hip. Surgery that evening and 3 pins later I am home! How am I? Well I’m tired! I had my ‘pity party’ upon finding out about the fracture but now my mind is set on recovery and long term goals.
Needless to say I will not be competing in March 2018 BUT once healed I will be back making gains to conquer 2019!! This is just a small detour but I’ll be back. Bigger and stronger!! A very HUGE heartfelt thank you to my family, friends and trainers for being so supportive at this time! All it takes is a few ‘warm’ words to set ones mind at ease! Thank you ❤️❤️❤️
@crowbarfitness @freakmaker1 @ifbbpronicki @lifterella @nadinesoloway
There's a banging on the front door and I’m startled not expecting anyone today and definitely not expecting a bang so loud on my door.
I walk down the dark hallway and open the door with big wide smile on my face, feeling kind of scattered from the night of taking drugs I had the night before and kind of peaceful as I come down to rest for the day.
Opening the door and looking up with a big smile ready to face the heavy door knocker I now become instantly in shock and fear of my life!
Looking down the barrel of a shot gun pointed straight at my face with a big, sweaty, angry looking man, I gasped in some air to keep myself still....... 🆘 “Where is Stan? Where is he?!!!!” the gun holder was screaming at me, swaying side to side with his pupils large obviously off his face and to my guess he is on speed. He is dripping in sweat, has the shakes, is jittery and talking really fast and hard.
My heart is jumping out of me, I want to scream , I want to run, I feel my legs trembling and my whole body has frozen on me. I CAN’T move, even if I want to.
I breath in deeply, “I don’t know where he is , he is out for the day, and I don’t know what time he will be back?” The sun is shining and it is a beautiful day outside. I have flashes of my life ending right now come into my mind and I look for flowers and trees to look at so they can be the last thing I see before I go. 🌲🌻🌼 “I need money and NOW!!!” he says to me, taking a step forward so the gun is actually touching my forehead..... I feel a tear falling from my eye as I look straight at him and quietly reply, “I have no money. You can come in and take what ever you like, but I really don’t have any money. Please don’t shoot me, I can try to find out where Stan is. Please.........please....”. I feel myself catching myself thinking he will want sex from me, I don’t know why, but I feel this and will give it if it means I live. It’s all I can give him right now if he must take something, really my furniture and belongings are not worth much.
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