You are allowed to be whoever you want to be. Don’t let your past you hold you back from being a better you. Don’t let it dictate your future self. We all make mistakes, sometimes we’re in the wrong, and it takes a lot of self reflecting to acknowledge this. But the point is that you have the courage to reflect, and strive for change. This is something I often struggle with and I always get down on myself for saying the wrong thing in the moment, or acting out in a negative way, but that’s okay. Be kind and forgive yourself and aim to be better next time. You’re trying and that’s all you can ever ask from yourself. Via @honeyssclub
What’s a soulmate?
“Well, it’s like a best friend. But more. It’s the one person in the world who knows you better than anyone else. It’s someone who makes you a better person.. actually, they don’t make you a better person.. you do that yourself, because they inspire you. A soulmate is someone who you can carry with you forever. It’s the one person who knew you and accepted you.. believed in you before anyone else did.. or when no one else would and no matter what happens.. you will always love them. Nothing can ever change that.”
Wanting someone is such a wierd feeling. So easy to be judged for. No clear demarcation for obsession or love. Such delicate lines. Lines that can only be bound by two way trust. Two way trust, that takes a long long time to nourish. It can take the smallest of vibrations to cause all of it come tumbling down. But it never is about the fall is it? Its always the climb that matters in life. How you run and what you intend to do with it. But again, you can never let go off those emotions. Not that you dont know what to do with them. Just that you dont know how to condense them. Theyre not bad memories. Sometimes theyre so sweet, they make your miserable life feel all the more miserable. You almost want to build it back. But when you are back, you dont know if the partner of your trust will concrete the same bricks you lay. Though you know you wont let it fall again, you dont know if the soul opposite to you thinks thatl make the both of us, a single entity once again. For everything that may fluctuate, trust is what remains. Anywhere. Expectations that prevail, anytime. Because even through the life of a building, the paint withers, cracks develop. They can be fixed - but once the foundation is laid and is strong, it stays that way, for life.
In this dream, we are baking cherry pies. We are baking cherry pies in the middle of a sunlit kitchen and leaving them to cool on the windowsill. I want to say that there is sunshine spilling everywhere. I want to say that it’s falling out of the gaps between your teeth because it probably is. How could it not be?
In this dream I put my mouth on your mouth and try to catch all of that happiness with my tongue, we play soft music that sounds like sighing and I breathe like a paper bird rustling against your tongue.
Did I say that there is a meadow in my stomach? Did I tell you that you were every flower inside of it? I don’t know, it doesn’t matter. You knew, how could you not?
In this dream, you are probably licking my fingertips clean, and we are dripping cherry jam on the counters. In this dream we are dancing barefoot on a wooden floor, tangled so far inside of each other like knitting string.
I am kissing your shoulders and paying special attention to the dusk setting in your hollows. I am sticking my fingers in your belly button, and your ears and right there, where you’re all ribs.
In this dream, we are belly full, I’ll kiss your knees and I’ll stroke your hips, I’ll comb your hair. In this dream, we sit side by side and hold hands and knock our bodies like bowling pins.
In this dream I’ll feed you cherry pie with my fingers, you’ll kiss me with your mouth wide open, we’ll taste that sweetness everywhere, how could we not?
Azra.T., “Cherry Pie Daydreams” (via 5000letters)
“I need an instruction manual on how to properly love a person. I want to know where to place my hands on them and what kind of things to say so that I can finally get it right. Just once, I want to get someone right. I wish love were that easy. I wish I could open up a book and follow the instructions but I am lost when I look at your face. I don’t ever know what to say to you except this: Please do not leave me. I have never been able to do anything right but I want to do you right, I want to love you right.”
October 4th, 2015 (via imwritingpoems)
“You tried to change, didn’t you? Closed your mouth more, tried to be softer, prettier, less volatile, less awake You can’t make homes out of human beings. Someone should have already told you that.”
Warshan Shire, For Women Who Are Difficult To Love (via antigonies)
“One day, whether you are 14, 28 or 65, you will stumble upon someone who will start a fire in you that cannot die. However, the saddest, most awful truth you will ever come to find - is they are not always with whom we spend our lives.”
Via @honeyssclub “Sometimes the things you want the most don’t happen and what you least expect happens. I don’t know - you meet thousands of people and none of them really touch you. And then you meet one person and your life is changed forever.”
Love and other drugs (2010)