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Morning! My Sunday breakfast of greatness was soya porridge and then pbj crumpets. I haven't had porridge in so long! It had become a fear so obviously that had to be challenged. Hope you're all doing well this morning, I'm still half asleep if I'm honestπŸ˜… I haven't got much planned today except for maybe going out with my Mum this afternoon. I'll probably spend this morning doing some tidying (I know, I mess things up so quickly)πŸ˜‚ and then a spot of self care as self care is always welcome! Hope you have a fab day🌻

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Morning! My Sunday breakfast of greatness was soya porridge and then pbj crumpets. I haven't had porridge in so long! It had become a fear so obviously that had to be challenged. Hope you're all doing well this morning, I'm still half asleep if I'm honestπŸ˜… I haven't got much planned today except for maybe going out with my Mum this afternoon. I'll probably spend this morning doing some tidying (I know, I mess things up so quickly)πŸ˜‚ and then a spot of self care as self care is always welcome! Hope you have a fab day🌻 #recoveryisworthit  #recoveryispossible  #recovery  #edfighter  #edwarrior  #edfam  #edcommunity  #edrecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexianervosa  #fuckana  #2fab4ana  #anawho  #bethebiggerbully  #balancednotclean  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatittobeatit  #nourishnotpunish  #anafighter  #anawarrior  #veganrecovery  #veganfoodshare  #whatveganseat  #realrecovery  #prorecovery  #anasoldier  #edsoldier  #mentalhealthawareness  #mentalhealth  #recoverywin 
Wholesome Oats✨

Ingredients: 
1 cup oats 
1 cup water 
1 cup soya milk 
1 teaspoon of Cocoa powder 
1 teaspoon of Maca powder 
2 tablespoons of maple syrup
(Heat on the hob for about 15 minutes)⏱ Top with:
Banana 
Almonds 
Chia seeds
Peanut butter 
Maple syrup. 
EnjoyπŸ˜‹
Wholesome Oats✨ Ingredients: 1 cup oats 1 cup water 1 cup soya milk 1 teaspoon of Cocoa powder 1 teaspoon of Maca powder 2 tablespoons of maple syrup (Heat on the hob for about 15 minutes)⏱ Top with: Banana Almonds Chia seeds Peanut butter Maple syrup. EnjoyπŸ˜‹
Vegan pizza 🌱 artichoke, olive and green beans with melty vegan mozzarella! @pizzaexpress thank you for having options for us vegansssss πŸ‘πŸ‘ #vegan #pizza #veganpizza #vegancheese #cheese #vegetarianlife #vegetarian #veganfood #veganfoodshare #whatveganseat #veganeats #vegansofinstagram #vegangirl #vegansofig #veganlife #veganism #govegan #eatvegan #choosevegan #veganjunkfood #plantbased #vegandiet #veganlife #veganlifestyle #veganblogger #vegetarianfood #foodblogger #vegancooking #veganuk #veganrecovery
Vegan pizza 🌱 artichoke, olive and green beans with melty vegan mozzarella! @pizzaexpress thank you for having options for us vegansssss πŸ‘πŸ‘ #vegan  #pizza  #veganpizza  #vegancheese  #cheese  #vegetarianlife  #vegetarian  #veganfood  #veganfoodshare  #whatveganseat  #veganeats  #vegansofinstagram  #vegangirl  #vegansofig  #veganlife  #veganism  #govegan  #eatvegan  #choosevegan  #veganjunkfood  #plantbased  #vegandiet  #veganlife  #veganlifestyle  #veganblogger  #vegetarianfood  #foodblogger  #vegancooking  #veganuk  #veganrecovery 
The award for ugliest breakfast Goes toooooooo........ Moi! πŸ˜‚πŸ˜­. It was delicious though! Increases breakfast was chocolate nicecream made from 3 bananas, Topped Sith strawberries , soyyoghurt and muesli! 
Have a great day everybody!

#vegansofig #veganrecipes #veggies #plantbeased #veggie #vega #vegetarian #vegan #veganfood #veganism #vegansofinstagram #plantbaseddiet #plantbasedfood #vegans #carbthefuckup #hclf #hclfvegan #hclfveganfoodshare #801010 #whatveganseat #gethealthy #foodporn  #dutchvegan #veganfoodie #veganfoodporn #govegan #veganrecovery #gofruityourself #edrecovery #anorexiarecovery
The award for ugliest breakfast Goes toooooooo........ Moi! πŸ˜‚πŸ˜­. It was delicious though! Increases breakfast was chocolate nicecream made from 3 bananas, Topped Sith strawberries , soyyoghurt and muesli! Have a great day everybody! #vegansofig  #veganrecipes  #veggies  #plantbeased  #veggie  #vega  #vegetarian  #vegan  #veganfood  #veganism  #vegansofinstagram  #plantbaseddiet  #plantbasedfood  #vegans  #carbthefuckup  #hclf  #hclfvegan  #hclfveganfoodshare  #801010  #whatveganseat  #gethealthy  #foodporn  #dutchvegan  #veganfoodie  #veganfoodporn  #govegan  #veganrecovery  #gofruityourself  #edrecovery  #anorexiarecovery 
Nightsnack is an amazing combo of @ciaobellagelato coconut sorbetto and blackberry Cabernet sorbetto topped a a few strawberries & ofc along w my fave, a vanilla @katefarms shake! Trying to remind myself that food doesn't have to be purely functional, I deserve to enjoy it (& same goes for everyone!!!). but that aside, I hope you guys all have a good night πŸ’œ#recovering #veganrecovery #vegangirl #veganlifestyle #anorexiarecovery  #edsoldier #realrecovery #foodisfuel #anasoldier #veganfitness #vegan #healthy #veganfoodshare #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatclean #plantbased #snack #vegancommunity  #veganfood #veganlife #hclf #raw #dinner #health #veganismismagic #yum #yummy #fresh #juice #whatveganseat
Nightsnack is an amazing combo of @ciaobellagelato coconut sorbetto and blackberry Cabernet sorbetto topped a a few strawberries & ofc along w my fave, a vanilla @katefarms shake! Trying to remind myself that food doesn't have to be purely functional, I deserve to enjoy it (& same goes for everyone!!!). but that aside, I hope you guys all have a good night πŸ’œ#recovering  #veganrecovery  #vegangirl  #veganlifestyle  #anorexiarecovery  #edsoldier  #realrecovery  #foodisfuel  #anasoldier  #veganfitness  #vegan  #healthy  #veganfoodshare  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatclean  #plantbased  #snack  #vegancommunity  #veganfood  #veganlife  #hclf  #raw  #dinner  #health  #veganismismagic  #yum  #yummy  #fresh  #juice  #whatveganseat 
Kambucha squash, lentil, coconut, curry soup. Tastes like fall πŸ‚ 
#vegan #veganrecovery #veganfood #vegansofig #veganeats #vegan foodshare #vegansofinstagram #vegandinner #vegangains #plantstrong #fall #autumn #souplife #cozylife
Pancakes and Netflix for my lazy Sunday afternoon πŸ‘πŸΌβœ¨ || #pancakes #veganrecipes #vegansofinstagram #veganfood #veganbreakfast #veganfitness #vegansofig #veganism #health #healthy #recovery #veganrecovery
TW. RANT // i have this spot on the back of my head that just grows blonde hair β €
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i've been feeling like shit lately my emotions are all over the place i've been crying myself to sleep for idek why anymore and tbh i cry over anything and everything now and i'm literally freaking out over everyfuckingthing. i am rlly bloated rn i had a sucky day w food and i probs will tmrw too i feel honestly really fat i feel like a walking blob i hate seeing how bloated my face is it honestly depresses me so much half of me wants to hide in my bed for 20million years and the other wants to take every pill in existence. can i just like temporary delete my life for a sec bc i'm honestly so tired of being a bum who does nothing but eat and cry about it like i had so much going for me and i fucking took it away from myself bc that's what i damn do best. i'm not getting near theraputic dose w the lamictal for another month and i'm not looking forward for the month in psychotown bc that's what i've got coming with my rambling head on a tiny itty bitty 25mg which has the literal same affect that blinking has (if u didn't get the comparison it means it has no affect at all.) i'm killing my parents' wallets w all the money i spend on food and tharepy and hospitalizations and medicine and driving and tbh fucking existing why the fuck can't i just be a normal teenager that literally has only how her mom won't let her out on a school night to complain about
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i might not post tomorrow and just take a rest till monday:/ i'm just rlly fed up and need to get away from myself a little
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#bulimia #bulimiarecovery #recovery #vegan #veganrecovery #bingeeating  #bingepurge #sad  #depressed #borderlinepersonalitydisorder  #bpd  #anorexia #anorexiarecovery  #nourishnotpunish  #positivethinking #bodypositive  #selflove  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery #panic #mania #manic #moodswings #impulsive #emotionalrollercoaster #unstable #plantbased #veganfood #crueltyfree
TW. RANT // i have this spot on the back of my head that just grows blonde hair β € β € i've been feeling like shit lately my emotions are all over the place i've been crying myself to sleep for idek why anymore and tbh i cry over anything and everything now and i'm literally freaking out over everyfuckingthing. i am rlly bloated rn i had a sucky day w food and i probs will tmrw too i feel honestly really fat i feel like a walking blob i hate seeing how bloated my face is it honestly depresses me so much half of me wants to hide in my bed for 20million years and the other wants to take every pill in existence. can i just like temporary delete my life for a sec bc i'm honestly so tired of being a bum who does nothing but eat and cry about it like i had so much going for me and i fucking took it away from myself bc that's what i damn do best. i'm not getting near theraputic dose w the lamictal for another month and i'm not looking forward for the month in psychotown bc that's what i've got coming with my rambling head on a tiny itty bitty 25mg which has the literal same affect that blinking has (if u didn't get the comparison it means it has no affect at all.) i'm killing my parents' wallets w all the money i spend on food and tharepy and hospitalizations and medicine and driving and tbh fucking existing why the fuck can't i just be a normal teenager that literally has only how her mom won't let her out on a school night to complain about β € i might not post tomorrow and just take a rest till monday:/ i'm just rlly fed up and need to get away from myself a little β € #bulimia  #bulimiarecovery  #recovery  #vegan  #veganrecovery  #bingeeating  #bingepurge  #sad  #depressed  #borderlinepersonalitydisorder  #bpd  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #nourishnotpunish  #positivethinking  #bodypositive  #selflove  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #panic  #mania  #manic  #moodswings  #impulsive  #emotionalrollercoaster  #unstable  #plantbased  #veganfood  #crueltyfree 
#vegan mini #pizza for #dinner cheese/onions/garlic/spinach/artichoke hearts on a flat bread
#edrecovery #veganrecovery #vegetarian
When I was a teen I really struggled with my body because after being pushed "the pill" by an obgyn, I gained 7 kilos in 2 months only. I hated my body and for the following years was battling with it trying to starve it and suffering through it really badly. 
When I asked for professional help, I got turned down because I didn't "look sick". I wasn't as they called it "overweight" and I wasn't "underweight". So who cares about my mind right?
Well thankfully, we don't have to rely on health services anymore. We have the interwebz nowadays and we can seek the help and support we need. 
Just because someone doesn't look like they're suffering doesn't mean they're not suffering.
Pls reach out if you think I can help and here are some amazing women who are precious resources πŸ‘‰ @erikathetiger @nikkin_25 @_kellyu @omgkenzieee @biancataylorm2 @meghanaro @haleighlovell @holisticselflove
When I was a teen I really struggled with my body because after being pushed "the pill" by an obgyn, I gained 7 kilos in 2 months only. I hated my body and for the following years was battling with it trying to starve it and suffering through it really badly. When I asked for professional help, I got turned down because I didn't "look sick". I wasn't as they called it "overweight" and I wasn't "underweight". So who cares about my mind right? Well thankfully, we don't have to rely on health services anymore. We have the interwebz nowadays and we can seek the help and support we need. Just because someone doesn't look like they're suffering doesn't mean they're not suffering. Pls reach out if you think I can help and here are some amazing women who are precious resources πŸ‘‰ @erikathetiger @nikkin_25 @_kellyu @omgkenzieee @biancataylorm2 @meghanaro @haleighlovell @holisticselflove
Apple 🍏 beet and carrot πŸ₯• juice, all local and organic. Also bright pink which is really the most important factor.

#vegan #veganrecovery #veganfood #eatlocal #farmersmarket #eatplants #organic #veganfoodshare #everyonesgoingvegan #herbivore #plantstrong #pinkdrink
CHINESE FOR THE WIN
CHINESE FOR THE WIN
Ich hab langsam das GefΓΌhl ich bin die einzige Person die diese Veganz Proteinriegel total gerne mag.. πŸ€”πŸ˜… #vegan #veganfood #veganfoodshare #vegandiet #plantbased #plantbaseddiet #plantbasedfood #ichbinpetazwei #petazwei #ichbinpeta2 #vegangirl #whatveganseat #veganwerdenwaslosdigga #vegandeutschland #vegangermany #veganrecovery #Recovery @veganz #veganz
Mid afternoon outing soy latteβ˜• and my fave energy bar too, to power me through what turned out to be a lovely afternoon🌀  I hope you've all enjoyed your day! And if not, I hope tomorrow is better. Today has reminded me how not every day has to be perfect in order to be enjoyed. My afternoon wasn't without a bit of waiting around and doing some things that I didn't exactly plan to do. My perfectionism makes me want to plan meticulously and carry out activities perfectly. But life isn't like that! Some times the best days are when we are spontaneous! 🌟 ... I'm aware I've gone into ramble mode slightly, congrats if you read this farπŸ˜‚β€ #recoveryisworthit
#recoveryispossible #recovery #edfighter #edwarrior #edfam #edcommunity #edrecovery #anorexiarecovery #anorexianervosa #fuckana #2fab4ana #anawho #bethebiggerbully #balancednotclean #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatittobeatit #nourishnotpunish #anafighter #anawarrior #veganrecovery #veganfoodshare #whatveganseat #realrecovery #prorecovery #anasoldier #edsoldier #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealth #recoverywin
Mid afternoon outing soy latteβ˜• and my fave energy bar too, to power me through what turned out to be a lovely afternoon🌀 I hope you've all enjoyed your day! And if not, I hope tomorrow is better. Today has reminded me how not every day has to be perfect in order to be enjoyed. My afternoon wasn't without a bit of waiting around and doing some things that I didn't exactly plan to do. My perfectionism makes me want to plan meticulously and carry out activities perfectly. But life isn't like that! Some times the best days are when we are spontaneous! 🌟 ... I'm aware I've gone into ramble mode slightly, congrats if you read this farπŸ˜‚β€ #recoveryisworthit  #recoveryispossible  #recovery  #edfighter  #edwarrior  #edfam  #edcommunity  #edrecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexianervosa  #fuckana  #2fab4ana  #anawho  #bethebiggerbully  #balancednotclean  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatittobeatit  #nourishnotpunish  #anafighter  #anawarrior  #veganrecovery  #veganfoodshare  #whatveganseat  #realrecovery  #prorecovery  #anasoldier  #edsoldier  #mentalhealthawareness  #mentalhealth  #recoverywin 
Lunching on a big amazing strawberry-banana smoothie made w @vega_team meal protein and pineapple juice along w a nice juicy peach and a homegrown apple (dipped in unpictured almondbutter). All this amazing weather just makes me want fruit so much! πŸ˜‹ have a great Saturday guys πŸ’œ#recovering #veganrecovery #vegangirl #veganlifestyle #anorexiarecovery  #edsoldier #realrecovery #foodisfuel #anasoldier #veganfitness #vegan #healthy #veganfoodshare #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatclean #plantbased #snack #vegancommunity  #veganfood #veganlife #hclf #raw #dinner #health #veganismismagic #yum #yummy #fresh #juice #whatveganseat
Lunching on a big amazing strawberry-banana smoothie made w @vega_team meal protein and pineapple juice along w a nice juicy peach and a homegrown apple (dipped in unpictured almondbutter). All this amazing weather just makes me want fruit so much! πŸ˜‹ have a great Saturday guys πŸ’œ#recovering  #veganrecovery  #vegangirl  #veganlifestyle  #anorexiarecovery  #edsoldier  #realrecovery  #foodisfuel  #anasoldier  #veganfitness  #vegan  #healthy  #veganfoodshare  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatclean  #plantbased  #snack  #vegancommunity  #veganfood  #veganlife  #hclf  #raw  #dinner  #health  #veganismismagic  #yum  #yummy  #fresh  #juice  #whatveganseat 
Easy Breezy Fluffy Buckwheat Pancakes (Naturally Sweetened) by @wholesomenordicliving ✨

Makes about 10 pancakes 
Ingredients

For the pancakes

1 Β½ cup + 3-4 tbsp. oat milk(try to add 1Β½ cup first, and then at the remaining if necessary)
ΒΎ cup buckwheat flour
ΒΎ cup all-purpose flour
1-2 tbsp. lucuma powder
1-2 tbsp. maple syrup (optional)
1 tbsp. potato starch
1 tsp. vanilla extract
1 Β½ tbsp. baking powder
Β½ tsp. cardamom
ΒΌ tsp. salt
Topping

Date syrup
Coconut chips
Hemp seeds
Fresh blueberries
Instructions

Preheat non-stick frying pan to medium heat.
Meanwhile, in a big bowl add all dry ingredients. When combined, add oat milk. Start by adding 1Β½ cup and decide if the remaining 3-4 tbsp. is necessary. You want to have a pancake batter, that is not too sticky, but neither too wet.
Pour or scoop the batter onto the frying pan, using approximately ΒΌ cup for each pancake. But if you don't have a non-stick frying pan, you can add Β½ tsp. coconut oil to make sure that the pancakes won't stick to the pan.
Garnish with your favorite toppings. garnish with date syrup, fresh blueberries, coconut chips and hemp seeds.
Easy Breezy Fluffy Buckwheat Pancakes (Naturally Sweetened) by @wholesomenordicliving ✨ Makes about 10 pancakes Ingredients For the pancakes 1 ½ cup + 3-4 tbsp. oat milk(try to add 1½ cup first, and then at the remaining if necessary) ¾ cup buckwheat flour ¾ cup all-purpose flour 1-2 tbsp. lucuma powder 1-2 tbsp. maple syrup (optional) 1 tbsp. potato starch 1 tsp. vanilla extract 1 ½ tbsp. baking powder ½ tsp. cardamom ¼ tsp. salt Topping Date syrup Coconut chips Hemp seeds Fresh blueberries Instructions Preheat non-stick frying pan to medium heat. Meanwhile, in a big bowl add all dry ingredients. When combined, add oat milk. Start by adding 1½ cup and decide if the remaining 3-4 tbsp. is necessary. You want to have a pancake batter, that is not too sticky, but neither too wet. Pour or scoop the batter onto the frying pan, using approximately ¼ cup for each pancake. But if you don't have a non-stick frying pan, you can add ½ tsp. coconut oil to make sure that the pancakes won't stick to the pan. Garnish with your favorite toppings. garnish with date syrup, fresh blueberries, coconut chips and hemp seeds.
Chai latteing it up with my brother !!!!
Chai latteing it up with my brother !!!!
YYTT starts today! #nicecream bowl fuel! πŸ˜˜πŸ’‹πŸ’šπŸŒ±πŸ‘£πŸΎπŸŒβ€πŸŒ
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#Blogger #spoonie #rawtill4 #raw #rawvegan #veganrecipes #ahimsa #smoothie #smoothiebowl #local #organic #plantbased #crueltyfree #veganrecovery #whatveganseat #veganfoodshare #foodshare #foodporn #foodie #veganfood #veganfoodporn #vegansofig #peaceandlove #goodvibes
Afternoon snack was really hard because I had to eat it in front of strangers and I had it instead of the cake they ate - but I do love clif bars though, I wish I could've enjoyed it more.

#eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #fuckana #ed #edrecovery #relapse #recovery #vegan #veganrecovery
Thanks for your concern lovely but I'm really motivated to fight so don't worry about me πŸ–€x I ate the garlic pizza bread with a good bowl of chips and it was delicious 😊#edwarrior #edfighter #edfam #edfamily #eatittobeatit #nourishnotpunish #happynothungry #happynotskinny #recovery #veganrecovery #edrecovery #edjourney #eddiary #recoveryisworthit #recoverywin
Just a little #snackpost. Pink Lady Apple, some green grapes and a plum πŸ˜„ I love fruits so much but eating too much of them makes me scared. First time eating lunch AND snacking on something else later without having thrown up. Im scared and I feel like I'll be 100000 kg heavier by the end of this week but I know I have to fight these irrational thoughts because being fit and happy is more important πŸ’ŸπŸπŸŠπŸ‹πŸ…πŸ‰πŸπŸ‘ #ed #edfighter #ana #mia #edrecovery  #snack #vegan #vegansnack #bulimiarecovery #anorexiarecovery #veganrecovery #eatittobeatit #magersucht #bulimie #happy #provegan #fruits #foodporn
Just a little #snackpost . Pink Lady Apple, some green grapes and a plum πŸ˜„ I love fruits so much but eating too much of them makes me scared. First time eating lunch AND snacking on something else later without having thrown up. Im scared and I feel like I'll be 100000 kg heavier by the end of this week but I know I have to fight these irrational thoughts because being fit and happy is more important πŸ’ŸπŸπŸŠπŸ‹πŸ…πŸ‰πŸπŸ‘ #ed  #edfighter  #ana  #mia  #edrecovery  #snack  #vegan  #vegansnack  #bulimiarecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #veganrecovery  #eatittobeatit  #magersucht  #bulimie  #happy  #provegan  #fruits  #foodporn 
Avo on toast, and Ana's a ghost πŸ‘» I'm off on a little arts trail with my Mum this afternoon. It might not be my kinda thing but a good mother/daughter activity ☺🎨 She's also singing with her community choir in a tunnel of all placesπŸ˜… but anyway the sun's come out so hopefully it should be nice afternoon 🌀

#recoveryisworthit
#recoveryispossible #recovery #edfighter #edwarrior #edfam #edcommunity #edrecovery #anorexiarecovery #anorexianervosa #fuckana #2fab4ana #anawho #bethebiggerbully #balancednotclean #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatittobeatit #nourishnotpunish #anafighter #anawarrior #veganrecovery #veganfoodshare #whatveganseat #realrecovery #prorecovery #anasoldier #edsoldier #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealth #recoverywin
Avo on toast, and Ana's a ghost πŸ‘» I'm off on a little arts trail with my Mum this afternoon. It might not be my kinda thing but a good mother/daughter activity ☺🎨 She's also singing with her community choir in a tunnel of all placesπŸ˜… but anyway the sun's come out so hopefully it should be nice afternoon 🌀 #recoveryisworthit  #recoveryispossible  #recovery  #edfighter  #edwarrior  #edfam  #edcommunity  #edrecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexianervosa  #fuckana  #2fab4ana  #anawho  #bethebiggerbully  #balancednotclean  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatittobeatit  #nourishnotpunish  #anafighter  #anawarrior  #veganrecovery  #veganfoodshare  #whatveganseat  #realrecovery  #prorecovery  #anasoldier  #edsoldier  #mentalhealthawareness  #mentalhealth  #recoverywin 
Look who is back folks!! πŸ™‹πŸ»πŸ€™πŸΌ
Today's breakfast is rice cake with choc sauce // 2 tbs apple sauce + 1 tbs cocoa + 1 tbs maple syrup πŸ‡¨πŸ‡¦// with pb n chia . That's my pre run breakfast, btw I live literally in front of a track πŸ˜πŸŽ‰ and today's so nice outside that I have to go for a run. Happy Saturday and good thoughts veggiesπŸ’š #canada #veganhealthy
Look who is back folks!! πŸ™‹πŸ»πŸ€™πŸΌ Today's breakfast is rice cake with choc sauce // 2 tbs apple sauce + 1 tbs cocoa + 1 tbs maple syrup πŸ‡¨πŸ‡¦// with pb n chia . That's my pre run breakfast, btw I live literally in front of a track πŸ˜πŸŽ‰ and today's so nice outside that I have to go for a run. Happy Saturday and good thoughts veggiesπŸ’š #canada  #veganhealthy 
goodmorning ! β €
rough day yesterday and rough night too. but i feel motivated to try and make today a little better and have a good lunch ! πŸ’ͺ🏼❀️ β €
i'm thinking of showing my face but i have so much anxiety and ughhhhh
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#bulimia #bulimiarecovery #recovery #vegan #veganrecovery #bingeeating  #bingepurge #sad  #depressed #borderlinepersonalitydisorder  #bpd  #anorexia #anorexiarecovery  #nourishnotpunish  #positivethinking #bodypositive  #selflove  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery #panic #mania #manic #moodswings #impulsive #emotionalrollercoaster #unstable #plantbased #veganfood #crueltyfree
goodmorning ! β € rough day yesterday and rough night too. but i feel motivated to try and make today a little better and have a good lunch ! πŸ’ͺ🏼❀️ β € i'm thinking of showing my face but i have so much anxiety and ughhhhh β € #bulimia  #bulimiarecovery  #recovery  #vegan  #veganrecovery  #bingeeating  #bingepurge  #sad  #depressed  #borderlinepersonalitydisorder  #bpd  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #nourishnotpunish  #positivethinking  #bodypositive  #selflove  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #panic  #mania  #manic  #moodswings  #impulsive  #emotionalrollercoaster  #unstable  #plantbased  #veganfood  #crueltyfree 
Finally got my hands on vegan mozarella again, so made a cute lil caprese (no basil though 😭). β€’
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#vegan #plantbased #crueltyfree #veganfood #vegansofinstagram #dutchvegans #dutchvegan #recovery #mentalhealth #mentalillness #dutchrecovery #veganrecovery #edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder
Hello from Bali✌ Long time no see because my life as a backpacker got me like "rice for breakfast, rice for lunch and oh what about rice for dinner?"🍚
Had to treat myself @balibuda with the best buddha bowl ever! Brown rice, grilled tofu, steamed broccoli, chickpeas, grated daikon, spirulina gomashio and a little miso soup πŸ˜‹πŸ™
Hello from Bali✌ Long time no see because my life as a backpacker got me like "rice for breakfast, rice for lunch and oh what about rice for dinner?"🍚 Had to treat myself @balibuda with the best buddha bowl ever! Brown rice, grilled tofu, steamed broccoli, chickpeas, grated daikon, spirulina gomashio and a little miso soup πŸ˜‹πŸ™
Me and my momma so much love 😘 Can't even thank her enough for all of her support recently, and driving me back and forward 40 miles to appointments twice a week πŸ’–
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#ednos #edrecovery #ednosrecovery #bulimia #bulimiarecovery #vegan #veganfood #veganfoodshare #veganrecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #pepsimax #body #bodycheck #positivity #negativity #hate #ana #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #adultswithed #anawarrior #anorexiafighter
Me and my momma so much love 😘 Can't even thank her enough for all of her support recently, and driving me back and forward 40 miles to appointments twice a week πŸ’– ---------------------------------------------------- #ednos  #edrecovery  #ednosrecovery  #bulimia  #bulimiarecovery  #vegan  #veganfood  #veganfoodshare  #veganrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #pepsimax  #body  #bodycheck  #positivity  #negativity  #hate  #ana  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #adultswithed  #anawarrior  #anorexiafighter 
Hey #edfam !!! #lunch is beans , vegetables, salad and 2 sausages and avocado coz it's vabveeee ! Omg it was LUSHHHHHH IT TASTE SOOOO GOOD!!!!!!!!! Today I'm going to the cinema ( I think anyway) and meeting some guys with my best friend ( we are watching IT) and then probs gonna just chill and be stupid TBH ahahaha. But first I have a piano lessiob which is great times πŸ˜‚
Have a lovely day beautiful s ❀️❀️❀️
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Hey #edfam  !!! #lunch  is beans , vegetables, salad and 2 sausages and avocado coz it's vabveeee ! Omg it was LUSHHHHHH IT TASTE SOOOO GOOD!!!!!!!!! Today I'm going to the cinema ( I think anyway) and meeting some guys with my best friend ( we are watching IT) and then probs gonna just chill and be stupid TBH ahahaha. But first I have a piano lessiob which is great times πŸ˜‚ Have a lovely day beautiful s ❀️❀️❀️ - #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexianervosa  #anorexianervosarecovery  #ednosrecovery  #ednos  #ed  #edrecovery  #edwarrior  #edsoldier  #edfighter  #edfamily  #ana  #anarecovery  #anawarrior  #anafighter  #anasoldier  #anafamily  #anafam  #healingsusannah  #healthynotskinny  #vegan  #veganrecovery  #recoveryispossible  #recoveryisworthit 
I'm so exhausted this morning that every step I take is making every muscle in my body ache. It's like walking through thick treacle, but I must keep on going as I hate being lazy!!! Have a fabulous Saturday lovelies πŸ’–
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I'm so exhausted this morning that every step I take is making every muscle in my body ache. It's like walking through thick treacle, but I must keep on going as I hate being lazy!!! Have a fabulous Saturday lovelies πŸ’– ---------------------------------------------------- #ednos  #edrecovery  #ednosrecovery  #bulimia  #bulimiarecovery  #vegan  #veganfood  #veganfoodshare  #veganrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #pepsimax  #body  #bodycheck  #positivity  #negativity  #hate  #ana  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #adultswithed  #anawarrior  #anorexiafighter 
Here it is everyone! Sorry it's the morning after my challenge but nevermind x 
Frankie and Benny's has always been one of my favourite places to eat but the past 2 times I went I was in the midst of my eating problems and it went horribly x I'll explain x 
PTW- The first time was the worst because I was going to order the low calorie pasta that used to be on the menu but I ended up crying in the toilets instead x I was telling my boyfriend that I'd eaten fruit in the day because I was trying to lose weight and he commented that fruit was high in sugar so to be careful with how much I ate x He hadn't caught on to the fact that I had a few issues with food x So we got to the restaurant, I broke down and cried and we had to go home so my boyfriend's mum and him couldn't eat anything and I ruined the night :/ The second time I just said I wasn't hungry and ordered a Diet Coke x I had about 5 of my boyfriend's leftover fries and then I cried after because I felt to disgusting x My boyfriend knew that there was an issue at this point but I still felt to guilty for ruining the night :c x 
Trigger warning over! So that's why I specifically wanted to go to Frankie and Benny's and have a meal that redeemed the shit ones and I must say it really was better than I expected x A definite #recoverywin! Those negative days are l behind me now and I'm looking ahead to my next major challenge x Fuck You restriction! 
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Here it is everyone! Sorry it's the morning after my challenge but nevermind x Frankie and Benny's has always been one of my favourite places to eat but the past 2 times I went I was in the midst of my eating problems and it went horribly x I'll explain x PTW- The first time was the worst because I was going to order the low calorie pasta that used to be on the menu but I ended up crying in the toilets instead x I was telling my boyfriend that I'd eaten fruit in the day because I was trying to lose weight and he commented that fruit was high in sugar so to be careful with how much I ate x He hadn't caught on to the fact that I had a few issues with food x So we got to the restaurant, I broke down and cried and we had to go home so my boyfriend's mum and him couldn't eat anything and I ruined the night :/ The second time I just said I wasn't hungry and ordered a Diet Coke x I had about 5 of my boyfriend's leftover fries and then I cried after because I felt to disgusting x My boyfriend knew that there was an issue at this point but I still felt to guilty for ruining the night :c x Trigger warning over! So that's why I specifically wanted to go to Frankie and Benny's and have a meal that redeemed the shit ones and I must say it really was better than I expected x A definite #recoverywin ! Those negative days are l behind me now and I'm looking ahead to my next major challenge x Fuck You restriction! #recovery  #recoveryispossible  #recoveryisworthit  #recoveryrocks  #recoverymeal  #recoveryfood  #recoveryjourney  #recoverydiary  #edrecovery  #veganrecovery  #eatittobeatit  #nourishnotpunish  #happynothungry  #happynotskinny  #fearfood  #fearfoodchallenge  #fearfoodwin  #fearfoodconquered  #200followerschallenge  #followerchallenge  #edwarrior  #edfamily  #edfamily  #edfighter 
#breakfast earlier (ft our lil house plant πŸ˜…) was overnight oats with dried fruit & frozen rasps πŸ’•πŸŒΏ woke up this morn and finished one of my course books which has made me feel super productive & accomplished πŸ’ͺ🏻 aka more justification to spend the rest of the day watching Netflix πŸ˜‚ have a great weekend ladies β˜ΊοΈπŸ’–
#breakfast  earlier (ft our lil house plant πŸ˜…) was overnight oats with dried fruit & frozen rasps πŸ’•πŸŒΏ woke up this morn and finished one of my course books which has made me feel super productive & accomplished πŸ’ͺ🏻 aka more justification to spend the rest of the day watching Netflix πŸ˜‚ have a great weekend ladies β˜ΊοΈπŸ’–
Tried to recreate my favorite sandwich I always order at the cafe, the one with the lentil patties... it came out pretty good! I’m proud of myself😎
It also has tahini and roasted veggies inside πŸ₯™πŸ…πŸž
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#sandwiches #veganlunch #lunchideas #vegan #vegansofig #vegansofinstagram  #veganfoodshare #govegan #veganfood #Χ˜Χ‘Χ’Χ•Χ Χ™ #plantbased #whatveganseat #easyvegan #veganeats #positiverecovery #veganrecovery #eatrealfood #bestofvegan #edrecovery #eattolive #cleaneating
Tried to recreate my favorite sandwich I always order at the cafe, the one with the lentil patties... it came out pretty good! I’m proud of myself😎 It also has tahini and roasted veggies inside πŸ₯™πŸ…πŸž . . . . #sandwiches  #veganlunch  #lunchideas  #vegan  #vegansofig  #vegansofinstagram  #veganfoodshare  #govegan  #veganfood  #Χ˜Χ‘Χ’Χ•Χ Χ™  #plantbased  #whatveganseat  #easyvegan  #veganeats  #positiverecovery  #veganrecovery  #eatrealfood  #bestofvegan  #edrecovery  #eattolive  #cleaneating 
So the other day when I had frosted shreddies, I felt a bit disappointed with myself because I chickened out and weighed them. Anorexia told me that because they have sugar on and they are 'bad' then they have to restricted. But I have sugar all the time! And no food is 'bad'. So today I didn't weigh them! Yes I probably had double the silly serving size but what harm can that do to me?! And there was no restriction of part two either as I still had my usual toast (swipe right)🍞🍞 mmm never skimp on bfast guys because it's the best meal of the dayπŸ˜‹ hope you have a fabulous Saturday 🌼

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So the other day when I had frosted shreddies, I felt a bit disappointed with myself because I chickened out and weighed them. Anorexia told me that because they have sugar on and they are 'bad' then they have to restricted. But I have sugar all the time! And no food is 'bad'. So today I didn't weigh them! Yes I probably had double the silly serving size but what harm can that do to me?! And there was no restriction of part two either as I still had my usual toast (swipe right)🍞🍞 mmm never skimp on bfast guys because it's the best meal of the dayπŸ˜‹ hope you have a fabulous Saturday 🌼 #recoveryisworthit  #recoveryispossible  #recovery  #edfighter  #edwarrior  #edfam  #edcommunity  #edrecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexianervosa  #fuckana  #2fab4ana  #anawho  #bethebiggerbully  #balancednotclean  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatittobeatit  #nourishnotpunish  #anafighter  #anawarrior  #veganrecovery  #veganfoodshare  #whatveganseat  #realrecovery  #prorecovery  #anasoldier  #edsoldier  #mentalhealthawareness  #mentalhealth  #recoverywin 
#throwback to a breakfast I had at home some weeks ago 🏑 I faced my #fearfood granola with Lizys Treacle pecan nut granola πŸ™Š 
Atm I can't take pictures of my main meals and I don't want to because the are eaten with a nurse or the group 🍽 
I will post my #snacks when I'm allowed to have them in self-responsibility 🍫🍏
The weekend is always hard for me because I have nothing to do and get very homesick. I'm not allowed to leave the clinic atm which is frustrating, especially when the others go on leave at the weekend. So I'm just trying not to get too negative and focus on my goals πŸ’ͺ🏻! I will begin my diary/scrapbook now and collect some motivations for fighting πŸ’•
Enjoy your weekend (more than me) ❀️
#magersucht #thisorhospital #recovery #realrecovery #recoveryishard #recoveryproblems #recoveryisworthit #Ana #anorexie #anorexia #anarecovery #anorexianervosarecovery #anorexiarecovery #ed #edfam #edfamily #eattobeat #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #essstΓΆrung #beatit #beatana #veganrecovery
#throwback  to a breakfast I had at home some weeks ago 🏑 I faced my #fearfood  granola with Lizys Treacle pecan nut granola πŸ™Š Atm I can't take pictures of my main meals and I don't want to because the are eaten with a nurse or the group 🍽 I will post my #snacks  when I'm allowed to have them in self-responsibility 🍫🍏 The weekend is always hard for me because I have nothing to do and get very homesick. I'm not allowed to leave the clinic atm which is frustrating, especially when the others go on leave at the weekend. So I'm just trying not to get too negative and focus on my goals πŸ’ͺ🏻! I will begin my diary/scrapbook now and collect some motivations for fighting πŸ’• Enjoy your weekend (more than me) ❀️ #magersucht  #thisorhospital  #recovery  #realrecovery  #recoveryishard  #recoveryproblems  #recoveryisworthit  #Ana  #anorexie  #anorexia  #anarecovery  #anorexianervosarecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #ed  #edfam  #edfamily  #eattobeat  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #essstΓΆrung  #beatit  #beatana  #veganrecovery 
Sometimes real life needs more attention then Instagram...
And this was yesterday the reason why I was not here. But now it's weekend. I have to bring I order some things and I have to make a really important decision.
Decisions are sometimes not easy and I think it will took me  while to find the best way. But it's definitely time to make it because life is never standing still. 
See you later 😘

But I totally forgot to say what on the pic. There you can see a raw banana-oat porridge with figs, pumpkincake and apples. I haven't to tell you how good this tastes, or?
Reminder..my #pumpkinparty17 is still alive ---------------------
Manchmal benΓΆtigt das reale Leben mehr Aufmerksamkeit als Instagram. Aus diesem Grund war ich gestern hier sehr abwesend. Doch nun ist Wochenende. Ich habe einige Dinge zu ordnen. Zudem steht fΓΌr mich eine Erscheinung an, die mir sehr wichtig ist und die ich schon eine Weile immer wieder vor mir her schiebe. Nun mΓΆchte ich meinen Weg finden Idee Sache anzugehen. Es ist einfach an der Zeit, denn die Welt bleibt nicht stehen...
So soviel erstmal heute morgen. Ich wΓΌnsche euch ein tolles Wochenende!!!! Was steht bei euch so an? Bis spΓ€ter!!!😘 Ach und be or ich es vergesse, auf dem Bild seht ihr rohen Hafer-Bananen porridge mit Feigen, KΓΌrbiskuchen und Γ„pfel. Ich muss euch nicht sagen wie gut das war oder?
Uhr mlchte hiermit auch noch bei der #autumnfoodparty von Laura und Klara @laurafruitfairy  @klaraslife mit machen m..
Ach und meine #pumpkinparty17 gibt es auch noch..die Regeln findet ihr unter einem der letzten Bilder
Sometimes real life needs more attention then Instagram... And this was yesterday the reason why I was not here. But now it's weekend. I have to bring I order some things and I have to make a really important decision. Decisions are sometimes not easy and I think it will took me while to find the best way. But it's definitely time to make it because life is never standing still. See you later 😘 But I totally forgot to say what on the pic. There you can see a raw banana-oat porridge with figs, pumpkincake and apples. I haven't to tell you how good this tastes, or? Reminder..my #pumpkinparty17  is still alive --------------------- Manchmal benΓΆtigt das reale Leben mehr Aufmerksamkeit als Instagram. Aus diesem Grund war ich gestern hier sehr abwesend. Doch nun ist Wochenende. Ich habe einige Dinge zu ordnen. Zudem steht fΓΌr mich eine Erscheinung an, die mir sehr wichtig ist und die ich schon eine Weile immer wieder vor mir her schiebe. Nun mΓΆchte ich meinen Weg finden Idee Sache anzugehen. Es ist einfach an der Zeit, denn die Welt bleibt nicht stehen... So soviel erstmal heute morgen. Ich wΓΌnsche euch ein tolles Wochenende!!!! Was steht bei euch so an? Bis spΓ€ter!!!😘 Ach und be or ich es vergesse, auf dem Bild seht ihr rohen Hafer-Bananen porridge mit Feigen, KΓΌrbiskuchen und Γ„pfel. Ich muss euch nicht sagen wie gut das war oder? Uhr mlchte hiermit auch noch bei der #autumnfoodparty  von Laura und Klara @laurafruitfairy @klaraslife mit machen m.. Ach und meine #pumpkinparty17  gibt es auch noch..die Regeln findet ihr unter einem der letzten Bilder
For today's breakfast I had an apple and a bread roll with lots of the dark chocolate spread which I finally used up!! Now I can try a new and better one 😊

I also had two cups of tea because I accidentally made peppermint tea when I wanted Earl Grey so I just had even more tea!  #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #fuckana #ed #edrecovery #relapse #recovery #vegan #veganrecovery
Back at home after some horrible traffic and crazy exhausted after the concert, but gotta hang in there and get in my nutrition, so nightsnack is some passion fruit, vanilla swirl, and orange zest sorbet with mixed berries and a @katefarms vanikka shake -- always a good way to fill in all the little gaps and really make sure I'm getting enough. πŸ‘ A lil annoyed bc of how my friend's mom (a dietician!) shames ice cream, but having this in any case because it can be a part of a balanced and healthy diet and mindset for me and I can't let some vague comment dictate what I do for my health and recovery -- I need to trust what works for myself and my team, as do you -- don't let some generic saying override your gut and the advice of the people who care about you πŸ’œ and have a nice night πŸ’•#recovering #veganrecovery #vegangirl #veganlifestyle #anorexiarecovery  #edsoldier #realrecovery #foodisfuel #anasoldier #veganfitness #vegan #healthy #veganfoodshare #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatclean #plantbased #snack #vegancommunity  #veganfood #veganlife #hclf #raw #dinner #health #veganismismagic #yum #yummy #fresh #juice #whatveganseat
Back at home after some horrible traffic and crazy exhausted after the concert, but gotta hang in there and get in my nutrition, so nightsnack is some passion fruit, vanilla swirl, and orange zest sorbet with mixed berries and a @katefarms vanikka shake -- always a good way to fill in all the little gaps and really make sure I'm getting enough. πŸ‘ A lil annoyed bc of how my friend's mom (a dietician!) shames ice cream, but having this in any case because it can be a part of a balanced and healthy diet and mindset for me and I can't let some vague comment dictate what I do for my health and recovery -- I need to trust what works for myself and my team, as do you -- don't let some generic saying override your gut and the advice of the people who care about you πŸ’œ and have a nice night πŸ’•#recovering  #veganrecovery  #vegangirl  #veganlifestyle  #anorexiarecovery  #edsoldier  #realrecovery  #foodisfuel  #anasoldier  #veganfitness  #vegan  #healthy  #veganfoodshare  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatclean  #plantbased  #snack  #vegancommunity  #veganfood  #veganlife  #hclf  #raw  #dinner  #health  #veganismismagic  #yum  #yummy  #fresh  #juice  #whatveganseat 
So the concert went pretty amazing and I pretty much was just able to chill and enjoy the moment w my friend so I'm having a pretty great night (aside from having to wait in the rain for my dad to pick us up, but whatevs). Whatever-meal-you-want-to-call-it part 2 is some cracker jacks and some Sprite! This was really hard to convince myself to get ngl bc it's touted as empty calories and junk that hurts your body -- but trying to remember that calories are calories and I just need to get something that will give my body them do it can repair and all. Sure, waiting to have something later may be the healthier option for someone else, but I know that I need to eat regularly and give my body some more fuel to work with and there is no "bad" fuel that will harm me (not to say you should only eat like this --it's not nutritionally ideal, but push comes to shove, it's part of living and I need to be able to do this for myself despite it being unideal simply because it's the best option at hand. life isn't perfect, it's life. ) #recovering #veganrecovery #vegangirl #veganlifestyle #anorexiarecovery  #edsoldier #realrecovery #foodisfuel #anasoldier #veganfitness #vegan #healthy #veganfoodshare #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatclean #plantbased #snack #vegancommunity  #veganfood #veganlife #hclf #raw #dinner #health #veganismismagic #yum #yummy #fresh #juice #whatveganseat
So the concert went pretty amazing and I pretty much was just able to chill and enjoy the moment w my friend so I'm having a pretty great night (aside from having to wait in the rain for my dad to pick us up, but whatevs). Whatever-meal-you-want-to-call-it part 2 is some cracker jacks and some Sprite! This was really hard to convince myself to get ngl bc it's touted as empty calories and junk that hurts your body -- but trying to remember that calories are calories and I just need to get something that will give my body them do it can repair and all. Sure, waiting to have something later may be the healthier option for someone else, but I know that I need to eat regularly and give my body some more fuel to work with and there is no "bad" fuel that will harm me (not to say you should only eat like this --it's not nutritionally ideal, but push comes to shove, it's part of living and I need to be able to do this for myself despite it being unideal simply because it's the best option at hand. life isn't perfect, it's life. ) #recovering  #veganrecovery  #vegangirl  #veganlifestyle  #anorexiarecovery  #edsoldier  #realrecovery  #foodisfuel  #anasoldier  #veganfitness  #vegan  #healthy  #veganfoodshare  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatclean  #plantbased  #snack  #vegancommunity  #veganfood  #veganlife  #hclf  #raw  #dinner  #health  #veganismismagic  #yum  #yummy  #fresh  #juice  #whatveganseat 
So my (awesome)friend randomly had an extra ticket to the Ed Sheeran concert and I'm so so so psyched because I got to go tonight! I haven't ever been to a concert before and I love ed Sheeran but really don't have the cash to get a $200+ ticket (this only cost $100, which is pretty okay in my book!!) so I'm so so glad being in recovery has given me this opportunity to get some typical teenage life back. It's hard to realize how much life has to offer when you're still going through the process of getting it back so this was such such a nice reminder!! Smuggled a snack/dinner part 1 of a @sunwarriortribe blueberry bliss meal bar and an orange bc all they have at the concert is hot dogs basically πŸ™„ #recovering #veganrecovery #vegangirl #veganlifestyle #anorexiarecovery  #edsoldier #realrecovery #foodisfuel #anasoldier #veganfitness #vegan #healthy #veganfoodshare #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatclean #plantbased #snack #vegancommunity  #veganfood #veganlife #hclf #raw #dinner #health #veganismismagic #yum #yummy #fresh #juice #whatveganseat
So my (awesome)friend randomly had an extra ticket to the Ed Sheeran concert and I'm so so so psyched because I got to go tonight! I haven't ever been to a concert before and I love ed Sheeran but really don't have the cash to get a $200+ ticket (this only cost $100, which is pretty okay in my book!!) so I'm so so glad being in recovery has given me this opportunity to get some typical teenage life back. It's hard to realize how much life has to offer when you're still going through the process of getting it back so this was such such a nice reminder!! Smuggled a snack/dinner part 1 of a @sunwarriortribe blueberry bliss meal bar and an orange bc all they have at the concert is hot dogs basically πŸ™„ #recovering  #veganrecovery  #vegangirl  #veganlifestyle  #anorexiarecovery  #edsoldier  #realrecovery  #foodisfuel  #anasoldier  #veganfitness  #vegan  #healthy  #veganfoodshare  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatclean  #plantbased  #snack  #vegancommunity  #veganfood  #veganlife  #hclf  #raw  #dinner  #health  #veganismismagic  #yum  #yummy  #fresh  #juice  #whatveganseat 
When the first day of fall is 91° and humid 😫 I think it was actually colder when this photo was taken in early August, but hey climate change isn't real, right? Also just uploaded my anorexia story part 2 to my youtube channel (link in description) #youtuber #vlog #vlogger #veganvlogger #vegan #veganlife #vegansofig #vegansofkalamazoo #wslf #hclf #fitness #fitnessgoals #hiking #body #bodypositive #legs #actress #theatre #model #veganrecovery #edrecovery #prorecovery #anarecovery #anorexia #nature #outdoors #fitnessmotivation #plantbased #healthy #health
When the first day of fall is 91Β° and humid 😫 I think it was actually colder when this photo was taken in early August, but hey climate change isn't real, right? Also just uploaded my anorexia story part 2 to my youtube channel (link in description) #youtuber  #vlog  #vlogger  #veganvlogger  #vegan  #veganlife  #vegansofig  #vegansofkalamazoo  #wslf  #hclf  #fitness  #fitnessgoals  #hiking  #body  #bodypositive  #legs  #actress  #theatre  #model  #veganrecovery  #edrecovery  #prorecovery  #anarecovery  #anorexia  #nature  #outdoors  #fitnessmotivation  #plantbased  #healthy  #health 
In πŸ’– with my unflexed tummy. In πŸ’— with my unflexed arms. In πŸ’– with my flattened chest. In πŸ’Ÿ with my natural coconut oil curlz. 
What are you in πŸ’Ÿ with about yourself today?
In πŸ’– with my unflexed tummy. In πŸ’— with my unflexed arms. In πŸ’– with my flattened chest. In πŸ’Ÿ with my natural coconut oil curlz. What are you in πŸ’Ÿ with about yourself today?
Baby chayote 😍😍
Baby chayote 😍😍
Work at the #localmarket had PURPLE CARROTS GUYS I CANNOT CONTAIN MY EXCITEMENT πŸ’‹β€πŸŒ±πŸ’šπŸ‘£πŸΎπŸŒπŸŽ πŸ˜˜
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#Blogger #spoonie #rawtill4 #raw #rawvegan #veganrecipes #local #organic #plantbased #crueltyfree #veganrecovery #saladbowl #salad  #ahimsa #veganfoodshare #foodie #foodporn #foodshare #veganfood #vegansofig #peaceandlove #goodvibes
#nightsnack today is this hej bite in the flavour 'pure madagascar vanilla' 🌺 so delicious and made with many nuts 😍
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I'm inpatient since this week (I don't want to go into detail where) and I'm not feeling very well. I'm homesick and miss my family so much. It's frustrating to be here  another time now since I already had multiple inpatient staysπŸ™
But let's see how things turn out. 
Maybe I'll post tomorrow and tell you more about my stateπŸ’•
Good night now ❀️
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#nightsnack  today is this hej bite in the flavour 'pure madagascar vanilla' 🌺 so delicious and made with many nuts 😍 ~~~~~~~ I'm inpatient since this week (I don't want to go into detail where) and I'm not feeling very well. I'm homesick and miss my family so much. It's frustrating to be here another time now since I already had multiple inpatient staysπŸ™ But let's see how things turn out. Maybe I'll post tomorrow and tell you more about my stateπŸ’• Good night now ❀️ #magersucht  #thisorhospital  #recovery  #realrecovery  #recoveryishard  #recoveryproblems  #recoveryisworthit  #Ana  #anorexie  #anorexia  #anarecovery  #anorexianervosarecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #ed  #edfam  #edfamily  #eattobeat  #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #essstΓΆrung  #beatit  #beatana  #veganrecovery 
Having the shittiest time atm so drowning my sorrows in lots of ice cream and buzzfeed unsolved lol
Hope ur doin good yo
Having the shittiest time atm so drowning my sorrows in lots of ice cream and buzzfeed unsolved lol Hope ur doin good yo
Today was the first time in so long that I have picked up my pencils and created something for myself. Not because I had to or someone asked me to, not because it was an assignment for school, but because I wanted to. (okay my boyfriend may have helped motivate me a bit). I can not tell you how much joy I felt as I was being completely focussed on creating this beautiful tiny flower. Dissociation is such a massive hurdle in my life and I am always trying to find things that will help ground me; this will definitely be added to the list.
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Today was the first time in so long that I have picked up my pencils and created something for myself. Not because I had to or someone asked me to, not because it was an assignment for school, but because I wanted to. (okay my boyfriend may have helped motivate me a bit). I can not tell you how much joy I felt as I was being completely focussed on creating this beautiful tiny flower. Dissociation is such a massive hurdle in my life and I am always trying to find things that will help ground me; this will definitely be added to the list. β€’ β€’ β€’ #recovery  #mentalhealth  #mentalillness  #dutchrecovery  #veganrecovery  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #depression  #depressionrecovery  #anxiety  #anxietyrecovery  #arttherapy  #art  #artistsoninstagram 
No better way to celebrate friYay than with ice cream! This killer pud was chocolate hazelnut icecream, aka nutella icecream! Ana got so cold she was frozen solid by the time I'd finishedβ›„ Having unknown calorie puddings is getting so much easier. It's really true when I say the more we challenge ourselves the easier it gets! And we get to enjoy deliciousness like ice cream so it's definitely worth it! It's now time for me to grab a snack and catch up on some tv. Hope you're all having a lovely eveningπŸŒ›πŸŒŸ #recoveryisworthit
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No better way to celebrate friYay than with ice cream! This killer pud was chocolate hazelnut icecream, aka nutella icecream! Ana got so cold she was frozen solid by the time I'd finishedβ›„ Having unknown calorie puddings is getting so much easier. It's really true when I say the more we challenge ourselves the easier it gets! And we get to enjoy deliciousness like ice cream so it's definitely worth it! It's now time for me to grab a snack and catch up on some tv. Hope you're all having a lovely eveningπŸŒ›πŸŒŸ #recoveryisworthit  #recoveryispossible  #recovery  #edfighter  #edwarrior  #edfam  #edcommunity  #edrecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexianervosa  #fuckana  #2fab4ana  #anawho  #bethebiggerbully  #balancednotclean  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatittobeatit  #nourishnotpunish  #anafighter  #anawarrior  #veganrecovery  #veganfoodshare  #whatveganseat  #realrecovery  #prorecovery  #anasoldier  #edsoldier  #mentalhealthawareness  #mentalhealth  #recoverywin 
WIAT 9/22/17 - I was supposed to liquid fast today, but it didn't go 100% as planned. I am really happy with myself today though.
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Breakfast was coffee with vanilla almond milk and dark chocolate coconut dairy free yogurt. (I know yogurt isn't a straight liquid. But there was no chewing required, it was really thin, and had protein, thus I still "ate" it.) β˜•
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Lunch was a greens juice blend. πŸ‚ 🍎 .
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I also had some unsweetened black tea that my boyfriend bought me a little while ago.
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Dinner was oatmeal with a few toppings because I was home alone and it was either eat a little solid food or binge so I'm okay with it. .
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TW: I'm still at 818 calories and this is all I'm having. In my mind this is better than binging again. I burned off 200 from exercise to remove some guilt. Idk why I feel the need to say this but I should be honest so that's what I'm doing.
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#ed #ednos #edrecovery #anorexia #bulimia #bulimiarecovery #vegan #veganism #veganfoodshare #veganrecovery #whatveganseat #eatyourfruits #eatyourvegetables #friendsnotfood #recovery #vegansofig #vegansofinstagram #plantshaveprotein
WIAT 9/22/17 - I was supposed to liquid fast today, but it didn't go 100% as planned. I am really happy with myself today though. . . . Breakfast was coffee with vanilla almond milk and dark chocolate coconut dairy free yogurt. (I know yogurt isn't a straight liquid. But there was no chewing required, it was really thin, and had protein, thus I still "ate" it.) β˜• . . . Lunch was a greens juice blend. πŸ‚ 🍎 . . . I also had some unsweetened black tea that my boyfriend bought me a little while ago. . . . Dinner was oatmeal with a few toppings because I was home alone and it was either eat a little solid food or binge so I'm okay with it. . . . TW: I'm still at 818 calories and this is all I'm having. In my mind this is better than binging again. I burned off 200 from exercise to remove some guilt. Idk why I feel the need to say this but I should be honest so that's what I'm doing. . . . #ed  #ednos  #edrecovery  #anorexia  #bulimia  #bulimiarecovery  #vegan  #veganism  #veganfoodshare  #veganrecovery  #whatveganseat  #eatyourfruits  #eatyourvegetables  #friendsnotfood  #recovery  #vegansofig  #vegansofinstagram  #plantshaveprotein 
I'm (very) slowly but surely learning that my recovery is dependent on being able to listen. This morning I had amazing donuts and this afternoon I had a lot of urges to skip lunch -- but instead of pushing those thoughts away as hard as I could, I asked myself why? Why was I wanting to deprive my body nourishment? It was because I didn't think I deserved to enjoy myself. Once I realized where the urges were coming from, I was able to handle them more effectively. Instead of depriving myself enjoyment, I took a nice sunny walk down to @peacefoodnyc and brought my journal and ate an incredible veggie-packed bowl of goodness. I never would've been able to listen to myself and act accordingly a few months ago, and I'm really really proud.
I'm (very) slowly but surely learning that my recovery is dependent on being able to listen. This morning I had amazing donuts and this afternoon I had a lot of urges to skip lunch -- but instead of pushing those thoughts away as hard as I could, I asked myself why? Why was I wanting to deprive my body nourishment? It was because I didn't think I deserved to enjoy myself. Once I realized where the urges were coming from, I was able to handle them more effectively. Instead of depriving myself enjoyment, I took a nice sunny walk down to @peacefoodnyc and brought my journal and ate an incredible veggie-packed bowl of goodness. I never would've been able to listen to myself and act accordingly a few months ago, and I'm really really proud.
Hey #edfam !!!!! #dinner was 3 fishless fingures with sweet corn and beans and I also had couscous and baked beans and pudding was an ice cream ❀️
Watching Annabelle with my brother currently ( yes it's my first time watching it don't judge me biatches ahaga) 
Have a lovely evening fighters! Xxx
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Hey #edfam  !!!!! #dinner  was 3 fishless fingures with sweet corn and beans and I also had couscous and baked beans and pudding was an ice cream ❀️ Watching Annabelle with my brother currently ( yes it's my first time watching it don't judge me biatches ahaga) Have a lovely evening fighters! Xxx - #eatingdisorder  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexia  #anorexianervosa  #anorexianervosarecovery  #ed  #edrecovery  #ednos  #ednosrecovery  #ana  #anarecovery  #edfighter  #edwarrior  #edsoldier  #edfamily  #anafighter  #anawarrior  #anasoldier  #anafamily  #anafam  #vegan  #veganrecovery  #healing .susannah #healthynotskinny  #recoveryispossible 
🌟 thursdays meals and snacks 🌟
i've felt so bad all day for eating two bananas, with 4 tbsp of real PB, before i went to sleep last night. i let that guilt stop me from bringing a bag nuts to the gym, and it inspired me to compete with myself when i was left to my own devices there.
it really scares me how sometimes eating fear foods can make me feel so empowered and brave and other times it can completely backfire and lead to a day where i'm being ruled by fear again.
i decided that i wouldn't let this stop me from challenging ANOTHER fear food, for my dinner tonight, AND a combo that i've been really scared of having together for a really long time. it was so delicious and i felt so much better after eating it! which just proved to me that persistence is key, regardless of how many hiccups occur along the way.
stay safe, gang.
#edfamily #edrecovery #veganrecovery #anarecovery #orthorexiarecovery #nourishtoflourish #nourishnotpunish #recoveryisworthit #recoveryispossible #prorecovery #fdoe #fulldayofeating #veganfoodshare #veganmeals #glutenfree #glutenfreevegan
🌟 thursdays meals and snacks 🌟 i've felt so bad all day for eating two bananas, with 4 tbsp of real PB, before i went to sleep last night. i let that guilt stop me from bringing a bag nuts to the gym, and it inspired me to compete with myself when i was left to my own devices there. it really scares me how sometimes eating fear foods can make me feel so empowered and brave and other times it can completely backfire and lead to a day where i'm being ruled by fear again. i decided that i wouldn't let this stop me from challenging ANOTHER fear food, for my dinner tonight, AND a combo that i've been really scared of having together for a really long time. it was so delicious and i felt so much better after eating it! which just proved to me that persistence is key, regardless of how many hiccups occur along the way. stay safe, gang. #edfamily  #edrecovery  #veganrecovery  #anarecovery  #orthorexiarecovery  #nourishtoflourish  #nourishnotpunish  #recoveryisworthit  #recoveryispossible  #prorecovery  #fdoe  #fulldayofeating  #veganfoodshare  #veganmeals  #glutenfree  #glutenfreevegan 
Trying something new for afternoonsnack/lunch2 w a mixed berry, vega all in one meal powder, maple syrup, and @mooala_koala bananamilk smoothie and some raspberries and strawberries! I was a lil unsure about banana milk, but the amazing people at mooala sent some (in an adorable lil cooler nonetheless!!) so I gave it a go, and I actually really like it -- it has a nice smooth and light feel to it w a soft banana flavor πŸ˜‹ between this, @nattibar , and actual bananas, I may just take on a banana only diet 😜(not really tho bc that would be horribly dangerous!!) #recovering #veganrecovery #vegangirl #veganlifestyle #anorexiarecovery  #edsoldier #realrecovery #foodisfuel #anasoldier #veganfitness #vegan #healthy #veganfoodshare #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatclean #plantbased #snack #vegancommunity  #veganfood #veganlife #hclf #raw #dinner #health #veganismismagic #yum #yummy #fresh #juice #whatveganseat
Trying something new for afternoonsnack/lunch2 w a mixed berry, vega all in one meal powder, maple syrup, and @mooala_koala bananamilk smoothie and some raspberries and strawberries! I was a lil unsure about banana milk, but the amazing people at mooala sent some (in an adorable lil cooler nonetheless!!) so I gave it a go, and I actually really like it -- it has a nice smooth and light feel to it w a soft banana flavor πŸ˜‹ between this, @nattibar , and actual bananas, I may just take on a banana only diet 😜(not really tho bc that would be horribly dangerous!!) #recovering  #veganrecovery  #vegangirl  #veganlifestyle  #anorexiarecovery  #edsoldier  #realrecovery  #foodisfuel  #anasoldier  #veganfitness  #vegan  #healthy  #veganfoodshare  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatclean  #plantbased  #snack  #vegancommunity  #veganfood  #veganlife  #hclf  #raw  #dinner  #health  #veganismismagic  #yum  #yummy  #fresh  #juice  #whatveganseat 
Today's lunch was a curry with red camargue rice, tofu and veggies. πŸ‘ŒπŸ˜‹
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I'm the eight day binge/purge free in a row, I still can't believe it!! πŸ™ˆπŸ˜„πŸ’ͺ
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#edrecovery #edfamily #eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #magersucht #bulimia #bulimiarecovery #veganrecovery #depression #depressionrecovery #mentalillness #mentalillnessrecovery #vegan #prorecovery #essstΓΆrung #edfighter #recoveryisworthit #nourishnotpunish #recoveryforlife #veganfortheanimals #veganism #anorexianervosa #anorexiafighter #eatingdisorder #eatittobeatit
Today's lunch was a curry with red camargue rice, tofu and veggies. πŸ‘ŒπŸ˜‹ . I'm the eight day binge/purge free in a row, I still can't believe it!! πŸ™ˆπŸ˜„πŸ’ͺ . #edrecovery  #edfamily  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #anorexia  #anorexiarecovery  #magersucht  #bulimia  #bulimiarecovery  #veganrecovery  #depression  #depressionrecovery  #mentalillness  #mentalillnessrecovery  #vegan  #prorecovery  #essstΓΆrung  #edfighter  #recoveryisworthit  #nourishnotpunish  #recoveryforlife  #veganfortheanimals  #veganism  #anorexianervosa  #anorexiafighter  #eatingdisorder  #eatittobeatit 
The deal is the same here: if i eat my meals and 2 nutridrink a day, they dont feed me by the tube. It is quite fair i guess
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They weight me in the afternoon and i was like a kilo (900g) heavier than i was on Tuesday. Noo i knew it i knew i gained so much 😭 i know it wasnt my real weight and it is a different scale but still. Animal products made me fat 2 years ago too,it will happen again
The deal is the same here: if i eat my meals and 2 nutridrink a day, they dont feed me by the tube. It is quite fair i guess TW πŸ”œ . . . . They weight me in the afternoon and i was like a kilo (900g) heavier than i was on Tuesday. Noo i knew it i knew i gained so much 😭 i know it wasnt my real weight and it is a different scale but still. Animal products made me fat 2 years ago too,it will happen again
A pie fulla beanz. Ana slipped in gravy and broke her neck 😈 I also spontaneously added peas because you know ya girl needs her legumes, and we also all know they make great bulletsπŸ’₯πŸ”« Now let's talk about how far we've come. No matter where we are on our journeys, we should feel proud. We should feel proud of how far we've come, no matter the distance. Getting up every day and choosing recovery takes SO MUCH strengthπŸ’ͺ set backs don't mean we're weak, it's having those set backs but carrying regardless that makes us STRONG. Let's take a moment to give ourselves a round of applause πŸ‘πŸ‘πŸ‘ Getting over this could be the hardest battle of our lives, let's make ourselves PROUD🌟
#recoveryisworthit
#recoveryispossible #recovery #edfighter #edwarrior #edfam #edcommunity #edrecovery #anorexiarecovery #anorexianervosa #fuckana #2fab4ana #anawho #bethebiggerbully #balancednotclean #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatittobeatit #nourishnotpunish #anafighter #anawarrior #veganrecovery #veganfoodshare #whatveganseat #realrecovery #prorecovery #anasoldier #edsoldier #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealth #recoverywin
A pie fulla beanz. Ana slipped in gravy and broke her neck 😈 I also spontaneously added peas because you know ya girl needs her legumes, and we also all know they make great bulletsπŸ’₯πŸ”« Now let's talk about how far we've come. No matter where we are on our journeys, we should feel proud. We should feel proud of how far we've come, no matter the distance. Getting up every day and choosing recovery takes SO MUCH strengthπŸ’ͺ set backs don't mean we're weak, it's having those set backs but carrying regardless that makes us STRONG. Let's take a moment to give ourselves a round of applause πŸ‘πŸ‘πŸ‘ Getting over this could be the hardest battle of our lives, let's make ourselves PROUD🌟 #recoveryisworthit  #recoveryispossible  #recovery  #edfighter  #edwarrior  #edfam  #edcommunity  #edrecovery  #anorexiarecovery  #anorexianervosa  #fuckana  #2fab4ana  #anawho  #bethebiggerbully  #balancednotclean  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatittobeatit  #nourishnotpunish  #anafighter  #anawarrior  #veganrecovery  #veganfoodshare  #whatveganseat  #realrecovery  #prorecovery  #anasoldier  #edsoldier  #mentalhealthawareness  #mentalhealth  #recoverywin 
For the past couple of months I have been falling apart at a speeding pace and I don't know how to stop it. I am exhausted. I am exhausted of hating everything, I am exhausted of hating everyone, I am exhausted of hating myself. 
I often find myself sitting in my room, laundry piled up, not having showered in over a week, calling in sick and canceling plans to just sleep and binge and purge all day. I go from day to day, not living, just existing, not seeing a point in anything and not enjoying anything. All I do is sit at home, watch others live life and hate myself for not being able to be what they are. I am tired of it. 
I am tired of not being able to focus, tired of not having hope, tired of not seeing a future for myself. Tired of being tired. I am going to work to sort stuff out, clear my mind, be a better person. I want to enjoy things I used to enjoy: reading, art, music. Things that now just seem too exhausting and too pointless. 
I want to start making choices that will make me happy and help me move towards a brighter future, not drag me down further. This shit is scary as hell, I know I will have to overcome hurdles, open up again, heal wounds, restart taking meds. In time all those things will have to happen, and they are terrifying but also necessary in order to find the last bits of hope and happiness inside of me.
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#recovery #mentalhealth #mentalillness #dutchrecovery #veganrecovery #edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #depression #depressionrecovery #anxiety #anxietyrecovery
For the past couple of months I have been falling apart at a speeding pace and I don't know how to stop it. I am exhausted. I am exhausted of hating everything, I am exhausted of hating everyone, I am exhausted of hating myself. I often find myself sitting in my room, laundry piled up, not having showered in over a week, calling in sick and canceling plans to just sleep and binge and purge all day. I go from day to day, not living, just existing, not seeing a point in anything and not enjoying anything. All I do is sit at home, watch others live life and hate myself for not being able to be what they are. I am tired of it. I am tired of not being able to focus, tired of not having hope, tired of not seeing a future for myself. Tired of being tired. I am going to work to sort stuff out, clear my mind, be a better person. I want to enjoy things I used to enjoy: reading, art, music. Things that now just seem too exhausting and too pointless. I want to start making choices that will make me happy and help me move towards a brighter future, not drag me down further. This shit is scary as hell, I know I will have to overcome hurdles, open up again, heal wounds, restart taking meds. In time all those things will have to happen, and they are terrifying but also necessary in order to find the last bits of hope and happiness inside of me. β€’ β€’ β€’ #recovery  #mentalhealth  #mentalillness  #dutchrecovery  #veganrecovery  #edrecovery  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatingdisorder  #depression  #depressionrecovery  #anxiety  #anxietyrecovery 
Forgot to post my afternon snack but I had a chocolate coconut fruit bat and half an apple earlier!

#eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #fuckana #ed #edrecovery #relapse #recovery #vegan #veganrecovery
So I did a thing...After tasting the most amazing and probably the best tasting raw tiramisu dessert I've ever had from @purezzauk I knew I had to try and recreate it! This will be dusted with raw cacao powder later too! I've been feeling really down and low about my diabetes unfortunately suffering from a lot of hypos at home and work for the past few days and my low mood isn't budging. I've been super stressed meaning literally passing out this morning and it was really scary! Luckily nothing to do with my diabetes so I couldn't tell you why it happened so I was really shaken after πŸ˜“old thoughts of restricting have kicked in meaning I'm skipping meals BUT I am honestly trying my hardest for this not to happen. I have never had a relapse before and I'm not going to have one either. Weight gain is so tough to deal with but gaining weight means I've also gained my life and confidence back. I'm just so drained from having to deal with diabetes at the moment and I'm allowing myself to not rush to treat lows and my mum is very weary of this πŸ˜“ as she's also connected to my dexcom app so she can see the amount of hypos I'm having. Tomorrow is a new day and I am going to try my hardest to be positive as I know my life could be 1000 x worse than it is now πŸ˜“ p.s a cheeky bit of the base somehow snuck on top of the filling πŸ€”
So I did a thing...After tasting the most amazing and probably the best tasting raw tiramisu dessert I've ever had from @purezzauk I knew I had to try and recreate it! This will be dusted with raw cacao powder later too! I've been feeling really down and low about my diabetes unfortunately suffering from a lot of hypos at home and work for the past few days and my low mood isn't budging. I've been super stressed meaning literally passing out this morning and it was really scary! Luckily nothing to do with my diabetes so I couldn't tell you why it happened so I was really shaken after πŸ˜“old thoughts of restricting have kicked in meaning I'm skipping meals BUT I am honestly trying my hardest for this not to happen. I have never had a relapse before and I'm not going to have one either. Weight gain is so tough to deal with but gaining weight means I've also gained my life and confidence back. I'm just so drained from having to deal with diabetes at the moment and I'm allowing myself to not rush to treat lows and my mum is very weary of this πŸ˜“ as she's also connected to my dexcom app so she can see the amount of hypos I'm having. Tomorrow is a new day and I am going to try my hardest to be positive as I know my life could be 1000 x worse than it is now πŸ˜“ p.s a cheeky bit of the base somehow snuck on top of the filling πŸ€”
Met up with @aspoonfulofhealth_ and @knfx for a final 🍩feast at @dunwelldoughnuts! I got πŸ“ and 🍏 frosted donuts and a pumpkin pie latte. War richtig schΓΆn mit euch, Kai und Lissi! Bis zum nΓ€chsten Mal πŸ’•
Met up with @aspoonfulofhealth_ and @knfx for a final 🍩feast at @dunwelldoughnuts! I got πŸ“ and 🍏 frosted donuts and a pumpkin pie latte. War richtig schΓΆn mit euch, Kai und Lissi! Bis zum nΓ€chsten Mal πŸ’•
Actually looks quiet similar to my first pic πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚ But anyways I love chickpeas so much + this chickpea tomato stew was so good πŸƒπŸ… And the best: it's finally weekend again!! Hope you're enjoying yours!! #vegan #vegandiet #veganfood #veganfoodshare #plantbased #plantbasedfood #plantbaseddiet #whatveganseat #vegangirl #veganwerdenwaslosdigga #petazwei #ichbinpetazwei #ichbinpeta2 #vegandeutschland #vegangermany #veganrecovery #recovery #recovering #edrecovery
Actually looks quiet similar to my first pic πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚ But anyways I love chickpeas so much + this chickpea tomato stew was so good πŸƒπŸ… And the best: it's finally weekend again!! Hope you're enjoying yours!! #vegan  #vegandiet  #veganfood  #veganfoodshare  #plantbased  #plantbasedfood  #plantbaseddiet  #whatveganseat  #vegangirl  #veganwerdenwaslosdigga  #petazwei  #ichbinpetazwei  #ichbinpeta2  #vegandeutschland  #vegangermany  #veganrecovery  #recovery  #recovering  #edrecovery 
Brutal dinner after a brutal leg-day😍 
Vegan chocolate protein pancakes with avocado-banana chocolate&coconut "puding" plus one more banana πŸ’ͺπŸ˜„πŸ΄ (If u want I will send u the recipe)
[pancakes+banana+chocopuding=750-800calories but I don't care 😎] #veganpancakes #proteinpancakes #vegangains #fitfam #avocadopudding #avocadopuding #coconut #banana #massivedinner #vegandinner #vegangym #recoverygym #healthyvegan #carbs #magyarvegan #veganfood #mutimiteszel_vegan #veganhungary #hungarianvegan #edfighter #edrecovery #realrecovery #veganrecovery #whatveganseat #vegansofig #801010 #eatingdisorderrecovery #fuckana #realrecocery #healthyrecovery
Brutal dinner after a brutal leg-day😍 Vegan chocolate protein pancakes with avocado-banana chocolate&coconut "puding" plus one more banana πŸ’ͺπŸ˜„πŸ΄ (If u want I will send u the recipe) [pancakes+banana+chocopuding=750-800calories but I don't care 😎] #veganpancakes  #proteinpancakes  #vegangains  #fitfam  #avocadopudding  #avocadopuding  #coconut  #banana  #massivedinner  #vegandinner  #vegangym  #recoverygym  #healthyvegan  #carbs  #magyarvegan  #veganfood  #mutimiteszel_vegan  #veganhungary  #hungarianvegan  #edfighter  #edrecovery  #realrecovery  #veganrecovery  #whatveganseat  #vegansofig  #801010  #eatingdisorderrecovery  #fuckana  #realrecocery  #healthyrecovery