Currently in my home town Västerås city, lying on my old teenage bed. Feeling nostalgic while listening to the artist group "Kent". I used to dig their songs back then. (Jag minns det som om det var igår).
Wish I could go back to those peaceful days. My life was simple but filled with happy activities. In highschool I studied science, during spare time joined art classes, played drums, loved kickboxing. And spent the nights reading "Jane Austen" books.
When dad brought internet to our home began a new phase in my life. Blogging, illustration, photographing, graphic design and art. My "deviant-art" blog become popular and I begun selling few works online.
So if you ask me how come I ended in the medical field?? It's a long story which I don't have time to tell right now. Gotta pack my things, taking the train to Motala city.
Work awaits me tomorrow, and I'm eager to find out what happened to my patients. Let's hope non of them died while I was away. •••
✒️Dr EE, singing with her emo-voice... ✨The stars are up, one fell down and flew away.....
"You're a doctor,
You're very intelligent and successful,
You're a hardworker who succeeded,
He's one person in a population of more than 7 billion,
Remember how insignificant that is..."
✒️quoting my friend
__________________________________________ PS: I've read those lines for almost 10 times and because they were so inspiring decided to share them.
Although I know my own worth but receiving positive messages from friends provide me extra energy to keep moving on.
A dear friend of mine texted me those lines because I was sad and upset last few days after finding out the man I used to have a crush on just got married with another woman. At the same time my senior resident from the additional med-program "married man with kids" made me even more upset by asking wether I could consider having an affair?? Too much to handle in one week. •••••••
Honestly, the short trip to Orebro city was on time. It made me calm down a bit and reflect over life.
Now I've accepted the fact some people are not meant to be together. He wasn't meant for me, neither my senior resident.
After talking to some close friends I gained new point of view, one wrote "This world is so vast, so much to do and enjoy, and find happiness in all the unexpected places....." Beautifully written 👏👏 I'm happy at least I have wonderful friends who understand me. Want to thank all of you dear friends who kept supporting me. Without ur helpful messages I couldn't make it out alone. Thanks for everything 💐
✒️ Dr EE ((reflecting over the past week! I write to heal, to understand my thoughts and find comfort between the written lines. I don't write to impress or please people. And I'm definitely not ashamed of sharing parts of my private life. There's nothing sinful about writing down feelings. It wasn't a coincident I chose "Endless-Emotion" as my IG username, did it after many hours of thinking. Being emotional is part of my personality which I'm proud of. Ending my text with an inspiring Arabic quote, sums up life: (الدهر يومان ، يوم لك ويوم عليك فإذا كان لك فلا تبطر وإذا كان عليك فاصبر .. علي ابن أبي طالب)
صح كلامك يا على💐، الصبر جميل!
I've only been away 4 days from work and it felt like 4 years. My life without patients has become very boring 😔... Give me some UTI, all types of cancer, trauma, injuries, headaches, nausea/vomiting, heart problems, atrial fibrillation, DVT, STD, drug and alcohol abuse, benign prostatahyperplasi, hematuria, pneumonia, asthma and infections diseases, suicide, major depression, anxiety disorders and etc etc..... I can help with management, diagnosis and treatment of various diseases. I even guide patients to seek help when suffering from separation or relationship problems. I'm the super hero that have solution for everything except one thing ☝️.... I can't solve my own problems. I'll cut ties and ignore/block any person that brings problem into my LIFE. To help other patients deal with their medical health issues my mind must be in complete peace, otherwise I won't function properly. ✒️things she wrote, Dr EE
"Always know you are more than enough. You are precious, unique, and worth being adored, cherished and treasured!...."
____________________________________________ PS: Just finished the medical course trip 😎It lasted for 2 days and was very interesting. I learnt a lot about the healthcare system in Sweden and hopefully going to apply those new knowledge to my work 👩🏻⚕️✌️
_______________________________________ Writing in Swedish language bcoz I need to share something important, can't express it in English: 😔 jag känner mig lite nere, hur kommer det sig att jag var den enda singel doktor bland hela gruppen... nu önskar jag höra fina tröstande ord!!! Kom igen vänner, lämna fina kommentarer jag behöver fan emotionell stöd... 💔