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    Narmin Jivani👑
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hey you, thx for always being my noosh and putting up with my nonsense 💕
hey you, thx for always being my noosh and putting up with my nonsense 💕
ça serait parfait, monsieur🎡(holy crêpe, i miss Paris)
ça serait parfait, monsieur🎡(holy crêpe, i miss Paris)
An Open Letter to Myself and Whoever Else Cares to Read This:
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#Happy. 
It's this abstract concept for which every human is programmed to spend their whole life searching. 
I'm blessed to have friends who captured these ridiculous, joyful moments last semester. 
But at times, "happy" seems almost impossible to attain. At times, it's hard to remember anything other than pain, numbness, hopelessness. 21 years into my life, and 5(?) years into my struggle with depression - I still often need a reminder of how to be happy. Why life is worth not giving up on. 
No, not every moment of my semester abroad was glamorous, fun, and carefree like the ones captured in these photographs. Two months later, I can see that I've most definitely grown because of the good AND the bad times. 
I wanted to share this a while back, when the little voices in my head weren't being too nice to me. I guess I was afraid I'd regret posting it. But I want to share. I want to say something. I'm not even entirely sure what the point of this post is. Maybe I'm in need of something tangible to keep me grounded and resilient when things get bad again (I say when, and not if, because I've accepted that shit's always gonna happen in life and it's how you react to it that matters). Maybe no one will read this whole caption and I'll just be rambling to myself. Some might think this is just an excuse to post ten cute candids of myself (okay, they wouldn't be entirely wrong). Whatever comes out of this, it's important to me to open up the conversation about (mental health, emotions, relationships, humanity, life). This is my tiny effort to effect change in some way. It's also a personal reminder to love myself, because (look how cute I can be!!! 😉) and oh my god all of these moments were incredible. Life is incredible. So I'm just gonna leave this here. 
Also, Europe, I freakin miss you. 💕
An Open Letter to Myself and Whoever Else Cares to Read This: . . . #Happy . It's this abstract concept for which every human is programmed to spend their whole life searching. I'm blessed to have friends who captured these ridiculous, joyful moments last semester. But at times, "happy" seems almost impossible to attain. At times, it's hard to remember anything other than pain, numbness, hopelessness. 21 years into my life, and 5(?) years into my struggle with depression - I still often need a reminder of how to be happy. Why life is worth not giving up on. No, not every moment of my semester abroad was glamorous, fun, and carefree like the ones captured in these photographs. Two months later, I can see that I've most definitely grown because of the good AND the bad times. I wanted to share this a while back, when the little voices in my head weren't being too nice to me. I guess I was afraid I'd regret posting it. But I want to share. I want to say something. I'm not even entirely sure what the point of this post is. Maybe I'm in need of something tangible to keep me grounded and resilient when things get bad again (I say when, and not if, because I've accepted that shit's always gonna happen in life and it's how you react to it that matters). Maybe no one will read this whole caption and I'll just be rambling to myself. Some might think this is just an excuse to post ten cute candids of myself (okay, they wouldn't be entirely wrong). Whatever comes out of this, it's important to me to open up the conversation about (mental health, emotions, relationships, humanity, life). This is my tiny effort to effect change in some way. It's also a personal reminder to love myself, because (look how cute I can be!!! 😉) and oh my god all of these moments were incredible. Life is incredible. So I'm just gonna leave this here. Also, Europe, I freakin miss you. 💕
c'est fini, mais bonne fête nationale, la France! merci pour tous les meilleurs souvenirs ♥️ tu me manques beaucoup, Paris, la plus belle ville du monde✨ #14juillet 🇫🇷
c'est fini, mais bonne fête nationale, la France! merci pour tous les meilleurs souvenirs ♥️ tu me manques beaucoup, Paris, la plus belle ville du monde✨ #14juillet  🇫🇷
the fam shining bright like a #DiamondJubileeMubarak 💎
my kind of red, white, and blue #🐸☕️ #happy4th 🇫🇷
my kind of red, white, and blue #🐸☕️ #happy4th  🇫🇷
if you ever see me smiling like this, it's probably because im gay tbh🏳️‍🌈
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It may be (almost) the end of #pride month, but the time for speaking up about LGBTQ+ and minority issues, fighting for our rights, and basically just flaunting our $h¡t, is year-round. Pride is about loving the hell outta yourself no matter who you are, no matter who makes you feel like you can't do so. Pride is about spreading more love and eliminating hate, because love is what we do best and it's what the world needs most right now. For me, Pride is about learning to no longer be ashamed of the identity I've been hiding for most of my life. It's not easy being something other than cis and straight, especially growing up Muslim/religious, and yes, there will always be people who don't/can't/won't understand. But ever since I've started slowly coming out to the people closest to me, I've been so much happier and I want anyone who might be in a similar position to have the same kind of support, to know that it's there in the LGBTQ+ community. I don't want to make this too long, so I'll just say that I'm so incredibly grateful for the unending kindness of the people in my life, and I want to pay it forward to as many more people as possible. You are all shining stars regardless of your identity. Everyone deserves a voice and everyone deserves love. Thanks, world. ✨ (Also NYC friends, have a FREAKIN blast for me at #nycpride2017 this weekend!!! I'm there in spirit!) ❤️💛💚💙💜 #pride2017 #pansexual #panpride #pansexualawarenessday
if you ever see me smiling like this, it's probably because im gay tbh🏳️‍🌈 . . . It may be (almost) the end of #pride  month, but the time for speaking up about LGBTQ+ and minority issues, fighting for our rights, and basically just flaunting our $h¡t, is year-round. Pride is about loving the hell outta yourself no matter who you are, no matter who makes you feel like you can't do so. Pride is about spreading more love and eliminating hate, because love is what we do best and it's what the world needs most right now. For me, Pride is about learning to no longer be ashamed of the identity I've been hiding for most of my life. It's not easy being something other than cis and straight, especially growing up Muslim/religious, and yes, there will always be people who don't/can't/won't understand. But ever since I've started slowly coming out to the people closest to me, I've been so much happier and I want anyone who might be in a similar position to have the same kind of support, to know that it's there in the LGBTQ+ community. I don't want to make this too long, so I'll just say that I'm so incredibly grateful for the unending kindness of the people in my life, and I want to pay it forward to as many more people as possible. You are all shining stars regardless of your identity. Everyone deserves a voice and everyone deserves love. Thanks, world. ✨ (Also NYC friends, have a FREAKIN blast for me at #nycpride2017  this weekend!!! I'm there in spirit!) ❤️💛💚💙💜 #pride2017  #pansexual  #panpride  #pansexualawarenessday 
tu me manques, bb😢 je reviendrai bientôt, mon amour! 💕
tu me manques, bb😢 je reviendrai bientôt, mon amour! 💕
yeah I'd say it's good to be home 🌅
yeah I'd say it's good to be home 🌅
I really like being high ✨
I really like being high ✨
shoulda locked myself to this bridge🔒
shoulda locked myself to this bridge🔒
the queens 💕 miss y'all already 😢
the queens 💕 miss y'all already 😢
My paris squad is hottest mess you've ever seen. And I wouldn't have wanted to spend every single day of the past four months with anyone else.
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I love you all immensely. I can't get sentimental like @african_savannah because then I'd never stop crying. You guys are absolute gems, see y'all in nyc💕😭
My paris squad is hottest mess you've ever seen. And I wouldn't have wanted to spend every single day of the past four months with anyone else. . . I love you all immensely. I can't get sentimental like @african_savannah because then I'd never stop crying. You guys are absolute gems, see y'all in nyc💕😭
je t'aime🇫🇷
je t'aime🇫🇷
almost Lon-done with my semester abroad & this is an accurate representation of the tears I'm shedding 😓😓😓😓😓
almost Lon-done with my semester abroad & this is an accurate representation of the tears I'm shedding 😓😓😓😓😓