I always knew I was different from everybody starting at a young age of just 12 years old. It wasn't only because I'm pansexual but because I'm quiet/introverted as well. I had I'm very first true crush on someone when I was 12 .It was a girl. I became friends this girl. We were friends for a good amount of 3 years . Sadly we're not friends anymore and I don't have a crush on her anymore. I first came out to my mother when I was 12. She wasn't really happy about it. She though I was lying and it was a phase . And told me if i was pansexual I was going to hell. At this time in my life I started thinking for myself and I left Christianity for Wicca a very beautiful religion btw. In 8th grade I decided to come out to my mom again her views didn't change she still hated me and told me I was going to hell . Even though I've told her I don't even believe in hell. She would tell me she loves me but I'm going to hell. During this time in my life I was in a deep depression because of bullying/harassment. Which lead to other things like unhealthy coping skills and a suicide attempt . Around this time my grandma was dying as well and the last person in my family that I was close to. In my freshmen year of high school I had my very first gf a butch girl she was verbally abusive toward me and would constantly call me fat which caused me to lose weight she wasn't wrong but it was rude she I broke up with her. Summer of sophomore year I had my second gf she was the best . I loved her so much and she always made me happy. But I was afraid to love her the way I wanted to I want to kiss in public and cuddle in public but I was afraid my mom would find out. So I distanced myself from her . To this day I still feel bad for doing that to the girl I loved. I never got so close emotionally to a girl before. And I felt bad after that breakup cause it was my fault. Middle of my Junior year of high school I decide to come out one last time to my mother . And I was surprised her opinions had changed for the better she loved me. She told me she loved me no matter who I love as long as I'm happy . I'm glad my story has a happy ending .
Come out when ur ready and safe. 💪🏻🏳️🌈#lgbt