Last night I was finally ready to start packing.
Filled with empowerment and followed by many tears. It's hard to separate the years into his and her piles. As I start moving things into their perspective places Donation, Trash, Sell,Storage, Stay with Me; The only things besides the necessities in my keep pile are my plants, artwork,pictures, crystals, driftwood and books. I've been here before and my "keepers" always look the same. The rest is just shit that I manage to collect to then turn around and purge.
Tiny lessons floating around everywhere, I'm now aware ♡
So this morning has been a bit of a roller coaster in a roller coaster. I have hit a huge adjustment period in the uae nearing the 6 month mark and it turns out I'm not invincible (cries every other day ATM) and I've had to really look at getting my head and heart around a lot. Socially fitting in here revolves a lot around drinking, just a personal feeling and a huge part of it has been prior to moving I was in a great place with my fitness and my physique and a social group that really reflected where I was at in my life. I was off the sugar, training regularly and back oly lifting post shoulder rehab well in a nut shell it all went to shit moving abroad. My training has been sporadic and when I did I would do a weeks worth of training and be so sore the next day because I was trying to compensate for how I felt both mentally and physically. I have found a new home @mprovefitness this week and having a 1 day break in nights ATM meant zero sleep last night. So I waited from 1am to 5am to get ready for training then sat in the car park for the it to open at six. Training was another mixed bag. My form was off, my bar path left a lot to be desired and I couldn't finish a WOD I set myself after. Sitting at breakfast now I could eat my weight in bread baskets but that won't really solve things will it (tells self repeatedly it won't 😔). What I'm trying to say is I don't have it all together and there's so much about my life (work, personal and fitness) that I want to improve on. I am striving for goals that are so far reaching that I feel sick sometimes thinking if I can really do it and to top it off I moved alone to the other side of the world 🌎. All I am saying is I have to just smile (no filter and I think I have something in my teeth 😂) and give myself some slack on the rope. I have met some really wonderful people and have had to learn to open up a bit and realise I'm actually not alone. Situations may vary but the sentiment remains the same.
So if you have read this far please give yourself a ✋ , know how beautiful you are, how intelligent and funny your soul are and that you will do everything you set yourself it's just not a straight road.
Ok.. So I'm posting this dinner as a mother of 3 young children trying to lose weight and not being ashamed of the meals I eat that aren't up to "par" with my healthy eating. Yes I eat mostly healthy but there are days (like today) that are more of the crazy then usual and all I wanted to eat was this chicken breast, these AMAZING new spicy chile and cheese chips and a few powdered donuts. Yes this meal is junk food mainly but NO it will not discourage me from losing my baby weight and my healthy eating. I also do not feel bad for eating it. I'm a mother to 3 beautiful young girls and if my dinner contains donuts then hey !!!WINNING!!! 😊 #yummy#momof3#losingbabyweight#fitmom#3girls#babyis3monthsold#gymflow#mydinnertonight#wehaveallbeenhere#idontonlypostthehealthyfood