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I love you. 
Lie.
There's no one else.
Lie.
You're worthless.
Lie.
You'll never meet someone else like me.
Truth - I wouldn't want to. 
catherinenoir #writersofig #poet #poem #poems #poetic #poetry #poetrycommunity #poetsofinstagram  #poeticsoul #love #lovehurts #letgo #words #writer #writing #wordporn #writetoheal #writersofinstagram #womenwhowrite #catherinenoir #soul #soulsearching #imisshim #imissyou #inkspill #spilledink #iloveyou #broken #brokengirl #hurt
I love you. Lie. There's no one else. Lie. You're worthless. Lie. You'll never meet someone else like me. Truth - I wouldn't want to. catherinenoir #writersofig  #poet  #poem  #poems  #poetic  #poetry  #poetrycommunity  #poetsofinstagram  #poeticsoul  #love  #lovehurts  #letgo  #words  #writer  #writing  #wordporn  #writetoheal  #writersofinstagram  #womenwhowrite  #catherinenoir  #soul  #soulsearching  #imisshim  #imissyou  #inkspill  #spilledink  #iloveyou  #broken  #brokengirl  #hurt 
This piece is for a song that reminds me of high school..."Killing In The Name" by Rage Against the Machine.  It opened my eyes to several things going on in the world.  It lit my flares for activism.  During the last couple of years in high school, I underwent a significant change.  I opened my eyes.  #songsoftribeslam #augusttribeslam #poeticstuff #wordsfromrosy #poetryflow #poetrycommunity #writersunite #writersofinstagram #writingcommunity #writingprompts #writingchallenge #writetoheal #writersofpoetry #writersoftheworld #worldofwords #worldofpoetry #poetsoftheworld #poetswithapurpose #artistrywithwords #wordsmith #rageagainstthemachine #killinginthename
This piece is for a song that reminds me of high school..."Killing In The Name" by Rage Against the Machine. It opened my eyes to several things going on in the world. It lit my flares for activism. During the last couple of years in high school, I underwent a significant change. I opened my eyes. #songsoftribeslam  #augusttribeslam  #poeticstuff  #wordsfromrosy  #poetryflow  #poetrycommunity  #writersunite  #writersofinstagram  #writingcommunity  #writingprompts  #writingchallenge  #writetoheal  #writersofpoetry  #writersoftheworld  #worldofwords  #worldofpoetry  #poetsoftheworld  #poetswithapurpose  #artistrywithwords  #wordsmith  #rageagainstthemachine  #killinginthename 
I'm so scared tonight.I feel like I've been lowly sliding back .. Back to those feelings and those thoughts. And I'm so inwardly terrified . I did so much hard work . It took so much strength And I'm afraid I won't be able to do it again... It's like watching a thunderstorm roll in._the dark clouds in the distance . Ominous, blocking out the light slowly as it moves in. Then the rain little drops at first like the symptoms- the memory loss the vague detachment , dissociation ,isolation emptiness . It's familiar and you look out knowing what to expect next, as it covers you in darkness. I don't mind the rain but the thunder ... Loud loud loud like a silent scream . .
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#thunder #rain #writingtherapy #writetokeepcalm #writetoheal #anxiety #mood #depression #afraid
I'm so scared tonight.I feel like I've been lowly sliding back .. Back to those feelings and those thoughts. And I'm so inwardly terrified . I did so much hard work . It took so much strength And I'm afraid I won't be able to do it again... It's like watching a thunderstorm roll in._the dark clouds in the distance . Ominous, blocking out the light slowly as it moves in. Then the rain little drops at first like the symptoms- the memory loss the vague detachment , dissociation ,isolation emptiness . It's familiar and you look out knowing what to expect next, as it covers you in darkness. I don't mind the rain but the thunder ... Loud loud loud like a silent scream . . . . . #thunder  #rain  #writingtherapy  #writetokeepcalm  #writetoheal  #anxiety  #mood  #depression  #afraid 
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I sit in the place I feel closest to you,
By the river where we used to come swimming in summer, we used to dangle our feet over the jetty and laugh up at the sky with the warm summer sun kissing the surface of our skins leaving freckled reminders of adventures over coastlines and afternoon swims. If I close me eyes sometimes I think I hear your voice , in the birds calling from the trees , the water lapping the shoreline or the combined laughter of kids playing in the park. .
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#deepwater #stayafloat #depression #writingtherapy #writetokeepcalm #writetoheal #anxious #anxiety
... I sit in the place I feel closest to you, By the river where we used to come swimming in summer, we used to dangle our feet over the jetty and laugh up at the sky with the warm summer sun kissing the surface of our skins leaving freckled reminders of adventures over coastlines and afternoon swims. If I close me eyes sometimes I think I hear your voice , in the birds calling from the trees , the water lapping the shoreline or the combined laughter of kids playing in the park. . . . . #deepwater  #stayafloat  #depression  #writingtherapy  #writetokeepcalm  #writetoheal  #anxious  #anxiety 
I call this one; "Pressure" ๐Ÿ’†๐Ÿฝ
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#writetoheal#writetoexpress#writetorelate
Don't mind me. I'm just after Peters shadow so I can go off to Neverland. ๐Ÿ’š๐Ÿ’š Nighty night. ๐Ÿ›Œ๐Ÿ’š๐Ÿ˜ด #peterpan #neverland #petersshadow #bedtime #nightnght #sleeptime #takemeaway #followtheshadow
This is a face that is ready for cool weather. ๐ŸฆŒโค๏ธ๐ŸฆŒ๐Ÿ–ค๐ŸฆŒโค๏ธ๐ŸฆŒ #readyforcolderweather #bringonfall #imadeer #darklipstick #seriousface #whysoserious #snapchatfilter
The sun came out to play... so did I... Oh my gracious... the aroma of these freshly picked herbs from the garden are divine... Italian parsley, thyme, oregano, and sprigs of rosemary... looks like tonight's will be a creative dish with fresh herbs. Do you grow herbs in your garden? What's your favourite? ๐Ÿ™ #grateful #herbs #garden #sustainableliving #healthyfood from #nature #writetoheal #writerslife #photography #sunshine
The Astronomy of Ghosts by Chris McCool @_chris_mccool_ is quite special to me. Chris trusted me to edit his stunning collection and with his beautiful photographs he allowed my vision for his cover to become a reality. This is the first book I have had the privilege to edit, one of which I am proud and so grateful. I couldn't have asked for a more generous spirit for my first experience. Not only is Chris' book as poignant and gorgeous as his IG page, but we are already working on his second one. If you have not picked up a copy, I highly recommend you own one or three. He does not shy away for being both the patient and the surgeon in his self-examination. You will feel something. I promise you that. Feel him. Follow him. Support him. The link to his book is on his page.
#chrismccool #theastronomyofghosts  #mustread #realdeal #firstbook #book #worthit #author #writer #poet #write #editor #coverart #photography #potd #heartfelt #honest #beautiful #writetoheal #writetofeel #writetodeal #published #poetsofinstagram #writersofinstagram #poetsofig #writersofig
The Astronomy of Ghosts by Chris McCool @_chris_mccool_ is quite special to me. Chris trusted me to edit his stunning collection and with his beautiful photographs he allowed my vision for his cover to become a reality. This is the first book I have had the privilege to edit, one of which I am proud and so grateful. I couldn't have asked for a more generous spirit for my first experience. Not only is Chris' book as poignant and gorgeous as his IG page, but we are already working on his second one. If you have not picked up a copy, I highly recommend you own one or three. He does not shy away for being both the patient and the surgeon in his self-examination. You will feel something. I promise you that. Feel him. Follow him. Support him. The link to his book is on his page. #chrismccool  #theastronomyofghosts  #mustread  #realdeal  #firstbook  #book  #worthit  #author  #writer  #poet  #write  #editor  #coverart  #photography  #potd  #heartfelt  #honest  #beautiful  #writetoheal  #writetofeel  #writetodeal  #published  #poetsofinstagram  #writersofinstagram  #poetsofig  #writersofig 
Sometimes post-meeting binge writing session looks like this. A It's clear summer is coming to a close, I'm the only one left in the park to hear the crickets and birds sing their lullabies. It feel good to put thoughts into a word document and close the computer. The air is light and my soul is grateful for this little bit of solitude.
Sometimes post-meeting binge writing session looks like this. A It's clear summer is coming to a close, I'm the only one left in the park to hear the crickets and birds sing their lullabies. It feel good to put thoughts into a word document and close the computer. The air is light and my soul is grateful for this little bit of solitude.
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead. 
You know how the time flies
Only yesterday was the time of our lives
We were born and raised
In a summer haze
Bound by the surprise of our glory days. 
#moments #seeme #thoughts #lyrics #amwriting #calm #breathe #adele #oneofakind #behappy #emotions #storyteller #summer #yesterdaysstory #livelifetothefullest #surpriseme #fightforlove #writetoheal #iloveyoustill #lovewins #love #lovelove ๐Ÿ’•
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead. You know how the time flies Only yesterday was the time of our lives We were born and raised In a summer haze Bound by the surprise of our glory days. #moments  #seeme  #thoughts  #lyrics  #amwriting  #calm  #breathe  #adele  #oneofakind  #behappy  #emotions  #storyteller  #summer  #yesterdaysstory  #livelifetothefullest  #surpriseme  #fightforlove  #writetoheal  #iloveyoustill  #lovewins  #love  #lovelove  ๐Ÿ’•
Off to a nutritious start to the day... apples, oranges, celery, carrot, kiwi fruit, parsley, ginger and a squeeze of lemon juice ๐Ÿ‘Œ๐Ÿ’ƒ๐Ÿผ
#writetoheal #fruit #freshjuice #nutrition #healthybreakfast #writerslife #bejoyful #thesunisshining #happy #juicing #saturdayvibes #alive #blessed #grateful
This is for the naysayers, the negative people, the envious, the resentful, and the fakers.  You ain't gonna stop me, so don't even try! ๐Ÿ’๐Ÿฝ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿฝ๐Ÿ‘‹๐Ÿฝ๐Ÿ˜‰ #poetry #poetryislove #poetryisart #poetrykeepsmefromkickingass #breathe #letitgo #defendyourself #bestrong #beyou #dontapologizeforbeingyou #freedomfromsellingout #honesty #is #always #thebestpolicy #nobodysperfect #writing #writingmood #writersofinstagram #writetoheal #writingisawayoflife #tgif #happyweekend
This is for the naysayers, the negative people, the envious, the resentful, and the fakers. You ain't gonna stop me, so don't even try! ๐Ÿ’๐Ÿฝ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿฝ๐Ÿ‘‹๐Ÿฝ๐Ÿ˜‰ #poetry  #poetryislove  #poetryisart  #poetrykeepsmefromkickingass  #breathe  #letitgo  #defendyourself  #bestrong  #beyou  #dontapologizeforbeingyou  #freedomfromsellingout  #honesty  #is  #always  #thebestpolicy  #nobodysperfect  #writing  #writingmood  #writersofinstagram  #writetoheal  #writingisawayoflife  #tgif  #happyweekend 
Tear stained cheeks is not a look I wear well. 
Sometimes we don't talk about something because it means everything to us, and sometimes we don't talk because it opens freshly healed wounds. 
catherinenoir #writersofig #poet #poem #poems #poetic #poetry #poetrycommunity #poetsofinstagram  #poeticsoul #love #lovehurts #letgo #words #writer #writing #wordporn #writetoheal #writersofinstagram #womenwhowrite #catherinenoir #soul #soulsearching #imisshim #imissyou #inkspill #spilledink #iloveyou #broken #brokengirl #hurt
Tear stained cheeks is not a look I wear well. Sometimes we don't talk about something because it means everything to us, and sometimes we don't talk because it opens freshly healed wounds. catherinenoir #writersofig  #poet  #poem  #poems  #poetic  #poetry  #poetrycommunity  #poetsofinstagram  #poeticsoul  #love  #lovehurts  #letgo  #words  #writer  #writing  #wordporn  #writetoheal  #writersofinstagram  #womenwhowrite  #catherinenoir  #soul  #soulsearching  #imisshim  #imissyou  #inkspill  #spilledink  #iloveyou  #broken  #brokengirl  #hurt 
Eclipsed 
Eclipsed from my consciousness like the light from the sun
Standing in darkness until the moon is all done

When I open my eyes, again you're not there
But this time, you're completely gone - you're nowhere 
You're not in my heart, not in my soul 
Breathing your name no longer takes it's toll

I can say it with ease, listen & look - you will see
The tears and the lump are no longer a part of me

And what little is left of you clambering around in my head
Will be fed to the buzzards with everything else that is dead

So when the sun escapes the moon, shining as brightly as can be
You will be gone - no longer living rent free inside of me
#lunargirlmusings  #eclipse2017 #eclipsed #eclipse #leolunareclipse #fireandwater #sagittarius #cancer #cancerian #dragon #shonuff #pictograph #poeticjustice #waterandfire #SS #poemsofig #celestial #astrophotography #astrology #astrologyposts #jupiterinleo #poemsthatrhyme #writetoheal #writemore #agirlcandream #lettinggo #neverquitquitting  #grandwatertrine #mysticrectangle #tsquare
Eclipsed Eclipsed from my consciousness like the light from the sun Standing in darkness until the moon is all done When I open my eyes, again you're not there But this time, you're completely gone - you're nowhere You're not in my heart, not in my soul Breathing your name no longer takes it's toll I can say it with ease, listen & look - you will see The tears and the lump are no longer a part of me And what little is left of you clambering around in my head Will be fed to the buzzards with everything else that is dead So when the sun escapes the moon, shining as brightly as can be You will be gone - no longer living rent free inside of me #lunargirlmusings  #eclipse2017  #eclipsed  #eclipse  #leolunareclipse  #fireandwater  #sagittarius  #cancer  #cancerian  #dragon  #shonuff  #pictograph  #poeticjustice  #waterandfire  #SS  #poemsofig  #celestial  #astrophotography  #astrology  #astrologyposts  #jupiterinleo  #poemsthatrhyme  #writetoheal  #writemore  #agirlcandream  #lettinggo  #neverquitquitting  #grandwatertrine  #mysticrectangle  #tsquare 
Nothing in the world is more important than sanity but sanity is not something to be chased.- Often times when they push you away the most is when you must be present the most. You cannot control someone but you can control how you respond. 
For my loved ones; I am with you, nothing can change that.
Nothing in the world is more important than sanity but sanity is not something to be chased.- Often times when they push you away the most is when you must be present the most. You cannot control someone but you can control how you respond. For my loved ones; I am with you, nothing can change that.
I pour feeling and emotion ink on to the paper .
They become winged words to my freedom and aspirations .
They fly out of the throbbing sighing heart 
To messages that I send you with the word art . #poetry #poetrycommunity #poetryinlife #poetryclub #poet #poetrycommunity #poetsofinstagram #writers #write #writetoheal #writetolive #writetoinspire #love #life #words #angels #angelic #AngelDreams #angelwings
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I've decided the next 12 days before the rigorous school schedules, gymnastics schedules, conference schedules,  paper writing, global work, trampoline classes for Hayden begin and teaching, I must do some necessary self care.  Focusing my energy on healthy eating, healthy conversations, and building this spiritual temple is critical.  Releasing toxic energy, trading it in for a healthy lifestyle is a commitment that requires me to literally slow down.  I believe 2017 will finish strong because I know  God is able! Join me and share some of the ways you promote a healthy lifestyle and shut out the noise in your life.  #writetoheal #writetoinspire #healthylifestyle #balancedliving #spiritualmaintenance
I've decided the next 12 days before the rigorous school schedules, gymnastics schedules, conference schedules, paper writing, global work, trampoline classes for Hayden begin and teaching, I must do some necessary self care. Focusing my energy on healthy eating, healthy conversations, and building this spiritual temple is critical. Releasing toxic energy, trading it in for a healthy lifestyle is a commitment that requires me to literally slow down. I believe 2017 will finish strong because I know God is able! Join me and share some of the ways you promote a healthy lifestyle and shut out the noise in your life. #writetoheal  #writetoinspire  #healthylifestyle  #balancedliving  #spiritualmaintenance 
Here's a #mashup piece from me and my actual #grlnxtdr @__nataliejensen .  Completely a #throwbackthursday but something cute to see again. (Like us together again lady!). #tbt
#writetoheal#poetsofig#communityofwriters#lovenotes#lust#poems#womenwhowrite#balance#wordart#wordsmith#thepowerofwords#love#sex#relationships#passion#sapiosexual#loveharder#dirtysweetpoetry #twodirtyprettythings ๐Ÿ˜‰๐Ÿ’‹#fridayfeeling
Dream big princess. ๐Ÿ’™๐ŸŒ•๐ŸŒŸ๐Ÿ˜ด๐Ÿ›Œ๐Ÿ’š #nightynght #dreambig #bedtime #snooze #sleepytime #sotired #goodnightworld
I am simply amazed to watch the writers here come together for #poetryheals2017. Reading your stories and seeing the support and hope you ignite... wow. Thank you for being vulnerable and using your voice to bring light and support to those around you.
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Now for the second prompt:
Take some time to reflect and choose a metaphor for your mind. Then build a piece from it. It can be anything, just an object that you feel embodies you. Introspection is a powerful tool in understanding yourself and separating who you are from the baggage you carry. Your struggles don't define you.
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Ps. If you're new to the challenge and haven't created a piece for why you "stay" yet, look back to my last few posts and write to unite with us as we raise awareness leading up to world suicide prevention day on September 10th๐Ÿ–ค
I am simply amazed to watch the writers here come together for #poetryheals2017 . Reading your stories and seeing the support and hope you ignite... wow. Thank you for being vulnerable and using your voice to bring light and support to those around you. - Now for the second prompt: Take some time to reflect and choose a metaphor for your mind. Then build a piece from it. It can be anything, just an object that you feel embodies you. Introspection is a powerful tool in understanding yourself and separating who you are from the baggage you carry. Your struggles don't define you. - Ps. If you're new to the challenge and haven't created a piece for why you "stay" yet, look back to my last few posts and write to unite with us as we raise awareness leading up to world suicide prevention day on September 10th๐Ÿ–ค
Rain storms equal her sitting on my feet. ๐Ÿค—โ›ˆ๐ŸŒงโ›ˆ๐Ÿถ๐Ÿ’š #rainstorms #latesummerrain #sadielou #muttsofinstagram #blackdogsofinstagram #furbaby #hatesthunder
Final pic from the Civic Reserve Mornington collection from my walk last Sunday.... waiting patiently for the sunshine so I can investigate my new surroundings ๐Ÿ‘€๐Ÿ˜
#photography #writetoheal #exploring #naturesbeauty #thegreatoutdoors #breathe #happy #beyou #youbeyou
๐Ÿ˜‰๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ˜Ž๐Ÿ’–#Repost @glitterdrizzle (@get_repost)
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For every whim, I spin a coin,  let it toil!
For the milk in that copper shall never spoil!
I push way those obstacles!
That are the declared trouble pinnacles!
The milk and copper spell! 
Is my lucky well! 
Saves me from misfortunes and people wonder how I survive the beautiful hell!
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#milkandvodka #milkandcoins #honey #spin #a #coin #glitterandhoney #honeyiloveyou #handsfullheartfull #home #honey #glitterdrizzle #writemoreletters  #writetoheal #writeabook #wrotetoday #writerso๏ฌnstagram
๐Ÿ˜‰๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ˜Ž๐Ÿ’–#Repost  @glitterdrizzle (@get_repost) ใƒปใƒปใƒป For every whim, I spin a coin, let it toil! For the milk in that copper shall never spoil! I push way those obstacles! That are the declared trouble pinnacles! The milk and copper spell! Is my lucky well! Saves me from misfortunes and people wonder how I survive the beautiful hell! . . #milkandvodka  #milkandcoins  #honey  #spin  #a  #coin  #glitterandhoney  #honeyiloveyou  #handsfullheartfull  #home  #honey  #glitterdrizzle  #writemoreletters  #writetoheal  #writeabook  #wrotetoday  #writerso๏ฌnstagram 
Who said you had to be an achiever, dream big and aspire to go down in history in order to feel like your life was worth something? You know I'm all for big dreams, but I simply can't stand it when I see people pushing the idea that if you aren't dreaming big then you must secretly be unhappy. I've shared this and some of my other thoughts on the subject up on the blog today. Click the link in my bio to read today's blog post, You Don't Have To Dream Big To Be Happy! #lifeoffthereel #ontheblog #newblogpost
Who said you had to be an achiever, dream big and aspire to go down in history in order to feel like your life was worth something? You know I'm all for big dreams, but I simply can't stand it when I see people pushing the idea that if you aren't dreaming big then you must secretly be unhappy. I've shared this and some of my other thoughts on the subject up on the blog today. Click the link in my bio to read today's blog post, You Don't Have To Dream Big To Be Happy! #lifeoffthereel  #ontheblog  #newblogpost 
Thunderbird. ๐Ÿ’›โšก๏ธ๐ŸŒฉโ›ˆ๐Ÿ’› #ilvermornyhouse #fantasticbeasts #myfavorite #newtscamander #stunning #onemoreyeartogo #adveturer
minutiae (n.) the small, precise details that make one unique #wordoftheday #lifeoffthereel #allinthedetails
Never give up on anyone & that includes not giving up on yourself.
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Written by: @akansha_suri 
#quoteoftheday#writersofinstagram#writersofig #anxiety #anxietyquotes #readersofinstagram #writerscommunity #poetsofinstagram #writetoheal #spilledink
For every whim, I spin a coin,  let it toil!
For the milk in that copper shall never spoil!
I push way those obstacles!
That are the declared trouble pinnacles!
The milk and copper spell! 
Is my lucky well! 
Saves me from misfortunes and people wonder how I survive the beautiful hell!
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#milkandvodka #milkandcoins #honey #spin #a #coin #glitterandhoney #honeyiloveyou #handsfullheartfull #home #honey #glitterdrizzle #writemoreletters  #writetoheal #writeabook #wrotetoday #writersofinstagram
For every whim, I spin a coin, let it toil! For the milk in that copper shall never spoil! I push way those obstacles! That are the declared trouble pinnacles! The milk and copper spell! Is my lucky well! Saves me from misfortunes and people wonder how I survive the beautiful hell! . . #milkandvodka  #milkandcoins  #honey  #spin  #a  #coin  #glitterandhoney  #honeyiloveyou  #handsfullheartfull  #home  #honey  #glitterdrizzle  #writemoreletters  #writetoheal  #writeabook  #wrotetoday  #writersofinstagram 
The way my heart has been tugged at these past couple weeks, let's me know something is happening.  If I continue to push through, God will see me through.  You might be experiencing an overwhelming amount of fear, anxiety , grief and confusion between the world, your own life or things happening with a loved one.  Trust God and know that this too shall pass. #writetoheal #writetoinspire #travelmom #spiritualmaintenance #
The way my heart has been tugged at these past couple weeks, let's me know something is happening. If I continue to push through, God will see me through. You might be experiencing an overwhelming amount of fear, anxiety , grief and confusion between the world, your own life or things happening with a loved one. Trust God and know that this too shall pass. #writetoheal  #writetoinspire  #travelmom  #spiritualmaintenance  #
Late Night Journal - on becoming the best version of yourself. We are all human, we all make mistakes and we all feel lost at some point or another. Discovering yourself only comes from acknowledging your experiences. Sometimes experiencing certain emotions can overwhelm us and we make mistakes, myself included. Find your way of remaining calm or distracting yourself during these moments. You cannot control all situations in life, but you can control how you react to them. Easier said than done, but we're all human right? The only person you ever need to compare yourself to is the one in the mirror. Don't better yourself to be more like someone else or to please anyone, become the best version of yourself for yourself. Feeling lost is okay, its the only way to truly find yourself
Late Night Journal - on becoming the best version of yourself. We are all human, we all make mistakes and we all feel lost at some point or another. Discovering yourself only comes from acknowledging your experiences. Sometimes experiencing certain emotions can overwhelm us and we make mistakes, myself included. Find your way of remaining calm or distracting yourself during these moments. You cannot control all situations in life, but you can control how you react to them. Easier said than done, but we're all human right? The only person you ever need to compare yourself to is the one in the mirror. Don't better yourself to be more like someone else or to please anyone, become the best version of yourself for yourself. Feeling lost is okay, its the only way to truly find yourself