Heute gab es für mich nach einem anstrengenden Tag Chai Latte ☕️ Ich hatte ein sehr gutes Gespräch mit meiner Therapeutin, sie ist so wundervoll 💫 Ich bin ihr echt dankbar.
Ich kämpfe gerade sehr mit mir; Loslassen ist wirklich schwer. Kennt das noch jemand? Habt Ihr auch Schwierigkeiten Euch von Eurer Krankheit zu verabschieden?
Sich eine neue Identität aufzubauen? Wenn irgendjemand eine Idee hat wie man das schaffen kann, bitte raus damit 🙌🏼
Alles Liebe ♥️
Sunday's #dinner 🔝 was Ciabatta Italia 🙌🏼 Recovery can be freaking hard. It takes so much energy. You have to be stronger than your inner demons. Sometimes I just want to starve and cut myself again to cope with all that negativity and hopelessness inside of me. I try to remember that there is hope, that I'll win this fight no matter what. But I want to be honest with you, I'm really having a tough time. I'm struggling with letting go. But that's ok. Every feeling is ok. So long as you never give up. Some day we'll be free. Until then we keep fighting 💫
Today's highlight: Frozen Yogurt 🔝
Lieben Dank für Eure wunderbaren Worte und Ratschläge gestern. Ihr seid toll 💫
Ich habe momentan so große Selbstzweifel und fühle mich echt einsam #heimwehiscalling
Hier ist verkaufsoffener Sonntag und deshalb war ich erstmal einkaufen und habe mich selber beschenkt. Heute Abend gehe ich noch mit mir essen und dann wird ein Wellnessabend gemacht #selbstfürsorgeundso
Morgen ist das Wochenende endlich vorbei und hier auch wieder mehr los. Verrückt, zu Hause ist Wochenende das Größte für mich 🤔
Macht es gut meine Lieben ♥️
Hello wonderful people 🙋🏼
Heute habe ich es wieder auf die harte Tour gelernt: Es ist so wichtig auf die eigenen Bedürfnisse zu hören. Wir dürfen Nein sagen. Wir dürfen Stop sagen. Und wir dürfen auch sagen, ich möchte keine Zeit mit Dir verbringen. Das ist nicht nur in Ordnung, sondern notwendig. Nur wie lernt man das?
Kennt das jemand, kann noch jemand seine eigenen Bedürfnisse nicht durchsetzen? Oder habt Ihr Tipps, wie man das lernen kann? Ich bin da wirklich ratlos 🤔
Naja, genug gejammert, ich hatte dafür heute ein wunderbares Mittagessen. Flammkuchen mit Tomate Mozzarella und Basilikumpesto 🙌🏼 Sehr, sehr lecker und tatsächlich mein Highlight des Tages 😅
Viel Liebe an Euch ♥️
Nicht schön, aber selten! Ein Schnappschuss eines echten Lächelns! _______________________
I'll win this battle no matter what. Yes, gaining weight is hard. Yes, I feel super fat sometimes. Yes, sometimes I wanna be that super skinny girl again. Yes, some memories haunt me. And yes, I'm struggling. Sometimes I'm just scared. But you know what? I don't listen. I just keep fighting. Sometimes you have to keep going and stop thinking. Cause it's just worth it. And I'm starting to believe that recovery is not just worth it, but it's possible. #recovery is possible for all of us. Anorexia, bulimia, self harm, depression, anxiety - we're stronger than that demons.
____________________ Ich habe hier gelernt, dass vieles möglich ist. Aber ich zweifle noch, ob alles möglich ist. Heute hatte ich ein sehr gutes Gespräch mit einer Therapeutin von der Jugendstation. Das hat richtig gut getan. Und vielleicht, vielleicht ist doch alles möglich. Danke für Ihr offenes Ohr @frau_schneider_ Jetzt wird gekämpft #recoveryispossible
IT'S BURGERTIME 🍔
I'm at home for three days and this was today's #dinner 🔝
I'm allowed to stay in the clinic, I'm so relieved. Thank you for your support! You helped me a lot ♥️
I'll give you an update soon but for now I try to enjoy the time with my cats 🐱
Have a good evening 🌙
Hello #edfam 🙋🏼
This 🔝 was Saturday's #lunch 🍴
At first I want to say thank you to @n_i_n_a_s_w_a_y @my_way_to_recover @helenasmia @back_to_myself_again @lexigrowsstrong @staystrong_._2015 @sabrini.suessundsalzig @anannarecovery @princess_of_life2017 @lousrecovery @laura_fights_against_ana @reallifewithed @gedanken_karussel @ben_and_jerrys_daughter @aboutjohanna @angelinasophie90 @healthyfoodatmosphere @brunchwithbella @tinabeatsana @laurasjourney_food @healing.lina @soultinker for your lovely comments. Sorry for not answering. The last days were just incredibly hard... But be sure that your words still mean a lot to me and give me strength to keep fighting.
My cats are really sick right know and I pray for them to survive. You know, my cats aren't just animals to me. They are my family, my friends, my little babies. I love them so much. My heart is breaking right now. I just don't know how to deal with it.
My therapist told me today that I have to leave the clinic. I've tried to convince the conduct that I'm allowed to stay but I don't think that this will work out. I'm really desperate right know. Everything is crashing down.
Gooood evening #edfam 🙋🏼
Time is flying by so fast ⏳ I'm here for six weeks now... Can't believe it 😶
I'll answer your lovely comments tomorrow, thank you so much ♥️ #dinner wasn't good today. There was cheese, which smelled like **** to me so that I became ill 😷
I'm going to have some #pancakes tonight with @recovering.janine and her family. I won't skip dinner because of this stupid cheese 🧀No, no #ana 🤐 Tomorrow is weigh in but that's also no reason to eat less! And I can have pancakes in the evening, of course I can. 💪🏼 This 🔝 was my #vegan chocolate cake that I had last Sunday. It was so good 😍 I don't know why I was so scared of cake. It's delicious 😋
Sorry, 5 weeks!
Good evening #fighters 🙋🏼
This 🔝was yesterday's #dinner 😍 It was so good and fluffy and just perfect 🙌🏼 It was scary, but you know what? Great things never came from comfort zones. I have to #challenge myself to make progress. So if you don't do a thing because you're too scared - do it. It's worth it.
LIFE IS CALLING 📲
Yesterday was perfect 💫 I had an amazing day with my wonderful ladies. We all crave for life, fun and levity. Yesterday was all of it. We had great food, bought new clothes, laughed a lot, had deep talks - I didn't want this day to end.
My Veggie-Burger 🍔🔝was heavenly ☀️☁️🌈 I ordered rosemary potatoes besides, cause #ana had NOTHING to say.
This morning we played funny games and did some theater 🎭 practices which was really great. Tonight we'll go out for #dinner 💁🏼 Doesn't this sound good? 😍
I know that I have a huge chance here. It's my chance to get my life back, to be finally free. Yes, it's hard. I struggle with weight gain, I struggle with eating more, I struggle with my body image. But I realized that I really don't want this disorder to control me anymore. Yesterday was so much fun, I can't have this moments of freedom and happiness if I stick to old behaviors. I need a new start. And here is a place where I can change my life.
Everyone of you can do this. Don't believe anything you're #eatingdisorder says. Listen and do the opposite. Eat and laugh and dance and be free 🌺🌼🌸 Lots of love ♥️
Hello #edfam 🙋🏼 I had #lunch outside today 🙌🏼
Here 🔝 you can see @aboutjohanna and me with our #food 😍 I had Ciabatta Italia and Johanna had pancakes 🥞 She is so inspiring, you really need to check her out! ♥️ @recovering.janine was with us too and we had a good time together.
It's wonderful to have people by your side who unterstand your struggles.
Thank you my wonderful ladies ♥️
Gooooood afternoon #edfam 💫
For #afternoonsnack we had chocolate cake 😍
I nearly haven't finished it but because @aboutjohanna had 2! cakes it wasn't acceptable to quit 🚫
PS @aboutjohanna had 3 and I had 1,5 cakes 🙋🏼