"Tear of Elation at a Liminal Moment" by Emma 'DilEmma Blue' DeBoer
"What is the meaning of life?"
& from that,
For most, at first glance,
it seems miniscule.
Only noticed in hindsight.
Can be confused
with an annoying itch
that we can't reach.
A repetitive pattern
that we can't break.
Mere coincidence.. What a silly
distortion of the truth
Now, I laugh at this idea.
When before, I sulked in it's misery.
The nihilism & apathy of it. (Perception;
And the ability and willingness
to change it,
is a fundamental concept,
that many people
tend to skip over
when in the pursuit of happiness.
It is what can break you,
or what can make you.
And, whether you like it or not,
that choice is yours.) Anyhow,
from this idea of perception,
what I now see as,
and synchronized loopholes
saved me from my
one sided view of this
endlessly open-ended and beautiful
life that we are experiencing!! & Within this dance,
I discovered the meaning was
no other than... This.
Inquiry cried but one
For, no more questions
Crise dos 30 — Amor e Relacionamentos
Quem diria que um dia eu teria medo de amar?
Primeiramente quero deixar claro: Sou uma pessoa intensa e impulsiva. Já falei sobre o fogo de Sagitário e como isso causa alguns estragos na minha vida. O Jota Quest resume bem meu conceito sobre o amor: "Então seguirei meu coração até o fim, pra saber se é amor
Magoarei mesmo assim, mesmo sem querer, pra saber se é amor
Mas estarei mais feliz mesmo morrendo de dor
Pra saber se é amor, se é amor"
O fato é, eu não sei fazer outra coisa senão amar. Mas…isso não quer dizer que eu sou boa em relacionamentos amorosos. E justamente por chegar à essa conclusão que surgiu um novo medo com a crise dos 30 anos: o de amar.
Desde minha primeira paixonite (seria tão bom se o termo “crush” existisse naquela época, é bem mais legal de falar), eu nunca tive medo de amar e de me jogar de braços abertos numa relação.
Eu conheci muitos caras, alguns legais e outros nem tanto (tenho traumas de alguns até hoje, mas isso é assunto pras próximas crônicas), e eu nunca tive medo de me envolver, porém com a mesma rapidez que eu começava um novo relacionamento, eu o terminava.
Mas todas as vezes que eu terminava um relacionamento, alguém saía magoado e então percebi o estrago que estava deixando pra trás com esse meu jeito de amar-sem-medidas-mas-com-prazo-de-validade.
Esse comportamento me perseguiu a vida toda, e eu sempre pensava: talvez eu não tenha encontrado a pessoa certa, bla bla bla. Mas será que existe pessoa certa? Eu digo que não.
Quando me dei conta de que minha felicidade não dependia de uma pessoa ao meu lado e que eu não concordava com essa relação de dependência, o “não vivo sem você” começou a soar estranho para os meus ouvidos e pro meu coração.
Terminei um relacionamento que estava prestes à evoluir para o patamar máximo do amor (casamento), e segui em frente. Sem saber exatamente o que eu estava fazendo, eu joguei tudo pro alto em busca da felicidade dentro de mim.
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We never really grow up.
The child in us gets embedded somewhere.
By @roof_talks_ .
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(The Nameless Scribblers)
It's so strange that all of a sudden I've started feeling nothing for you. The entire senses of mine are doing perfectly fine without you, unlike past where I used to cringe and crumble my bedsheet inside my fist to express the anger and helplessness I had. But maybe there is still a small corner left that blindly awaits you and makes me remember the last hug that you gave me which was so warm that it almost burnt me. I still remember that my body was burning like fire whereas my soul was as cold as an iceberg which was finding its way back to sea. But maybe that heat was nothing other than the memories I had that you helped me burn in the best possible way you could. Maybe you destroyed them on your own with that fiery touch of yours that today when I look back, I don't feel empty but clean. Clean in mind with lots of peace residing inside me peacefully and clean without any chaos left huddling here and there tumbling inside my heart. I feel light. Maybe this is how a new dawn rises right?
. . . .
Everything I have been through it was meant to shape me. Sometimes we don't understand why things happen in our lives. Sometimes we think we won't be able to make it without that one person who loved so much. We have all gone through heart breaks. We have experienced pain in a time of our lives. But what we thought was going to breaks us it actually build us to who we are today. The day I decided to move on with life and leave my past where it belonged I found myself👌🏾🔑"the day you learn to cherish your alone time, the day you value your worth, the day you love and put yourself first that's the day that you won't ever ever ever settle for less or entertain what's not meant for you" The older I get the more I realize that love is a inside job. If you don't love yourself and you're not healed within you won't ever be able to love anyone else. Ps. Before you go and build with a partner make sure you have healed from your past and make sure you know your worth❤️ #latinawriter#writerblog
If life was a fairytale,
I believe it wouldn't be as beautiful.
I mean how the worst memories,
Engraved sufferings and broken edges,
Can turn into a sculpture of strength.
I mean how come pain and pleasure
Can go beyond the power of perception.
I think life in its purest form,
The raw reality in all its nature,
The scars of my rise and fall,
The light of curiosity in my eyes,
The desire to seek my true self,
The calm of my inner storm,
The silence of my sins,
My passion - compassion, my growing empathy,
I think these are the real story tellers,
Narrating stories of my journey
and the beauty lies within them.
My beauty is not on the outside,
My beauty can't be measured,
My beauty is an experience,
My beauty is valued,
My beauty is my pride,
I am beautiful.
Life is a fairytale,
When you're not accepting bullshit that's served.
I define my own beauty,
So can you...
Closed eyes and Divine lights.
In my dreams I search for lights and during my peacemaking meditation I see many different colours of light when my eyes are closed and then after, everything is only visible when there is light.
A monochromatic light gives so many colours.
A believe can scatter so many dreams.
And then suddenly there are cosmic dances I could see in my tight closed eyes,
The most pure and manifestly indulged shiva swaroopa - The Natraja.
And when I am in good mood with intuitive understanding I feel like dancing.
It gives me utmost happiness and actually the dance itself is the meaning of happiness.
They say to reach salvation is the only way to leave away the knots of this phantasm but No.
In this negligible nature of happiness , Collection of the bliss showered from the universe and eterntiy of the diving inside the soul which makes you find ecstacy inside and not search it or run to grab it in other human beings or things , can make you reach to ataraxia state when you are alive.
Who says the death is peace and salvation is the only sooth.
Your mind becomes a rocky thing and your soul only overflows in your watery eyes.
The body is only made up of cells and not the power which this universe adapts and grasps from each other, it is gifted to explore this world and not to stay on this earth permanently , so as to use as the source of reaching the non reincarnation level.
To explore is to live.
You are not the body and the light seen is the glimpse of the fire of the soul when you try to detach from the mundane things and then after you feel light as ballon makes you jumping and flying. This happens only when you are alive and then this becomes the auspicious time to feel those gracious moves and then it becomes another swaroopa of Natraj.
Natraja in a Homosapien
How marvellously ironic and beautiful magic.
Although the bookstores are filled with books telling us how to be happy, how to find love, how to be our best selves, and how to live our best lives, the only true way to live your best life is to refuse to settle for anything less than your best life. There are so many ways to cut corners in today's world. Instead of baking our food, we microwave it. Instead of using diet and exercise to lose weight, we turn to plastic surgery. Instead of "till death do us part" we have a seventy-two-day marriages. We have drive-through restaurants, drive-through markets, even drive-through wedding chapels! Everything is done so rapidly; sometimes we forget that a quality life wasn't built in a day. If you want your life to be a five-star reality, you have to stop settling for a fast-food mentality! When you refuse to settle for less than the best, the best tends to track you down. My point is this: refuse to lower your standards, your aspirations, and your expectations for any reason. We were not put here on this earth to barely squeak by and settle for a lukewarm, watered-down version of life, or to live in a fear of what other people will think. Our live can't rise any higher than our standards. Rise above settling in life or in love. And next time someone tells you your standards are too high, don't apologize. Tell them, "thank you" the standards you set determine the life you get. And those who know their worth don't even entertain the lesser things. They hold out for the best things.🔑✍🏾 #latinawriter#writerblog#writerslife