Looking through photographs from our trip back home to South East Asia on this cold, grey and stormy Danish Saturday afternoon; I often wonder how I ended up back here after 14 years on the road trying to outrun myself. I was born on a tropical little island, and now I live in a place where I need to take a daily double dose of Vitamin D because sunlight siezes to exist for months on end 🌬 But life is a funny little f*cker. Firstly, if I hadn't come back when I did, I would never have met my lovely. I would most likely have carried on suffering in silence. I apparently needed this slow paced, non chaotic change in lifestyle to finally be able to acknowledge and admit to myself that I couldn't "fix" myself without reaching out for help. I find it hard to ask someone to help me carry a grocery bag for FS....so taking the leap and asking for help with my mental well-being was the hardest and ABSOLUTE scarriest thing I've ever had to do. PTSD is no joke. Carrying it around in silence for 14 years has left me very broken inside. But now with the support of others and learning how to be good towards myself, I'm slowly piecing all the little bits back together again. Without this process I also would never have found my passion for soaping, because I just didn't have room or energy for anything at the end of the day when I could finally throw off my mask I hid behind, the mask that was my persona to the outside world . Soaping - It transports me. It let's my mind zen out and the endorphines flow. It's like meditation and therapy all rolled into one. Getting lost in a world of essential oils, healing clays, nutty and fruity butters, natural gifts of Gaia... All of it. It's like real life magic. If you've read this far down-Then you'll know that when I say that I put all my love and good intentions into every creation I make, I absolutely mean it. Soaping and surrounding myself with supportive and loving people is slowly but steadily making me feel alive again. Every bar of soap I make helps me to slowly let go of the past,and I am finally learning how to be in the present.And on good days it even gives me the strength to take a little peek into the future.