i came home and my heart sank + exploded with love all at once. it's the longest i have ever been away from my kids, my babies. they grew. nico was thicker, his little back wider. ollie was taller, a little more mature. the same old story with my mother. it's complicated. family patterns are tough, i guess..... feeling so worn right now. so grateful to be in my bed, in my room, in this apt that we made a home. a little oasis that feels warm + loving + chic all at once. my babies are asleep next door to me. just re tucked them in and sniffed their little heads + kissed them some more. i feel some sense of deep sadness somehow. reflecting on my time in Colombia with my siblings. feeling far away.... palm springs was colorful, vibrant. i felt happy, creative, productive and closer to my kids.
maybe it's exhaustion. deep exhale...... this is the experience of being alive. present in it all right now. feeling my feelings.
good night. x #homeatlast#emotional#truth#nayyirahwaheed#heart
my heart is so full. our dad may have abandoned us all many, many years ago-- but he left us with the gift of each other. until a year and a half ago, we didn't even know each other. now, i have the sister i have always dreamed of, and 4 older brothers. everyone unique in their own way, but all of us connected so profoundly. so grateful for these beautiful souls. we laughed, we cried, we sang, we danced, we partied, we told stories of our dad, we told stories of our lives..... it was priceless. 🙏🏼 (not pictured: juana + diego who were unable to make it to the reunion 2.0) pictured: Camila, Felipe, Andres, Ignacio 😍😊😎 #colombia#cali#siblingtrip#siblingreunion#somuchyes#happiness#mypeople#myroots#colombiana