“When you first came into my life, I was fine. I was confident in myself, and wasn’t looking for anyone. But you came storming into my life. Forcing me to reopen old wounds, and making me feel as though I needed you. But the reality of it was that you wanted someone else to bring down with you. I honestly thought that I was strong before I met you. I thought that I was stable. When you finally felt built up enough from my pieces, you turned it all against me. You used the dark parts of me that I didn’t want to share, and threw them in my face. And now here you are, completely fine. And here I am, completely torn down to my knees, licking my old wounds, and feeling like I need you.”
“Sometimes we get sad about things and we don’t like to tell other people that we are sad about them. We like to keep it a secret. Or sometimes, we are sad but we really don’t know why we are sad, so we say we aren’t sad but we really are.”
Mark Haddon, The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-Time
“I tried to run from you every chance I got. I got lost in my daydreams only to wake up in my darkest nightmares. I tried to lose you in pitch-black alleyways, in clubs where the blue and red lights blinded me and the rhythm of the music replaced my heartbeat. I lost you at the bottom of several bottles and glasses, mistaking the bitter taste of alcohol for freedom. I lost you in the depths of the ocean, only to feel the waves rising up to meet me, ice-cold water filling my lungs. I lost you in the arms of someone else, but only as long as it took for me to remember how your hands in mine were more than just a tingling sensation, more than a random person I threw myself at for distraction. Then I lost myself, again and again and again. But it was never about how hard I tried to lose you - it was about how many possibilities I left you to find me again whenever you wanted to.”
great escape / n.j. (via ninasdrafts)
“Sometimes, people don’t deserve your love. People will take you for granted and then suddenly, when you’re gone, they will start missing you. When they do, you’ll be on their mind just as much as they used to be on yours, when they want you back.. be strong enough to say no. That’s really when you need to be strong is when people ask to be back into your life. Forgive them, but don’t take them back.”
If you only knew how many miracles you’ve already performed, nothing would ever again overwhelm you, frighten you, or seem impossible.
And, you’d begin admiring yourself, as we always have.
The Universe, tut.com
Monday feels 🍷 “Why are you still the last person I think of before I go to sleep every night? Why is that not the same for you? It’s sad because I know the answer. It’s even worse because you know it too.”
“I’m over it, I swear. But sometimes I still see your face in a crowded room or find myself looking for you in strangers, sometimes I still feel your hands on my skin and I smell your perfume on my sheets. Sometimes, even though I’m over it, it still hurts.”
13:23 pm (via written-on-polaroids)
Fall in love with ordinary. Fall in love with the everyday. Fall in love with brown eyes and small towns and a hand full of dandelions. Discover. Discover the crevices. Read the books that aren’t so popular, by little known authors who have a lot to offer. Listen to music that makes you think. Choose art that is buried in the corner of galleries, or on the street.
Teach yourself to love the small things. The special but unnoticed things. Teach yourself how the ordinary is not so ordinary after all.
S. Zhao (via blossomfully)