ive come to a pretty important realization recently that i wanna share: not everyone in your life will be able to see your worth. not everyone will have the capacity to understand just how brightly you can shine. and that's okay. it does NOT mean you're "not good enough." other people do not define you or decrease your true value. and you may or may not be able to change their opinion about you, but im telling you - don't focus your energy on trying to do so. your time and emotional well-being are far too important to spend on trivial people and trivial matters. take care of yourself. exist. work toward your own goals. don't let your life be controlled by someone or something other than yourself. this is something I have to constantly remind myself to do, and it's not always easy. but I promise, it's possible. and I promise, you're worth it. ♥️♥️♥️
me? I'm gonna be a senior in college, tomorrow?? I've spent 3 whole years eating pizza and halal guys and hot dogs and I'm still in love with this city??? tbh didn't ever think I'd make it. thanks, everyone who's helped me come this far. here's to SENIOR YEAR🍕🍕🍕✨ #nyu2018
ur mcm doesn't want a trap queen, he wants a supply queen aka @nar_queen hehe // this job literally takes a "superwoman" to do and I haven't slept in days but I wouldn't trade being here for anything #nemo2017 💖
BOLLYWOOD DAY • he's the kajol to my shah rukh khan 💕 you drive me crazy but I couldn't ask for a better LC and I can't wait to see all of our hard work pay off at mosaic next week! #nemo2017#narqueenthesupplyqueen
so it's been a minute since I've been in this pretty city, but I'm super excited to finally be coming back in a few days! 😍 .
As I'm posting this photo, I'm feeling happy. And that's saying a lot -- I've been in kind of a bad spell for the past few weeks, with unusually low self-esteem, becoming easily discouraged as I applied for so many jobs and internships and didn't hear back from anyone. I started to catastrophize, thinking that I'd be going into my final year of college without having accomplished anything and that consequentially, I'd never be successful. Of course, thinking back now, those thoughts make absolutely no sense and have little truth to them. But I couldn't see that in the moment, and it affected my daily mood and in turn my relationships with everyone around me and my level of productivity. It just wasn't a good look at all.
But then something seemingly insignificant happened a few days ago that helped turn it all around. I got called back for an interview for a pretty great job, and it went really well today and I'm just feeling really good for the first time in a while. Even if I don't get the job, I'm grateful that that one email made me feel so much better after I couldn't figure out what was wrong with me for weeks.
It's so weird how emotions work, it's so interesting to see how my mood and mental health status fluctuate and develop over time. I know a lot of people my age are probably feeling like I've been for the past few weeks, so I thought I'd share this little moment and say hey, you're not alone. No matter what's happening right now, you'll be okay. Really. 😊
(someone needs to stop me from all these instagram rants oops). Much love💕