•7th grade. A middle aged man stopped his truck right outside my house where I was sitting and talking on the phone, pulled down his pants and exposed himself to me, laughed then got back in his truck. I screamed but no one was there to help.
•8th grade. When my first boyfriend touched me without asking while I was half asleep next to him on the couch but when I awoke could not find my voice to make it stop.
•10th grade. A boy harassed me for mine and my then boyfriend’s decision to wait until marriage. I dreaded going to class and tried to avoid him as every morning crude comments and sounds were made at me. I had to ask the school officer to come stand in the room during class regularly. I found my voice but used it too softly.
•And most recently when I allowed a boy into my life who told me he respected my boundaries and personal convictions, though they weren’t his own, and tried again and again to push me beyond mine asking if what he was doing was ok after said attempts. I was clear from the beginning but could only keep pushing him away so many times until giving in to things I did not want. I twistedly began convincing myself that maybe I did want them because he didn’t seem like the kind of guy that would disrespect me so deeply.
•Not to mention the cat calls I’ve received throughout the years, especially those that turned aggressive upon being challenged.
For all the times I couldn’t, the times I tried and the times I actually did, I’m using my voice this time. I’m using this platform. I’m connecting to a community I sadly could not have imagined was so big, standing with my sisters to say to any male who thinks it’s just a drunken dare or who thinks it’s “normal” student banter or who thinks you have the right cause we’re dating or that it’s ok as long as you asked at some point, YOU DO NOT GET TO do things to us that we never asked for or were clear we weren’t interested in doing. NO MORE. We were not created to be treated this way. We are worthy and valuable and remarkable and respectable.
There are so many things I’ve tried in my soul’s search for peace, especially when I was unaware that is what my soul ultimately desired. Yet the One and Only God that has brought about that peace, constructed joy in the midst of my self-destruction and used me in my darkest and weakest of hours to bring hope to other souls around me (thus instilling hope in me) is the God of Abraham. Friends, we tend to turn to everything else; we develop vices because our souls are desperately searching for peace. It is why we work too hard or drink too much or experiment with pills or share our bodies before a covenant is created. Yet the peace we long for comes from connecting with our Creator; the only One who requires no work for us to receive love. We need only, simply and profoundly, to begin a relationship with Him. There truly is no other god like our Lord! #crazylove#sundayvibes#thankful#unconditionallove#Jesus#Savior#King#Creator#peace#grace#blessed#Heisgood
A J C
generous spirit, disciplined talent, song bird, hope encourager, faithful follower, west coast best coast. There wasn't much of it, but for the time that there was I am resoundingly grateful. I missed you, your silliness, your warmth, your encouragement and sharpening. Getting to see you and experience your new city, witnessing God place you on that stage (which suits you so perfectodiously) in a story that inspires G O O D, I am reminded of the worship song "Oh how He loves us". Soak in this season my friend and never forget how for you He is! As am I 💖I love you beautiful! Until next time, enjoy this INCREDIBLE and LAVISH gift from our King and Savior and let's live in the same city again someday okay?? 😘#wcbc#bestie#friendship#broadwaybaby#grateful#blessed#sister#frramily#Heisgood @amandajanecoop
God we thank You for being the Author of peace and justice and we ask for Your peace upon those who've lost loved ones and justice for those whose lives were hatefully stolen. Thank You for Your sovereignty and strength, Your hope and love Abba. May Your kingdom come. #inthenameofJesus#prayforvegas
Y'all. It has been a week. And this scripture is my praise. If you don't know Jesus, He's literally the best thing that's ever happened to me and shown up in the most meticulous and rescuing of ways. It's like anyone who's good to you and that you're changed for the better because of, you want to share them with everyone else so they can have that too. As hard and scary as life is, He shows up relentlessly and faithfully. No one else can do that. So again, if you don't know Jesus, say hello today, start the conversation right now. He's been waiting ❤️ #mercy#grace#gratitude#jesusislord#Godisgood#redeemed#restored#thankful#praise#faithful#Redeemer#TrueLove