1 cup oats
1 cup water
1 cup soya milk
1 teaspoon of Cocoa powder
1 teaspoon of Maca powder
2 tablespoons of maple syrup
(Heat on the hob for about 15 minutes)⏱ Top with:
TW. RANT // i have this spot on the back of my head that just grows blonde hair ⠀
i've been feeling like shit lately my emotions are all over the place i've been crying myself to sleep for idek why anymore and tbh i cry over anything and everything now and i'm literally freaking out over everyfuckingthing. i am rlly bloated rn i had a sucky day w food and i probs will tmrw too i feel honestly really fat i feel like a walking blob i hate seeing how bloated my face is it honestly depresses me so much half of me wants to hide in my bed for 20million years and the other wants to take every pill in existence. can i just like temporary delete my life for a sec bc i'm honestly so tired of being a bum who does nothing but eat and cry about it like i had so much going for me and i fucking took it away from myself bc that's what i damn do best. i'm not getting near theraputic dose w the lamictal for another month and i'm not looking forward for the month in psychotown bc that's what i've got coming with my rambling head on a tiny itty bitty 25mg which has the literal same affect that blinking has (if u didn't get the comparison it means it has no affect at all.) i'm killing my parents' wallets w all the money i spend on food and tharepy and hospitalizations and medicine and driving and tbh fucking existing why the fuck can't i just be a normal teenager that literally has only how her mom won't let her out on a school night to complain about
i might not post tomorrow and just take a rest till monday:/ i'm just rlly fed up and need to get away from myself a little
When I was a teen I really struggled with my body because after being pushed "the pill" by an obgyn, I gained 7 kilos in 2 months only. I hated my body and for the following years was battling with it trying to starve it and suffering through it really badly.
When I asked for professional help, I got turned down because I didn't "look sick". I wasn't as they called it "overweight" and I wasn't "underweight". So who cares about my mind right?
Well thankfully, we don't have to rely on health services anymore. We have the interwebz nowadays and we can seek the help and support we need.
Just because someone doesn't look like they're suffering doesn't mean they're not suffering.
Pls reach out if you think I can help and here are some amazing women who are precious resources 👉 @erikathetiger @nikkin_25 @_kellyu @omgkenzieee @biancataylorm2 @meghanaro @haleighlovell @holisticselflove
Easy Breezy Fluffy Buckwheat Pancakes (Naturally Sweetened) by @wholesomenordicliving ✨
Makes about 10 pancakes
For the pancakes
1 ½ cup + 3-4 tbsp. oat milk(try to add 1½ cup first, and then at the remaining if necessary)
¾ cup buckwheat flour
¾ cup all-purpose flour
1-2 tbsp. lucuma powder
1-2 tbsp. maple syrup (optional)
1 tbsp. potato starch
1 tsp. vanilla extract
1 ½ tbsp. baking powder
½ tsp. cardamom
¼ tsp. salt
Preheat non-stick frying pan to medium heat.
Meanwhile, in a big bowl add all dry ingredients. When combined, add oat milk. Start by adding 1½ cup and decide if the remaining 3-4 tbsp. is necessary. You want to have a pancake batter, that is not too sticky, but neither too wet.
Pour or scoop the batter onto the frying pan, using approximately ¼ cup for each pancake. But if you don't have a non-stick frying pan, you can add ½ tsp. coconut oil to make sure that the pancakes won't stick to the pan.
Garnish with your favorite toppings. garnish with date syrup, fresh blueberries, coconut chips and hemp seeds.
Look who is back folks!! 🙋🏻🤙🏼
Today's breakfast is rice cake with choc sauce // 2 tbs apple sauce + 1 tbs cocoa + 1 tbs maple syrup 🇨🇦// with pb n chia . That's my pre run breakfast, btw I live literally in front of a track 😍🎉 and today's so nice outside that I have to go for a run. Happy Saturday and good thoughts veggies💚 #canada#veganhealthy
Hello from Bali✌ Long time no see because my life as a backpacker got me like "rice for breakfast, rice for lunch and oh what about rice for dinner?"🍚
Had to treat myself @balibuda with the best buddha bowl ever! Brown rice, grilled tofu, steamed broccoli, chickpeas, grated daikon, spirulina gomashio and a little miso soup 😋🙏
Here it is everyone! Sorry it's the morning after my challenge but nevermind x
Frankie and Benny's has always been one of my favourite places to eat but the past 2 times I went I was in the midst of my eating problems and it went horribly x I'll explain x
PTW- The first time was the worst because I was going to order the low calorie pasta that used to be on the menu but I ended up crying in the toilets instead x I was telling my boyfriend that I'd eaten fruit in the day because I was trying to lose weight and he commented that fruit was high in sugar so to be careful with how much I ate x He hadn't caught on to the fact that I had a few issues with food x So we got to the restaurant, I broke down and cried and we had to go home so my boyfriend's mum and him couldn't eat anything and I ruined the night :/ The second time I just said I wasn't hungry and ordered a Diet Coke x I had about 5 of my boyfriend's leftover fries and then I cried after because I felt to disgusting x My boyfriend knew that there was an issue at this point but I still felt to guilty for ruining the night :c x
Trigger warning over! So that's why I specifically wanted to go to Frankie and Benny's and have a meal that redeemed the shit ones and I must say it really was better than I expected x A definite #recoverywin ! Those negative days are l behind me now and I'm looking ahead to my next major challenge x Fuck You restriction!
#breakfast earlier (ft our lil house plant 😅) was overnight oats with dried fruit & frozen rasps 💕🌿 woke up this morn and finished one of my course books which has made me feel super productive & accomplished 💪🏻 aka more justification to spend the rest of the day watching Netflix 😂 have a great weekend ladies ☺️💖
Sometimes real life needs more attention then Instagram...
And this was yesterday the reason why I was not here. But now it's weekend. I have to bring I order some things and I have to make a really important decision.
Decisions are sometimes not easy and I think it will took me while to find the best way. But it's definitely time to make it because life is never standing still.
See you later 😘
But I totally forgot to say what on the pic. There you can see a raw banana-oat porridge with figs, pumpkincake and apples. I haven't to tell you how good this tastes, or?
Reminder..my #pumpkinparty17 is still alive ---------------------
Manchmal benötigt das reale Leben mehr Aufmerksamkeit als Instagram. Aus diesem Grund war ich gestern hier sehr abwesend. Doch nun ist Wochenende. Ich habe einige Dinge zu ordnen. Zudem steht für mich eine Erscheinung an, die mir sehr wichtig ist und die ich schon eine Weile immer wieder vor mir her schiebe. Nun möchte ich meinen Weg finden Idee Sache anzugehen. Es ist einfach an der Zeit, denn die Welt bleibt nicht stehen...
So soviel erstmal heute morgen. Ich wünsche euch ein tolles Wochenende!!!! Was steht bei euch so an? Bis später!!!😘 Ach und be or ich es vergesse, auf dem Bild seht ihr rohen Hafer-Bananen porridge mit Feigen, Kürbiskuchen und Äpfel. Ich muss euch nicht sagen wie gut das war oder?
Uhr mlchte hiermit auch noch bei der #autumnfoodparty von Laura und Klara @laurafruitfairy @klaraslife mit machen m..
Ach und meine #pumpkinparty17 gibt es auch noch..die Regeln findet ihr unter einem der letzten Bilder
WIAT 9/22/17 - I was supposed to liquid fast today, but it didn't go 100% as planned. I am really happy with myself today though.
Breakfast was coffee with vanilla almond milk and dark chocolate coconut dairy free yogurt. (I know yogurt isn't a straight liquid. But there was no chewing required, it was really thin, and had protein, thus I still "ate" it.) ☕
Lunch was a greens juice blend. 🍂 🍎 .
I also had some unsweetened black tea that my boyfriend bought me a little while ago.
Dinner was oatmeal with a few toppings because I was home alone and it was either eat a little solid food or binge so I'm okay with it. .
TW: I'm still at 818 calories and this is all I'm having. In my mind this is better than binging again. I burned off 200 from exercise to remove some guilt. Idk why I feel the need to say this but I should be honest so that's what I'm doing.
I'm (very) slowly but surely learning that my recovery is dependent on being able to listen. This morning I had amazing donuts and this afternoon I had a lot of urges to skip lunch -- but instead of pushing those thoughts away as hard as I could, I asked myself why? Why was I wanting to deprive my body nourishment? It was because I didn't think I deserved to enjoy myself. Once I realized where the urges were coming from, I was able to handle them more effectively. Instead of depriving myself enjoyment, I took a nice sunny walk down to @peacefoodnyc and brought my journal and ate an incredible veggie-packed bowl of goodness. I never would've been able to listen to myself and act accordingly a few months ago, and I'm really really proud.
The deal is the same here: if i eat my meals and 2 nutridrink a day, they dont feed me by the tube. It is quite fair i guess
They weight me in the afternoon and i was like a kilo (900g) heavier than i was on Tuesday. Noo i knew it i knew i gained so much 😭 i know it wasnt my real weight and it is a different scale but still. Animal products made me fat 2 years ago too,it will happen again
For the past couple of months I have been falling apart at a speeding pace and I don't know how to stop it. I am exhausted. I am exhausted of hating everything, I am exhausted of hating everyone, I am exhausted of hating myself.
I often find myself sitting in my room, laundry piled up, not having showered in over a week, calling in sick and canceling plans to just sleep and binge and purge all day. I go from day to day, not living, just existing, not seeing a point in anything and not enjoying anything. All I do is sit at home, watch others live life and hate myself for not being able to be what they are. I am tired of it.
I am tired of not being able to focus, tired of not having hope, tired of not seeing a future for myself. Tired of being tired. I am going to work to sort stuff out, clear my mind, be a better person. I want to enjoy things I used to enjoy: reading, art, music. Things that now just seem too exhausting and too pointless.
I want to start making choices that will make me happy and help me move towards a brighter future, not drag me down further. This shit is scary as hell, I know I will have to overcome hurdles, open up again, heal wounds, restart taking meds. In time all those things will have to happen, and they are terrifying but also necessary in order to find the last bits of hope and happiness inside of me.
So I did a thing...After tasting the most amazing and probably the best tasting raw tiramisu dessert I've ever had from @purezzauk I knew I had to try and recreate it! This will be dusted with raw cacao powder later too! I've been feeling really down and low about my diabetes unfortunately suffering from a lot of hypos at home and work for the past few days and my low mood isn't budging. I've been super stressed meaning literally passing out this morning and it was really scary! Luckily nothing to do with my diabetes so I couldn't tell you why it happened so I was really shaken after 😓old thoughts of restricting have kicked in meaning I'm skipping meals BUT I am honestly trying my hardest for this not to happen. I have never had a relapse before and I'm not going to have one either. Weight gain is so tough to deal with but gaining weight means I've also gained my life and confidence back. I'm just so drained from having to deal with diabetes at the moment and I'm allowing myself to not rush to treat lows and my mum is very weary of this 😓 as she's also connected to my dexcom app so she can see the amount of hypos I'm having. Tomorrow is a new day and I am going to try my hardest to be positive as I know my life could be 1000 x worse than it is now 😓 p.s a cheeky bit of the base somehow snuck on top of the filling 🤔
Met up with @aspoonfulofhealth_ and @knfx for a final 🍩feast at @dunwelldoughnuts! I got 🍓 and 🍏 frosted donuts and a pumpkin pie latte. War richtig schön mit euch, Kai und Lissi! Bis zum nächsten Mal 💕