(Tigers Jaw) • people just don't get it, they can be a social worker, or live with the same depression as yours and still not get it. I just want to self destruct without the after math, I wanna disappear. the pain jsut never seems to fully go away. Days, weeks, months but never years; my bright smile turns into over flooding rivers of tears. I wake up and I don't want to eat, I stay in pajamas all day. I'm so unhappy and I'm reaching for help but the line is always dead on the other end.
I wish i never knew the truth because it hurts too damn bad. Today I wish i had never met you. I didn't ask to be alive, I didn't ask for all this hurt. Everything that comes to the surface causes pain and all I can do is cry and wish it all away.
One thing i love about #hooping is you can be white black purple spotted gay straight, 300 pounds or less than a 100 you can do it every day, once a month once a year, you can be a performer and spin for your favorites or you can do it from your #flowmie friends living room. You can learn tricks or wing it and still excell at it, hooping doesn't judge or discriminate hooping loves you and me just the same. So here's to my #sacredcircles and the #harmony they have brought to my life. Shouts to @graham_kelsey05 for letting me play with her pretty circles and being so fun to flow with (and look I'm starting to nail #chestrolls ) happy hooping friends.