The first song I chose to learn on the guitar was "redemption song" by Bob Marley, because the first time I heard the lyrics "emancipate yourselves from mental slavery, none but ourselves can free our minds," my whole body tingled.
It reminded me of my process of healing from an eating disorder.
Back then, I often wondered if there would ever be a day that I didn't hate my body, that I didn't panic about food. Now, years later, I am honored to consider myself recovered and to be a part of a community of women who have struggled in our own mental prison, and have learned to let ourselves out.
Thanks to one of those courageous women, @irismcalpin, you can hear their incredible stories, for free, at http://beyondrecovery.life
My story airs on December 15th.
Recovery, to me, is freedom. It's being able to think about my dreams way more than I think about food or my body. It's not owning a scale. It's not having a panic attack when I grow out of a pair of jeans. It's going to the gym because it makes me feel good, not as a punishment. It's not knowing or caring about the amount of calories in my favorite cookies.
Above all, it's knowing that I don't earn my worth with my weight, with how my body looks, with how little I eat. It's knowing my unconditional worth, lovableness and deservingness.
Time is play dough.
If you don't like what you have, squish it and make something new.
You have to be willing to squish it and make something new.
You don't know how much time you have left.
Or maybe you do.
It doesn't matter.
You still have play dough.
Time can be your friend or your enemy.
Your captor or your freedom.
A sentence or a blessing.
If you have a day or 100 years left.
It doesn't matter.
Either way, all you have is this moment.
If you believe time will make you like yourself less, it will.
If you believe time will allow you to cherish yourself more, it will.
Dinasours aren't in play dough.
They're created from it.
Sacredness isn't in time. It's created from it.
She teaches me about play, about the art of being and about how to love without neediness. She teaches me about wordless communication, companionship and trust. So grateful for this magnificent little being.
I feel like I've been really harping on this message but I think it's sooo important. We are so caught in this illusion that feeling bad about ourselves is going to force us to produce results and eventually make us feel good. But the better we feel, the greater ease we experience and the more efficient we are. We get out of our own way, don't waste time on ego-centric tasks that are out of alignment, and are able to see the clearest, most enjoyable path to fulfilling on our goals! Let's give up this idea that our worth comes from how hard we struggle and replace it with the idea that all that matters is how much we love! For my full articles on topics like this, find me as a featured author on @elephantjournal !!
This is my "I'm forming a business partnership at the same time that I'm getting ready to launch a book and podcast at the same time that I'm prepping for a retreat at the same time that I'm growing my YouTube channel at the same time that I'm planning holiday travel at the same time that I'm coaching people at the same time that I'm tryna be a good girlfriend and friend and daughter and sister and cat mom and every day is a messy, wonderful, chaotic adventure" face.
Repeat after me: IT IS NEVER NECESSARY FOR ME TO BE UPSET WITH MYSELF AND WHERE I'M AT IN ORDER FOR ME TO BE MOTIVATED TO CREATE WHAT I WANT. Repeat this 1,000 times. Repeat this until you have drowned the fear-based programming out of your consciousness. Listen up: dissatisfaction is not motivating. Shame does not not not not not lead to inspiration. Got it? 👈🏻Give up the idea that the harder you are on yourself, the better results you will produce 🙀. We often think "discipline" entails self-punishment. But really, discipline comes from the root word "disciple,"--to be lovingly devoted to something ✊🏻. When you are connected to your source of inspiration, you will be endlessly devoted to your commitments. You will find your wellspring of love, the source of all effective action, and will never run out of fuel 🤘🏼. All you need to keep you going is a beautiful vision for the world that you are authentically inspired by ✨🌍✨Live in alignment with that. No negative self talk necessary. No shame. No self judgements. No self-inflicted punishments. Just an inspiring vision. 🌟🌈💖✌🏼
Fulfilled a major life goal today when I met @nahkobear at his #mynameisbear listening party @golddiggersbar ! 🤞🏼And he agreed to being on my The Achievement Trap podcast🙀🌈!! 🤞🏼 This man's musical medicine has literally changed my life. His message is so potent and needed. Love you @nahko_and_mftp !! #musicalmedicine
I definitely could not do what I do for a living if I took myself seriously. I get so much joy in life from being able to laugh at myself and the absurdity of these life games we play. Check out some behind the scenes bloopers from my 3 with B YouTube videos and then go check out the actual videos on my channel :) new content up now!
I didn't hate my body, though I thought I did. Even in the midst of my eating disorder, when I looked at my body with disgust, it wasn't my body that I hated. I hated the parts of my past that I associated with my body. That I blamed my body for. Realizing that was the best news ever. I realized that my body didn't need to change an ounce. I realized that I needed to shift my focus to forging my past and making peace with it. That was what truly allowed me to see my body newly. This is what I've discovered. Do you agree? How does the way you see your body impact your life? Comment below 👇🏼👇🏼