Hahaha Elf + lifting = 😍😍 #NSV : I am now lifting my weight on the Linear Leg Press! I started out with the usual bar only (113lbs), and realized it was way too light. So I added 5lb plates on each side for a total of 10 lbs for the 2nd set... still too light. Increased it to a total of 20 pounds. Woohoo! 💪
Adding a more significant amount of weights to my workouts (as opposed to just another 2.5-5lbd) is becoming more common. Now if the laterals would just behave...😂 #autoimmune#crohns#ibd#workoutwednesday#nonscalevictory#weightlifting#girlswholift
💪Workout for today. Now that I have some sense of what muscles are being utilized, I'm trying to add/modify my sessions. This time I only added bicep curls, but it's something!💃🏽 I also wrote down some notes to talk about with my trainer next time. Stoked that my lunges are better...I only stumbled three times as opposed to every rep 😂
December 1st-7th marks Crohn's and Colitis Awareness Week. With all of the ongoing research and advertisement, there is still a great need to educate others about IBD. Feel free to ask me anything! On here, private message, whatever tickles your fancy. 😊
I am hesitant to share this, but I need to get it out. It is the first time I am speaking about it
outloud, even with family (sorry guys). I hate this time of year. Not just because of the cold or the neverending viruses, but I tend to experience the worst #anxiety ever. Frequent panic attacks and meltdowns kind. I even had one Saturday morning that lasted until
work at 1pm. I discussed it with my therapist, and she repeated the same thing last
year - I am showing signs of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. I worked with
traumatized populations, and have friends who experienced worse health crises. I
feel guilty for putting myself in that same place.
It started when I was #hospitalized in December 2015. Things were going so well before - I
started a case management job, moving up after years of entry level
positions. Felt the best ever, even traveled to Dublin to walk a half marathon for #CCFA . A
lapse of insurance and no medication put me in the worst #crohns flare. Overwhelming pain and weakness, I became completely bedridden. Medical staff were constantly involved, poking and
conducting what felt like endless colonoscopies, sigmoidoscopies, MRIs, etc. Talks of surgery
and new meds. I couldn’t breathe. In addition, I lost my job, half
my hair fell out, and I was pure skin and bones. I stayed home with my parents, and it was
difficult for all of us. The recovery was slow; it took until Spring 2017 to
feel any improvement.
Lately the memories of that winter keep coming back. In addition to
the #panicattacks , I am hyper-vigilant, experiencing sleepless nights, tempted to
shut down/isolate myself. It’s somewhat better than last year - maybe it’s the #cannabis and work
keeping me busy. My therapist asked me to think what would happen if I was hospitalized. The
truth is I can’t. My mind is too focused on preventing it. I am afraid to start back at square one, and I won’t have the energy to fight anymore. I will try
my best for me and my family’s sake.
If you know someone with #chronicillness and/or #ptsd , reach out to them. A simple check in via text or social media every now and then makes a whole world of a difference.