Day 19 of 365: Happy 7 years in California to me 🎉. "You know my name not my story"- one of my all time favorite quotes.
To say I've have had an easy path is an understatement. This journey of mine has been beyond hard and I'm still on the path to finding myself. I moved out here for a dream job right out of college and in the process had my car totaled by a cement truck. I slept on an air mattress making min. wage for longer than I wanted to. Took a city bus and if oh know me know I would so say ew to that 😜. I worked for the Hilton for a couple years while living in beautiful San Diego and started to make very good money but it wasn't enough for me and I was forgetting why I moved out here in the first place. So I packed up and moved to Los Angeles to follow my dreams again. Right when I started to feel at home in San Diego I changed everything and fell right back on my face again in Lalaland. I worked 7 days a week for 3 years straight to make ends meet. I saw a job in the entertainment business that I wanted and didn't care how far I had to drive and how much money I would make to get it. I moved up in those 3 years but soon after got burnt out and was realizing I needed a change. Fast forward to 5 years later I competed in my first bikini competition, which is something I never thought I would do and soon after I was in a horrible car accident where I still can't even believe that I lived through. It woke me to know I have a passion and purpose to serve in this life, which is what I'm finding out about myself now. 😜I'm switching careers at 31 and having panicked attacks thinking is this right for me? You can't think that way and you just have to DO to find out. Hey who knows I may switch it 10 more times but as long as I'm learning and having fun that's all that matters.
I never stopped hustling and that's what is making me the woman I am today. Never stop your hustle guys and never give up on your dreams. Make your dreams into reality and hustle hard everyday. No one is going to make your path for you and no one is going to hand you things in this crazy thing called life. Happy Monday I hope this helps at least one person out there to not give up ❤❤❤
Day 17 of 365: Today since the minute I woke up I was already having a off day. I went to the dentist because of tooth pain and found out I cracked a tooth on one side of my mouth and broke porcelain on the other side of my mouth on a tooth. I have been grinding my teeth since I was a kid in my sleep and yes I have done the mouth guard thing but unfortunately I wouldn't keep it in my mouth while sleeping. I left the dentist in tears because I legit brush 2-3x's a day and floss everyday and can't stop thinking how am I going to afford all of this work done?
I have absolutely no clue but what I do know is that 5 months ago I was laying helpless bed ridden with a brain bleed from a very horrible car accident and I'm still alive. So I went to the gym to try to destress from all of these crazy money thoughts going through my head. Do I have it all figured out, no! Will I have it all figured out? Eventually. I have been through the most traumatic experiences and I'm still here so this is what a face of determination looks like. I may not be rich but I am determined and will figure it out. I'm still alive and I have most of my health so this is just yet another set back testing me. Remember money will always come and when there's a will there's always a way as well. Happy Friday the 13th. #fridaythe13th
Day 15 of 365: I have a workout glow because I'm finding myself and self love. They are two very important things. I have been beyond closed off when it comes to dating and when it comes to letting people in. I have dated a ton and always self sabotage or friend zone boys before it can turn into anything good. I watched guys I actually liked break into pieces because of me and after watch them move on and after they would watch me break over them moving on. (My loss, y'all know who you are. I can only say sorry, learn from it and move on). I have been scared and so hurt in the past but guess what it's part of our growth and life. I took a promise to myself to focus on myself and today as I write this and also write in my journal I'm going to write what I want in a partner and what I want to be for someone else. I'm doing this for me and who knows what will happen in my future but what I do know is without self love you will not attract anything you want that's going to be meaningful. Find your purpose but also remember to self love in the process. Attract happiness and find someone who helps build you up and not down. Never settle. Remember you are worth it. 💪🏼❤👯
I just found photos from a photo shoot I did about two years ago for a wedding magazine. It's probably the only time you'll see me in a wedding dress 😂😂and yes I broke out in hives on my chest. $90,000 dress and I was allergic to it. Go figure 😂🙈. I just want to take a moment and say why do women have to be mean to one another. Why can't we all support each other. Why get jealous when we can be just as badass for working our own asses off. ( I get jealous, I'm human I just retalk myself down from it because it's silly and a waste of my time). If I see something I want I work that much harder for it. If someone is in a relationship don't go after their bf because you wouldn't want it to happen to you. If you aren't happy with yourself change what you don't like. Feeling stuck at a job figure a way out to change it( doing it myself right now) I wish we could all stand together and just love and encourage eachother in this crazy world of hate. ❤👯
Day 14 of 365: National Mental Health Day. Am I a model, nope. Am I perfect, hell nope. Do I struggle with finances from time to time, yes. Do I have ups and downs, yes. Am I still trying to find myself and figure out my career path that's right for me, yes that I am. I'm human and I feel all sorts of feels and I have my breakdowns. I'm not always this smiling funny person that it appears to be on social media. I have a therapist, I have the gym to help me release endorphins and stress, I have student loan debt struggles and everyday struggles, I have family issues, my health still isn't a 100% from my car accident. Heck competing in competitions can cause some people's mental health to be all over the place. I have been drinking more tea and trying to meditate so I can calm myself but know we all have our issues and breakdowns. No I'm not medically proven to have any mental issues but just know we all go through things and have breakdowns. We are all human and experience things. Never judge a book by its cover and know we all only see so much on social media. We only see the outside not knowing everyone's stories. I have family and friends who struggle with mental health issues and it's not easy to watch. Remember to love day in and out and have patience. Show kindness and stay humble and kind. These are pictures of me "modeling" throughout the years and finding my self confidence. ❤💪🏼😘🤗Spread love everyday y'all.
Day 13 of 365: Find a girl who can do both 💪🏼👠👑. It's Monday, set your intentions high for the week. Set goals and follow them through. I'm someone who needs routine and change tends to be hard for me but I like to set up my week and try my best to follow it to a T. We all have set backs but don't let it ruin your whole week. Look ahead and keep going. ❤
Day 10 of 365: 💪🏼⚽️ My favorite playground is any outdoor workout. I played soccer for 13 years along with a lot of other sports. I mean riding the bench still counts as playing right?😜 Today I had the opportunity to train a good friend of mine and it was an amazing morning. She made this girl (aka me) very proud of her hard work. People amaze me everyday as you can probably tell since I'm mid laugh in this photo (It's that after workout glow). They put the biggest smile and glow on my face. Pay attention to the moments of happiness we get everyday rather than the negativity. #soccerbunny#soccer#fitness#365#365days#girlswholift#myjourney#inspiration#love#inspire#friday#bootcamp#fitnesstrainer#sunnybunny
Day 8 of 365: 🍑Happy Humpday. So many things could be said about this post, I'm so not the type to post my booty all over Instagram but as I'm looking back at this time last year it's brought me reflecting and showing me that I sure do put in a lot of work and dedication when it comes to my body. I am my own worst critic and get very hard on myself at times (we all do). This time last year I would be less than one week out from my first show so I've been feeling all sorts of feels. I had a lot of people say I looked great and a lot say I look way better now. The thing is I am doing this for me and no one else. The top is my competition last year and the bottom is from today. I'm full again and growing which is what needed to be done and I have a long ways to go with building muscle and not just leaning out again. I need and want to have both. I just want to be healthy and the best version of me. I have been through so much over the past years and this year alone especially with surviving a traumatic car accident. I'm rebuilding myself. I am Jessica and I'm stronger now than ever. Either y'all are with me on this journey or you are in my way. #fitness#girlswholift#imalive#remindyourself#competitor#npc#npcbikini#musclecontest#humpday#wednesday#booty 🍑 #365days#motivation#inspiration#no#npcbikinicompetitor#muscle#womenempowerment#tattoos#imorange#orangebunny#spraytan#strongisbeautiful#lifejourney#365