#transformationtuesday Let me tell you a story.
Six years ago my main goal was to party. Life was about getting drunk, going to work at a job I hated, and having the coolest shit so people would like me.
Little did I know that none of those things made me happy. It didn’t make people like me, and when I would drink, a person came out I didn’t recognize. A very miserable person. I hated my body, and who I was, I was conflicted, lost and didn’t have a lot of close friends who liked me for me. How could I have people like me when I didn’t even like who I was?
I remember this night, making the shirt I was wearing the night before, thinking it was so cute and such a good idea, then putting it on the next day, crying because of the way it looked and because the jeans I was wearing were the biggest size I’ve ever owned and they barely went on. Taking out the anger I had about my body on my friend yelling at her because I was so insecure. Thankful for Her because she made me buck up and I ended up having a good time.
The journey between then and now has been quite the roller coaster. Finding who you are, finding your true passions in life is the most rewarding and difficult process. There had been many highs and many lows, times of trial and error, different interests, fear, doubts, depression, anxiety, different people in and out of my life, and most of all many different lessons that have made me lthe person I am today.
I am not saying that drinking is bad. It’s bad when you become dependent on it. How I was living was not how I wanted to live, it was not a lifestyle for me. It has been a long journey to figure out a lifestyle that works for me. This isn’t just a physical change, it’s 90%. Mental change. Through my journey I have found my passion in life, day by day I build myself up, every day, everything I go through I truly grow through. Be the change you want to see in yourself, be the change you want in this world.
I thank every single person through this period of my life good or bad because you have helped me grow. And thank you to the ones who have been there there through it all by my side and have never left, you’re the reason I’m where I’m at today.
This was a fun little superset tonight. I definitely have to modify certain workouts depending on which gym I go to and the equipment that’s available.
1- cable curls (rather than using a machine to do lying curls)
2- single leg stiff leg deads... I totally just made that up because I don’t really know what they are called. I’ve only seen them being done once before, tried it and loved it! For me when I get tired I tend to want to start using a lot of my lower back... by setting that second foot right behind the leg that I am actually using allows me to get a better mind to muscle connection and squeeze the hell out of that hammy!
Went a little bit lighter than normal today because Monday’s quad day is still kicking my ass. .
I’m excited to start seeing some progress with this shred and seeing those muscles pop through!
➡A year ago we were strangers,
A month ago we became social media acquaintances,
A week ago we completed the most challenging, rewarding & excruitiating journey of a lifetime as FOREVER FRIENDS.💙💙💙💙☘☘☘☘☘☘☘☘☘☘☘☘☘☘☘☘☘☘☘☘☘☘☘☘☘
💯I miss you all dearly! 💔😢 How the heck has it been only a week? 😭😲 Time flies & stands still all at once, it's REDIC! Sending you "Mama Bear" hugs😜😂 and luv every day! 🙋😁💓👍💪👊💋🙏🏻 Muuuaaahhh! :)))
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I'm pretty boring when it comes to meal prep. I enjoy eating bland, simple things because they are easy to track, and easy to digest. I have set macros although lately I have been eating intuitively, and typically throw some intermittent fasting in on the weekends (unless someone makes me a bomb.com pancake brekkie 🥞)
Here are a few of my staples. I literally eat the first 2 meals everyday of the week .. .
Meal 1: Protein shake: MyProtein Mocha Whey Isolate, unsweetened almond milk, chia seeds, PB2, oats .. with a side of coffee ☕️ and Organic Half n' Half 🐄
Meal 2: Whole egg, egg whites, spinach, Kashi Blueberry waffles with sugarfree jelly. Usually I eat red potatoes but switchin it up this week 💪🏼 .
Meal 3: 99% lean ground turkey (meatballs), zoodles, marinara and blueberries
Pre-Workout (not pictured): Egg whites, oats, berries, unsweetened almond milk, stevia, cinnamon .
During Workout: Allmax Aminocore
Post Workout: Carnivore Protein, Unsweetened Almond Milk .
Meal 5: Whatever I need to hit my protein macro haha #singlelife .
I have been in a serious funk the last week or so. I can get so caught up in life that I forget why I am doing the things I do. I get stuck in this routine of work, gym, eat, sleep and it becomes a chore rather something I enjoy. I eventually feel like I "have" to do certain things. I "have" to go to the gym because I can't miss a lift. I "have" to meal prep because I have track my macros, I "have" to stay in because I don't want to be tired for work the next day. Let me just snap out of that mood real quick! I get to go to the gym and I get to meal prep. I started lifting and tracking my food intake regularly 4 years and I do it because I love it! I love seeing the changes my body goes through and the way it makes me feel. I love having my meals prepared throughout the week so I never have an excuse to miss meals. It's ok to stay up late if it means quality time with my friends that I might not see all that often. All these are ok because it creates balance. This weekend the only thing I "had" is do was get my mind right. I stayed up till the sun came up, slept in, prepped meals, bought fresh flowers for my house, did laundry but most importantly I spent my Sunday Funday with the people I love. AND to top it all off I had a killer leg workout with my girls.
So here's to us. The ones that don't always get it right but we try hard as hell to make it right! This week I'm focusing on my mental health more than anything because when my mind is right, everything is right. I'm off to the gym because it's shoulder day and who doesn't love lifting shoulders?! -Tawny
Heading back to 🇨🇦 and missing the Crew so much already! 💔😭 This was a crazy roller coaster ride indeed! A real journey that is indescribable to anyone else besides our team. Every single person involved in "Operation Rise" has touched my life in a different, unique, beautiful way! 💓🙋😁... 📣Everyone will get to see this in a few months but what you will NEVER see is the hard work, dedication, time & energy put in BEHIND the scenes of THIS man Matt & his co-worker Bill. We grew close quickly during filming and I NEVER open up to people this easily. Thanks for calming me down often Matt 😂🙈😂 and thanks for being your special self! 👍😁💙
Also sincere thanks to our sponsors yet again! > @6packbags @officialgasp @officialbetterbodies @kagedmusclesupps
.... Thank You Orangeville, ON 🇨🇦 and my amazing friends & relatives for all your support! And thanks to Jasen from #orangevillecitizen for a great article!!! Howevs, I must correct one thing...My friend "Doug" is actually DAN! Please swipe ➡ to see his profile and go add him on fb to find out more on all his incredible work and blessings! 👍🙏🏻👊🙌 #operationrise#2017#detroit#fitness journey #topgunfitness#topgunff @6packbags @officialbetterbodies @officialgasp @kagedmusclesupps