I’ve felt so overwhelmed the past few months with how much I’m continuing to learn… I still feel like I’m learning at light speed! And with all of these crazy learning processes going on inside of me.. PLUS all of the outer changes in my physical world.. I haven’t found the energy necessary to organize & condense things inside my mind in a way that I can write out! There are so many major shifts happening inside of me DAILY that I just can’t keep up! I can’t keep track of them all! The year prior to these past 3 months I was learning so quickly.. but I’d just learn 1-3 things in the same time frame & then have a few days to soak it all in before coming to the next few realizations… These past 3 months though it seems I’ve been learning EVERY thing all at once.. As soon as I’ve learned one thing, the next one is already coming into light.. And as I’m letting the previous lesson sink in, there are already more & more & more large pieces of information & realizations coming into focus.. I am literally processing so many big things on the go now, there is no time to summarize them at ALL! Holysmokes. But alas, I am excited to be connected here once again & seeing all of your wonderful posts, both of struggle & of success… because we can’t have one without the other. That’s the beauty of life, no matter how dark it may seem sometimes… There is a balance to everything. The yin & the yang. And the reward… the reward when things finally come together, is always.. Always, worth the journey. Xxoxoxx. ~ ❤😙
Day 384: I’ve got some mad decorating skills, yo!
It's more than just push-ups... it's about this message reaching someone struggling with suicide or mental health in need of support and resources!
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-TALK (8255). This is a free resource that is available 24/7/365. Or text HELLO to 741-741 for the Crisis Text Line.
The 22 Push-up Challenge originated as a way to spread awareness that 22 combat veterans (on average) take their own lives each day.
A recent statistic has shown that the number has decreased slightly to 20 a day, but that is still too many!
If you or someone you know is struggling with thoughts of suicide, reach out and ask for help. It could save a life!
What would you do to follow your dream?
Would you stubbornly follow the original plan you had and crash and burn rather than readjust because of pride?
Would you just give up because it’s hard?
Would you listen to everyone who didn’t believe in you anyways?
One thing I’ve learned over the last 3 years is that to reach a goal, the original final path you set off on is NEVER the ACTUAL route to where you’re going -
You have to switch lanes and switch highways and sometimes even take the toll road -
But do you look at that as a setback?
I don’t believe in setbacks.
I believe in lessons necessary for growth -
I am honestly so grateful that I have learned to be loving with myself, to be flexible and open to new things and to trust myself enough to go for -
Funny enough this courage to shave my head, open up about my trich, lose weight, find a new career path, all started with ONE step. The decision to step into my fear and finally commit to tracking my food and going to the gym.
That’s it -
Then win after win
One step toward progress at a time
My courage didn’t come out if nowhere
It came from tiny steps toward daily growth -
What small step can you make today? -
"This reminded me why I'm even in this business. It works. It helps people. It helps restore their confidence. It gives them hope! Yes! This is REAL LIFE! Here is my husband's updated results from just last evening
16 weeks. 1 1/2 weeks shy of 4 months. We still have new hairs coming also. We've only just begun. Frontal bone area has filled in. Unbelievable. He only uses Black at this point. His first 30 days was S3 and used IRT shampoo maybe twice before he went black. I'll also note he finally just replaced his black last week after using it since July on both he and I even snuck in it for my blonde!" Link in bio to purchase.
I have never been more nervous about posting something so personal to me. I have mentioned this topic a few times on my ig stories but never actually dedicated a separate post to it. So here I am, doing so, in hopes of raising awareness of trichotillomania. The demon I've been battling since I was 10. My biggest insecurity that gives me hope for a short period of time and then comes back with double force, leaving me broken in pieces. Some of you might hear about this term for the first time. 'Tricho-what?' 'Eww where are your eyebrows/lashes, why would you do this to yourself? That's not attractive'. I suffer from a condition that makes me pull my hair. Sometimes unconsciously, oftentimes not. Why? Good question. Sadly, the answer isn't that simple. If it was, perhaps I would have already found a solution and recovered a long time ago.
There are some factors (like stress one experiences at school/uni/work, boredom, anxiety) that might trigger the urge to pull hair from one's scalp/lashes/eyebrows etc., but don't have to. Countless times I have realized what I've done right after I pulled only to ask myself 'why? Nothing in particular is happening right now, why did I do this?' and end up having a massive mental breakdown leading to more pulling. And then there are the consequences. The consequences of a mistake that lasts seconds - weeks (if not months) of patience to see progress in your hair growing back. It's exhausting. I cannot stress how hard it is. Getting up at 5:30 to do my makeup so that I feel somewhat confident during the day. Being strong for the whole week only to relapse on a sunday night. Sometimes I think to myself 'hey, I got used to it, I know how to cope', but then realize I'm still learning to accept it. There are days on which I feel so incredibly insecure that I refuse to leave the house. In 2018, I want to make a change. I want to fully accept myself just the way I am. To all of you dealing with hair loss, it doesn't define us. With hair or without, we're beautiful and so unbelievably strong. To all my trichsters out there, I love you. You're not alone in this 💕
Locking my hair has helped the trich tremendously. I’m pulling at least 1/3 as much as I used to but I still catch myself pulling the coarse black hairs that escape from the dreads or live in my bangs, which are currently too short to dread. My trich is mainly ocd based, in my mind I’ll think “I just have to pull this one last black hair and then I’ll be done” (most of my hair is natural blonde) but of course I know I will never be able to get rid of all the black hairs, nor do I need to. But something in my brain won’t let me stop. I think it’s getting better though, little by little.
I’m sharing this because it saddens me to know that there are so many people out there struggling with this the same way I have. Trichotillomania is much more common than many of us realize. Since I’ve become open about this disorder I’ve met a couple of people that have trichotillomania but didn’t even know it was a thing. I’ve lived in the shadows with trich and that’s part of what makes the individual with it feel so ashamed. So I’m here to tell you you’re not alone and you can get better🖤#trichotillomania
I was just absentmindedly twisting my hair and I made this stupid, big, dready, knot on my crown. Shall I keep twiddling, trying to undo it but ultimately making it worse? Or shall I cut it out and have a little bald patch? #trichotillomania#trich#bfrb
We’re almost to 100 followers! Thank you all so much for all your support! 💓
This page has helped me become more comfortable in my skin, weather it’s scarred or not. I’ve also begun speaking to others about my struggles with dermo, trich, and OCD. The strangest part of this is that I’m a mental health advocate for many reasons, which all started with a PTSD diagnosis when I was 15. Slowly I’ve began to talk about my mental illnesses and share my experiences. I’ve talked about many of my experiences openly, but the few things I hadn’t we’re related to OCD. Up until recently, I was in denial about having OCD. My therapist brought it up a few times and I claimed to never have compulsive behavior. I’ve started to open up to myself and really start to understand that this illness can be treated, maybe even cured someday. I stopped suffering in silence and it has helped me so much in understanding and becoming my true self. Thank you all for your support and I hope we can keep working to help you all be more comfortable in your skin, scarred or not. ❤️
So this is the before vs after for my lovely competition winner Louise 😃😃 Louise doesn't mind me sharing that she suffers with Trichotillomania (pulling hairs out) so this is a massive confidence boost for her!
I'm so pleased that this is really going to benefit her 😊😊 Based in Derby, Nottingham and Tutbury
No one will ever understand the battles we fight within ourselves. They are quick to judge and have opinions. They criticise our goals. They scatter when we open up about the issues we don't post on our perfect-life Instagrams. We need to stop feeding off likes and be more authentic. Be true to that person staring back in the mirror. Respect yourself, and respect others. We are individuals, we are different, we are destined for great things.
Life can be pretty overwhelming some days. It is important to take a step back and re-evaluate your situation. Focus on the good and count your blessings. Learn to deal with the bad. Don't rely on anyone for you happiness. After all, 'I' am in the center of my own happ(I)ness.
It's perfectly okay to feel a bit 'blegh' sometimes. You are not alone. Social media allows us to connect with similar individuals anywhere on the planet and we need to support each other through the ups and downs.
Onto this day... I achieved my 6 month goal in 3 weeks. Finishing my #keto#bulletproofcoffee before I start studying. And I have a mountain of dishes waiting for me. On a positive note, I have so many exciting ideas though 😁
- @casparlee 's video 'I need to be honest with you' on YouTube.
🌟FIND 3 HOBBIES YOU LOVE🌟
1️⃣ One to make you money
2️⃣ One to keep you in shape
3️⃣ And one to be creative -
Have you heard this?
I love it!
But let’s be serious WHO has time for all these hobbies?? Also how the heck do you make friends as an adult if you’re doing all this mess let alone take care of you and your family??
I don’t know about you but when I was working 40+ hours and commuting 15 hours a week ALL I wanted to do was come home, sit on the couch, and watch some Real Housewives -
BUT I found ONE hobby that BOTH fulfilled me in ways my job didn’t, made me money, kept me in shape, let me be creative AND helped me connect with others like me
Now BEFORE you stop reading this post - it IS NOT what you think -
This hobby became my passion so I was EXCITED to get my energy from it when I got home
And it actually made it HARD for me to do a good job at my job because I fell in love with my hobby 😂🤷🏻♀️
I’m gonna be honest I have literally skated into every job because it was easy and i liked it and checked out when I didn’t have passion anymore -
I knew I needed to find a DIFFERENT career because i don’t believe in hating ANYTHING in your life - and through this hobby I’ve found my career which isn’t what I thought it would be AT ALL
I still have my “day” or early morning job teaching from 5-8:30am with VIPKID and ❤️ it and I’m still fitness coaching
But my fitness coaching is about to STEP IT UP -
I cannot WAIT to workout the details this weekend in California but we have BIG THINGS coming! And i cannot wait to share them with you -
And it’s all because i found ONE hobby that offered me the three things above I needed that I wasn’t getting from my full time job 💕 a hobby that was able to support our family after I was laid off from a job o had no passion for. -
I guess what I’m saying is trust your gut
Find your PASSION what are you even doing if you skate through life without it
Trust that life will lead you in the right direction even when you don’t know -
Is this SAME path available to you HELL YES! Is it right for you? Probably not because it takes hard work and being uncomfortable (cont in comments👇🏻👇🏻)
If you have spent any time with me, you probably know that I pull my hair. A lot.
Up until I was about 14, I (perhaps vainly) assumed this was just a weird quirk I had. Then I realised a lot of other people did this too. That this was actually a form of self-harm (something I thought I'd "beaten"... if that's even possible).
Now I know a lot more about this condition:
It's known as Trichotillomania (Trich or TTM for short). It's an Impulse Control Disorder and a Body-Focused Repetitive Behaviour (BFRB). Over 3.4% of adults in the world experience this condition.
I have struggled with Trichotillomania for over 10 years, ever since I was 11 years old.
I am still struggling now.
But I haven't given up. It's not easy and I find it so difficult to be kind to myself, but I'm working on it. That has to count for something.
Ya gal is TWO MONTHS PULL FREE 🙏🙏❤️ I also dyed my hair blonde & im really feelin it. Going back to college td & im looking forward to another great semester!! Happy days my people!!! #trichotillomania#pullfree#twomonths
Not many people know this about me but I have struggled with a disorder called Trichotillomania.
The definition of Trichotillomania is: “A disorder that involves recurrent, irresistible urges to pull out body hair.” There is not an official cause to Trichotillomania but it is often triggered by increased stress and anxiety, or it can be caused by a hormone imbalance or a chemical imbalance in the brain.
Since I was very little I had a problem with pulling out my head hair and eyelashes. And I used to be so embarrassed but I couldn’t stop. I didn’t know what it was either so I couldn’t treat it myself. When we moved to Texas, and as I got older, it got MUCH worse. I was more stressed. I was going through puberty so my hormones were changing rapidly.
I used to have gaps in my eyelashes that I could fit my pinky in between. When I was 16 I found out I also had a hormone imbalance but there wasn’t really any medication that could treat it.
I would get stressed at work or with school and just lay in bed and keep pulling and pulling. I finally did my research to see what I could do to stop. Recommended treatments were counseling or medication. I didn’t have money for that. I couldn’t do that. So I decided to see what else I personally could do.
Since it was caused by stress I started to MAKE time to relax. Do something that calmed me. And it helped SO MUCH. But my eyelash follicles were a little damaged from constant pulling. So I looked into natural remedies to help with my hair growth. This past year and a half I have reduced my stress and started taking Biotin. I stopped using harsh makeup removers and use almond or coconut oil instead. For a long time there was one spot on my left eye that I thought would never grow eyelashes back. Then yesterday as I was doing my makeup I realized that it all had worked. My eyelashes were back! And I haven’t had the urge to pull in a very long time. I’m thankful that God answered my prayers and helped me with this. And that I found natural ways to help my hair grow back. .